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Hey guys

So uhhhhhhh... remember when I said a few days ago that I was back?

Yeah actually I'm not quite as back as I originally intended. 😅 In fact, pretty soon after this, I may not be back ever. Like, this is one of the last posts I'll make on this blog.

Don't worry, I'm fine!!! I am thriving and life is moving forward at God's pace. Actually, that's why I'm planning to leave soon.

While I was away in another country where my sole focus was the Lord's work, I asked God if there was anything He'd asked me to do that I'd been holding back on. Anything I needed to surrender to Him. And any time I've ever asked God that, the answer is always whatever thing is capturing more of my attention than He is.

In this case... FNAF.

I've been hearing Him say it for a while. Which has puzzled me, because in the past the things He's asked me to give up has always had something in it that wasn't good for me. But FNAF, though often dark and depressing (and admittedly not without its narrative flaws), has never seemed "bad" for me. (You could actually do a lot worse in picking an indie horror franchise to hyperfixate on!)

But even though FNAF isn't a bad thing to think about, the fact remains that I think about it a lot. Probably more than I think about the things of God. And so, my friends, it's time to step back.

And what's crazy is this is the first time I don't feel like I'm being scolded by God about this!! This is the first time I've felt at peace with simply stepping away from an obsession! It's crazy, guys, but I think that's from God! I've grown closer to Him. I know how much He loves me. It's not a fight anymore, it's a partnership. An understanding that I want to take back my time and thoughts and energy and give them to something greater and more worthy--the most worthy. It's like God is asking "What could happen if you give Me all your time?" And for the first time in my life, I find that exciting rather than scary. :)

(Okay, it's still a little bit scary. But still. I'm at peace.)

I think that FNAF being in a waiting period between games and movies is a big help for this change (another blessing from God). It would be a lot harder to step away if the new game was upon us NOW lol. And I know I've lost a lot of time scrolling the internet for updates and theories and who liked my post and did anyone make any new memes about the latest trailer and--

Maybe it's time for me to rest from all that.

It's not a bad thing. :)

I've had a wonderful time running around in this community on the internet, getting to experience an fandom and its events in progress in REAL TIME alongside other people who are also experiencing it, which is something I missed out on a lot growing up. It's been a blast!! :D Thank y'all for hanging out with me.

I'm most likely still going to see FNAF 3 when it comes out, I just won't be posting about it. Which kinda sucks, because I'd love to hear y'all's thoughts too. And about the next new game. But I really do have other stuff to spend my time on. Like my original fiction series that is supermassive and needs all the time I can give it. And whatever else God has for me.

I'm also probably going to keep writing Night Terrors in the background (because it's become a savior for my sanity when my original fiction is being difficult), just not posting it. Maybe when I finish it I'll upload the entire thing to AO3, but for now that project is going silent. Which also sucks as I didn't want to start something and not finish it, but it's okay. The Aftons are safe in my heart. :)

FNAF will always have a special place in my heart, as will any of you guys I've gotten to interact with. And I'll still be here on Tumblr! If you ever wanna hang out, come visit my other blog, @peeta-mellarks-smile, where I ramble about The Hunger Games and all the other stuff I love. Drop a comment on a post if you wanna chat! Leave an ask in my box! Send me a DM!!

I'll miss you guys. :) Have a good time out there, and remember: God made you special, and He loves you very much.

-Tortilla <3

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. (2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV)

#seriously lemme know if you wanna chat!#life #updates #Christianity #fnaf #fnaf fandom #i'll have a few more posts after this #to go out on a fun note :)

One of these days I'm going to compose a massive essay about how FNAF reflects its creator's Christian faith, and actually has way more Christian themes and motifs than you'd think, but for now I'll have to be content with a few observations every now and then. To me one of the main themes of the franchise as a whole is the consequences of sin. The unending cycle of tragedy caused by someone's decision to put their desires first. To try and be God by taking life, and to try to be God by trying to create life.

