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he/him - shifter

[touywa]

U have so much aura twin ngl

DO I!?

[touywa]

in my fame dr i went on hot ones and i genuinely had tears streaming down my face for a full minute or two. super freaks made the clip go viral and i remember one specific caption that said “men crying>>” it gained me a lot of attention tho so a win is a win ig

[touywa]

Bro we miss u 💔💔

Hiiiii

[touywa]

i have a fantasy dr where i’m a prince trying to return home and i got a download of maeve (a tavern keeper) holding my face in her hands and saying “you’re MY boy”

most of my interactions with her consist of us bickering, her hitting me on the head, and giving me jobs. i need to shift back.

[touywa]

How does it look when you shoot webs from your wrists? I’m having such a hard time imagining it 😭

Also how does it feel?

lmaoo if you look at toby’s spiderman then it’s pretty similar to how his webs shoot out. some of the guys in my dr make jokes about it being like ejaculation, if that paints a picture (you can probably guess who).

this doesn’t really help my case but it kinda feels like pressure being released? like my wrist is sneezing…i can’t think of a 1:1 comparison.

[touywa]

so i’ve known about shifting for many years and have on and off been interested in it and tried, but never been successful

i think my main issue is that i think it’s too good to be true, or that i’m undeserving of it

do u have any advice on keeping motivated? and i’m wondering how long it took u to successfully shift and how often u shift?

i’m not the best at giving advice, but i have these moments where i suddenly zoom out and realize how bizarre it is that we’re alive at all. existing is strange. consciousness is strange. the fact that we experience anything from a first-person perspective is strange.

everything is perspective. reality, as we understand it, is limited to what we can perceive and comprehend. so who are we to decide what’s too good to be true? what do we actually know for certain? we haven’t even scratched the surface of understanding the universe. most of the ocean is still unexplored. there are entire ecosystems we’ve never seen. so why do we act like we’ve reached the final conclusion about what’s possible? there were countless things throughout history that were once incomprehensible until they were discovered or proven.

those thoughts used to ground me before i shifted (it took me a year and i’ve lost count of how many times ive shifted by now) they scared me a little too tbh but they reminded me that certainty is an illusion.

and what makes anyone more or less deserving of shifting? even if someone is objectively terrible, shifting itself doesn’t operate on morality. it’s an experience available to anyone, the worst person you know could be shifting rn. at the end of the day, i just think we overestimate how much we know and underestimate how strange existence already is. if being alive isn’t “too good to be true” then why would shifting automatically be?

i have no idea if any of that was actually helpful, but i hope i didn’t accidentally send you spiraling into an existential crisis lol

[touywa]

i’ve honestly written off human connection in my cr. there’s always been a disconnect when talking to other ppl, and that has made it unbelievably difficult to form meaningful relationships. i find that in most conversations, i end up making ppl feel uncomfortable because i misread a social cue, said the wrong thing, or couldn’t muster the energy to give the response they want to hear. that has made me come off to most ppl as disconcerting, weird, or even cold. i’ve been described a lot of the time as “uncaring” by the ppl closest to me, which is so far from the truth. i care so much that it drives me crazy.

anyway, all this to say, thank god for shifting. i know with confidence that the ppl in my drs who claim to know me actually do, and ive formed enough relationships to last me a lifetime. familial, platonic, and romantic.

you WILL shift. It’s inevitable.

[touywa]

Omg can you tell us about some of your support gear??

Also do you get compared to Spider-Man a lot in your DR?

okk it was a little hard finding examples without accidentally using ai modified photos but i’m trying.

starting with the crowd favorite: my mechanical spiders. i can deploy these units to infiltrate vents, crevices, and other discreet locations. they serve as my remote eyes and ears and feed me real time data.

they’re way cuter than this. think of a desktop companion. very expressive little things.

my little visor stub acts as a filter so that i’m not overwhelmed by everything around me, and it also translates signals into visual displays, works as a connection between me and my spiders, and tracks my well-being, among other things.

holsters. i literally carry things like salt packets with me, injectors, and very dense protein bars.

last but not least, gauntlets. i do have web shooters, even though my webbing is organic. they are just wrist straps with tubes that direct the webs outward. they also help me aim.

and yes i do get compared to spiderman! heh

[touywa]

Ik u have a dr where ur in a situationship with Todoroki, and ik ur dating Bakugo in ur main dr, but has there ever been anyone else you pursued/pursued you?

