I love this blog dearly and the mutuals I’ve chatted to and whose posts I’ve interacted with over the years. The contributions that have been made, the consciousness that I’ve grown (a little!) due to resources posted here and silly little memes that regularly pop up on my feed.
More and more of my favourite blogs have become inactive over the past couple of years, and maybe it’s a bit parasocial of me - though I like to think it’s more accurately nostalgia - but that’s hurt my heart a little! I miss those people’s content and contributions. I’ve been on this site since I was 12 and have seen it at its peak as well as its long lull.
Having said all of that, my identity has changed a lot since I started this blog nearly 7 years ago. It was founded on reconciling my sexual orientation with my traditionalist religion, but my perspective on those traditions and faith systems have changed and my relationship to my sexuality has drastically changed too. I get nervous talking about those things publicly, even “anonymously” because of the fear of judgement. I know I don’t “owe” anything to anyone but I hate that lack of transparency about my personal growth and change when those things were what this blog was built around and what people follow me for.
I don’t have the energy to deal with anon asks and inbox messages shaming me for being honest about how I feel and what I believe.
I’d love to spend hours deep diving into obscure resources on Orthodox Judaism and lesbianism like I used to, but I study full time, work part time and am in a romantic relationship that I prioritise, making it difficult to post on here like I used to.
All of this is to say that I’m going on somewhat of a hiatus. I don’t know if I’ll come back here in the same capacity that I used to be, but I would still like to hang out here again. I suspect I’ll still pop on here fairly regularly to reblog stuff I find funny or interesting and I’ll probably still post if I have something I want to say lol - even if it just goes into the void and gets no interactions!
It might seem weird that I’m writing this while also saying that I’ll still stick around, but I just wanted to put it into words and pin it to the top of my blog. That way, if anyone feels about my blog the way I feel about my mutuals that are no longer active, they know I’ve not completely abandoned this space. Who knows? maybe no one cares; But I’m thankful for the past few years 💕