One thing FNAF has been very clear about from the beginning is that the death of innocent children should make you feel uncomfortable. It should be unsettling. The murder of innocent children should make you feel uncomfortable. FNAF isn't a horror franchise because the visuals are scary, it's a horror franchise because children were murdered, in a family restaurant, by one of the owners, who was himself a father. That is wrong. It shouldn't be this way. And yet it is. And another thing FNAF has been unyeilding about, especially in recent times, is that there is no sympathy for a man who decided to overpower children and take their lives. Never in the history of this franchise has William been afforded any sympathy, any justification, any explanation for his actions. We see it in the books, where William murdered Charlotte because he hated and admired her father and decided the best way to vent these feelings was to murder a little girl. We see it in the movies, where William is a horrible father to his only child and forces her to take the fall for his actions, and again, is provided no justification for murdering six children. And we see it in Secret of the Mimic, where William is finally exposed as not only a fraud, but a thief who destroyed another company from the inside and reaped the benefits and passed them off as his own.

Can people change? Yes. Can people be redeemed? Absolutely. But it seems as though FNAF, for now, is more focused on providing a solid representation of evil. (And in fact, someone already has been redeemed... and that's Michael.)

Anyway. Those are the last thoughts I have that will be published on this blog. Thank you all again for the fun times. Please feel free to hit me up @peeta-mellarks-smile if you wanna stay in touch!

Peace out :P

-Tortilla <3

#i've had this post sitting in my drafts for ages lol #fnaf #fnaf analysis #fnaf and Christianity #william afton #*waving furiously* BYE SEE YOU LATER!!!!

Night Terrors: Hand-Me-Down

*Setting - the Hurricane High School cafeteria, Spring 1990*

Dave: Dang... can you believe Mrs. Billings? Giving us a five page essay right before a break??

Cassidy: Like you’re not gonna eat it up lol.

Dave: *laughing* Yeah, I do love English... and Pride and Prejudice was really good, actually.

Cassidy: Yeah... *inhales half her sandwich*

Cassidy: Oh by the way, I’ve been meaning to give this back to you. *pulls Mike’s jacket out of her bookbag* Tell your brother thanks from me, it was... really nice to have this for the dance.

Dave: Huh? Oh, no, that’s fine! Mike said you could keep it.

Cassidy: *slow blink* ...what?

Dave: Yeah, he’s, like, doing a whole wardrobe overhaul or something. He wanted me to tell you that you can keep the jacket. Said it suits you better. :)

Cassidy: ...oh. *glances at the jacket* Ok. Cool.

Cassidy’s Heart: *SUDDEN FEELINGS OF EXTREME HAPPINESS*

#if your best friend has a hot older brother who is nice to you and you are a hopeless romantic girlie #then catching feelings for said older brother is a canon event #ask me how i know #fnaf #fnaf au #night terrors au #fnaf cassidy #cassidy hwang #michael afton #she'll be fine don't worry about it #:))))))

A Meeting Of Michaels, Part Three

*setting - the white void, continuous*

Movie!Michael: *on the floor getting a beating*

Game!Michael: APOLOGIZE!!! SAY YOU’RE SORRY!!!!!

Movie!Michael, between blows: THIS IS ABUSE!! THIS IS SELF-ABUSE!!!!!!

G!Michael: NOTHING I'M UNFAMILIAR WITH

The others: *watching with concern*

Michael Brooks: Should we… do something??

Mike Schmidt: Nah. I’ve been dealing with that guy day and night for months. Someone else can have a turn.

G!Michael: *continues taking out his frustrations on his dimensional counterpart*

McNally: Hey, Mike.

G!Michael: *pauses* Yeah?

McNally: I thought you swore off violence.

G!Michael:

G!Michael: …Oh. I did, didn't I. Damn. *drops M!Michael*

M!Michael: Oh, thank god.

#and then night terrors mike somehow showed up and threw everything into chaos again #lol

Night Terrors: Deja Vu

*setting - Hurricane, Henry’s living room*

Henry: You have nothing to be afraid of, Michael. That is, if you have nothing to hide.

Mike, over the phone: ...Of course not. Everything’s going to be fine.

Mike: Good night, Henry.

Henry: Good night. See you soon.

Mike: *hangs up*

Henry: *sits there staring at the phone*

Henry: *having a flashback*

William Afton, 1983: ...Well the children were last seen at Fazbear’s, so of course they have to search here, but that doesn’t mean we’re going to go out of business. There’s nothing to be worried about, Henry. Everything’s going to be fine.

Henry, in the present: *shivers*