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[neoniinui]

hi everyone uhh tumblr suspended my previous acc for some reason but i was neoniinu and here are some of my arts because i want my moots and followers back

ive also had a lot of thoughts here but it seems like they all are lost forever and i can't say that im not sad at all

[toriavissu]

hi guys i wasn't active here for ages and it's not a sakik post but i also have my main blog which was suspended so i needed to create a new one soooo here it is i draw durarara there

[toriavissu]

i will never get over the second part of the light novel, especially this

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thinking about toritsuka and his family bc i have so many things to say about it. we know that he has father but he seems to be more concerned about his temple things rather than his son. and it seems like he needs toritsuka just as another person to work in the temple or smth else. also uhh

this panel makes me think a lot especially that "your father told us to be strict with you". and we know nothing about his mother and i hc that she's dead but idk idk.

so toritsuka was born and raised in the temple and it looks like he had a very strict upbringing and to my mind this made him what he is now. like all his interest in porn and other seems more as a some kind of protest or an effort to feel the freedom he has never had before. i suppose that in reality he may be not that interested in this, it's just something that was forbidden and now he has access to it.

he doesn't know how to normally behave in society, apparently he wasn't taught this. in my view he's not a bad person, he just had this... unusual childhood and that's why he formed all his stupid habits and interests. ofc that doesn't justify some of his actions but still i love him sm and i don't see him as a bad person at all

[jkgnggj]

Love talking Abt tori's background I've done it a million times and will do it a million more it's just so interesting and there's so much unknowns grr

It def looks like tori's parents neglect him I doubt they even actually "raised" him since they're so hands off and absent in his life and hardly mentioned by him ever. The only time he mentions his old man is to boast Abt his "connections" like with the occult club thing where they were gonna stay at like an abandoned or empty temple or sum. Or when Tori boasts about his background saying he was born in a temple / comes from a temple family etc but I think he only says that to give himself more credibility bc of the whole everyone thinking he's crazy bc he says he can see ghosts shit.

Also from what we do know of his parents, we've only heard Abt his dad not his mom so I like to hc she's outta the picture (either deceased or just not there yk) tho I used to just hc he was an orphan dropped off there and taken in by the monks / head monk or something. Anyways, his dad is mentioned by the monks having said to be strict with Tori or "take care" of him and that's pretty much it, super vague. For all we know it isn't endearing or sweet it's controlling especially bc if the monk's idea of taking care of him is being strict and stuff then maybe Tori had a really strict and rigid daily routine and life growing up in the temple. I mean if his punishment is always gonna be fasting for a certain amount of days then I imagine he'd probs behave most of the time which is why he's well mannered or takes a traditional approach to some things (I think someone once questioned how odd it was he called kusuo saiki-san, like who taught him manners). Also his other temple the one he was probably raised in doesn't look like it had pretty memories considering the fact when he was threatened to be sent back there again he caved and did as he was told or whatever. Or maybe he didn't like the thought of being separated from his master and the cute girls at pk who hate his fucking guys who knows ☠️

And lastly Abt the "he's not a bad person" yes ur totally right I completely agree !! He isn't a bad person. He's got some bad habits and says and does some inappropriate shit but he's not that much of a scumbag as he's made out to be. He's actually a pretty sweet guy even tho he pretends not to be. Tho he only shows the better innocent parts of him he hides to ghosts and saiki. Like that one time he helped an "evil" ghost with the occult club. His lil mom speech was so cute I loved it so much lol! Mom friend toritsuka?! He also has this hatred for humans and like men specifically (maybe he has a dad complex? Or a monk complex? Since he's probably mostly and only been around men his entire life esp if his mom wasn't in the picture). So maybe that men hating attitude has something to do with past trauma who knows there could be so much to unpack. And as for me, I like to believe his hypersexualness / "porn addiction" is like some sort of coping mechanism or something similar. I said this in another post like a long time ago but I think it has to do with his sense of longing to *feel* what love is, to love and be loved. The closest thing he has to work on is lust or pleasure bc those are attributed to physical feelings that are closely related to love but not quite the same thing but it's as close as he'll ever get. I mean he's got mommy and daddy issues he was probably never hugged or held in his entire fucking life, it's no wonder he'd be craving physical affection and love and that twists itself into perversion. Also I imagine he's so obsessed with physical touch and being intimate because of the whole can't touch ghosts thing. Maybe the touching that was his coping mechanism for his powers became the reason he became so disliked, bc ppl started thinking ew gross pervert and it just stuck and in order to cope with that he just had to go with it and keep seeking stimulation.

[toriavissu]

THIS. i really love this post and i absolutely agree with everything

the thing with toritsuka trying to understand what love is is so heartbreaking for me but i love it so much. it's interesting to think about his habits and obsessions from this perspective and for me it seems really canonical that it's he's coping mechanism

[toriavissu]

i have so many thoughts about the post-meteor timeline. like i have a whole continuation of the main plot in my head, where saiki tries to control his powers and learns to do it without his limiters and maybe has some problems initially. he tries to accept his powers and the fact that he didn't lose them and will never be "normal" and an ordinary person. and he doesn't know what to do with his friends now, because he should either tell them everything or continue avoiding them and be stuck in this solitude forever. tbh i wanna write a whole fic

[toriavissu]

thinking about toritsuka and his family bc i have so many things to say about it. we know that he has father but he seems to be more concerned about his temple things rather than his son. and it seems like he needs toritsuka just as another person to work in the temple or smth else. also uhh

this panel makes me think a lot especially that "your father told us to be strict with you". and we know nothing about his mother and i hc that she's dead but idk idk.

so toritsuka was born and raised in the temple and it looks like he had a very strict upbringing and to my mind this made him what he is now. like all his interest in porn and other seems more as a some kind of protest or an effort to feel the freedom he has never had before. i suppose that in reality he may be not that interested in this, it's just something that was forbidden and now he has access to it.

he doesn't know how to normally behave in society, apparently he wasn't taught this. in my view he's not a bad person, he just had this... unusual childhood and that's why he formed all his stupid habits and interests. ofc that doesn't justify some of his actions but still i love him sm and i don't see him as a bad person at all

[oceanwithouthermoon]

arghhagahahhsbs post-cattank torisai makes me SO INSANEEEE

this page alone makes me omfgggsnnskskxisjwn

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hibana

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saiki and teruhashi are kinda alike but at the same time they are opposites. they both are powerful (well kokomi's situation is not the same as saiki's but still being the most beautiful person in the world is kinda supernatural), but they use their powers in completely different ways. saiki does everything not to stand out and he prefers to downplay his abilities and skills to fit into society rather than show something good about himself. he doesn't really care about people's perception and he doesn't measure his value by how much others like him. but people are drawn him. he didn't ask them to, he didn't do anything for it, but they love him and he loves them (even if he denies it). he doesn't need attention but he feels comfortable receiving it from these people (again even he denies it). teruhashi is the opposite. she uses her beauty and love from everyone for her own sake but she pays dearly for it since she has to constantly maintain an image of the perfect girl. people also are drawn to her but they don't love (and don't know) her real self and she doesn't really love them. she feels satisfied only if she recieves proper attention but at the same time she feels uncomfortable about it. and there is something touching about her relationship with saiki because he's the only one (at least i think so) who knows her real self and he likes her because of the fact that she's not perfect. and she likes him because he's not like other boys who just blindly love her perfect version

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saikechi x donut hole idea has been living in my mind for so long so here it is

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too lazy to finish the thing im drawing now so here are some more saiki plush photos. he's such a silly creature

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HE ARRIVED

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thinking about the thing that saiki himself doesn't understand that he's a human too with his emotions and some uhh mental health limit. like, he always thinks about keeping his powers in secret, he pushes people away because of this, but he still feels things like loneliness and he needs friends but just can't let himself develop relationship. i reread manga recently and well, he couldn't be friends with toma normally just because he was thinking about not letting anyone find out about his powers in the first place. he tried to keep distance but it leaded to the incident and his powers going out of control because of all the emotions he tried to suppress

he finds it strange that he feels something like being lonely and he says that he doesn't understand his own feelings

it looks like he doesn't think that emotions are that important and he doesn't let them out, he just keeps everything deep inside and thinks that there's no big deal

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last night i suddenly remembered that this song exists and while listening i thought about saiki's fight with his alternative version from the novel and i can't explain anything about it but-

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i couldn't find the clean version of this one so i removed the text by myself

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them

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thinking a lot abt this thing. "he felt jealous and inferior and i responded to those feelings by coming to hate him"

at first i thought that it's kinda strange to start hating a person who feels smth like this about you but then i suddenly inderstood

kusuke was jealous of kusuo's powers and him being loved by their parents, him being the special one, but kusuo didn't want to have all these things. from kusuo's point of view it was like a mockery, like kusuke wants to have things kusuo hates, kusuke and other people who knew about kusuo's powers thought about them as a blessing while for kusuo they seemed more like a curse. to my mind hatred was a logical reaction to such situation

also there's one more thing. kusuke is what kusuo wants to be: a normal human. yeah he's a genius and he's not an average person but he's still not a god or superhuman, he's not a monster and not a disaster. and kusuo is what kusuke wants to be: powerful, recognized and outstanding. kusuo has too much power and doesn't like it, kusuke also has not enough power and he isn't satisfied with himself too

and the older they became, the worse their relationship was, kusuke talked about kusuo as a monster/god/someone powerful/someone who can change the world but never as a normal human and child. and kusuo used his powers to make kusuke stay in this feeling of defeat forever and they like. they didn't allow each other to live peacefully, touching each other's sore spots intentionally or not

[toriavissu]

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thinking a lot abt this thing. "he felt jealous and inferior and i responded to those feelings by coming to hate him"

at first i thought that it's kinda strange to start hating a person who feels smth like this about you but then i suddenly inderstood

kusuke was jealous of kusuo's powers and him being loved by their parents, him being the special one, but kusuo didn't want to have all these things. from kusuo's point of view it was like a mockery, like kusuke wants to have things kusuo hates, kusuke and other people who knew about kusuo's powers thought about them as a blessing while for kusuo they seemed more like a curse. to my mind hatred was a logical reaction to such situation

also there's one more thing. kusuke is what kusuo wants to be: a normal human. yeah he's a genius and he's not an average person but he's still not a god or superhuman, he's not a monster and not a disaster. and kusuo is what kusuke wants to be: powerful, recognized and outstanding. kusuo has too much power and doesn't like it, kusuke also has not enough power and he isn't satisfied with himself too

and the older they became, the worse their relationship was, kusuke talked about kusuo as a monster/god/someone powerful/someone who can change the world but never as a normal human and child. and kusuo used his powers to make kusuke stay in this feeling of defeat forever and they like. they didn't allow each other to live peacefully, touching each other's sore spots intentionally or not