the first person that comes to mind is camie lmao she dmed me asking if i was 💅

believe it or not i also had a very brief thing with kodai from class b, which i’ve mentioned before i think. she’s super stoic and kind of reminds me of shoto. she gave me chocolate on valentine’s day, but she handed some out to a few others as a general gratitude gesture. i was the only one from class a who got anything from her tho which still surprises me. i’m shocked she even likes me lmao i guess my slightly off-putting demeanor charmed her, also she coincidentally loves spiders and i got her to genuinely smile when one of my mechanical ones (support gear) smiled at her with its eyes like this

(⌒ ‿⌒) in the end, we’re just friends. but she’s probably the most notable one…aside from maybe toga but that’s something else.

[touywa]

i feel like people spend so much time in their cr planning out their lives in their drs. you don’t actually have to script every single moment. if you want to go do karaoke or play truth or dare or adopt an animal, those are all choices you already have the power to make in your dr. and just because you script a scenario doesn’t mean it’s set in stone, you’re still an active participant, and you can always decide in the moment to do something else.

[touywa]

can you talk about your methods and how you shift into the dr? i’ve been trying and getting so close but i never actually wake up there.

i honestly stopped using methods bc i have adhd and they’re torturous. even when i was using them i would never follow them all the way through sjdhdh i just do whatever i feel like doing honestly. two nights ago i was thinking abt how grateful i am to aizawa and started crying, then i woke up in my dr 💀 i believe emotions are a strong tether, letting yourself feel what you feel without a specific method, and knowing that shifting is inevitable because it is and it came to you for a reason. there’s no such thing as a coincidence ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[touywa]

im unsure where ur dr is at, but is eri in your dr? this is a little silly but im at the point in the show where we're about to rescue her and im lowk nervous.

like i've dealt with kids before but not like eri, i just like dont really wanna be overwhelming for her if that makes sense??? so like anything i should be mindful about?

my dr kind of derailed from the plot at the moment but yes eri is actually a big part of my life. we were both orphaned from a young age so in that regard i could relate to her and aizawa actually encouraged me to talk to her

i opened up to her about my own experiences hoping it might take her mind off everything she’s been through and make her feel less alone. i wanted to take some of the attention onto myself instead of letting her get lost in it. she listened with nothing expected in return. after that, she started wanting to be around me more often, and she’s basically become my little sister, especially since aizawa looks after both of us. sometimes she asks me questions about my past on her own, like whether i know my mother, but they’re just reflections of her curiosity.

overall, i’d say just don’t push her to talk abt anything if she doesn’t want to, keep your expectations low (as terrible as that sounds) and let her take the initiative. if you’re consistent in ur efforts and presence she will warm up to you bc that’s just how kids are.

[touywa]

Ok so—no idea if you’ll be able to help with this. But like do women/make-up wearing people wear their makeup or other cosmetics (piercings, nails, lash extensions, etc.) while doing hero work? Like should I script in I have an ungodly good setting spray or is it normal to be bare faced? I know it seems like a stupid question but hero’s are public figures right? So they need to look good. But does that mean you need to wear makeup n stuff while working?

yeah i’m not super helpful here since i don’t really have firsthand experience. i do have piercings tho and i got annoyed with always having to remove them so i just scripted it wouldn’t be a problem. i’ve noticed hero students usually don’t wear makeup during training, but a lot of pro heroes do, and there are even makeup brands made for active figures.

you don’t really have to do anything, it’s just a matter of preference. if you want to wear makeup or have your nails done without dealing with the logistics, scripting around it is probably the easiest option. and if you’re not into that, then it’s not something you need to worry about.

[touywa]

ive never felt the way i do with katsuki toward anyone else. it actually makes me feel crazy. the thoughts that cross my mind when im with him are borderline deplorable (not even in an nsfw way) i could fuse our skin together and i’d still want to be closer

guess my star sign 🤦‍♂️

[touywa]

hey, idk if you're taking asks so ignore this if you aren't! I follow you on your TikTok account and I was wondering if you could explain the plot of your fantasy dr? ive been meaning to make a mha fantasy dr but no idea where to start and I thought yours sounded cool

to sum it up it all starts with this super old legend everyone knows:

“when the demon lord rises, the light will rise to meet him.”

except no one actually knows what “the light” (also known as ofa) even is. there were whole quests and wars over it centuries ago, but after years of absolutely nothing, the search was abandoned, and the legend became something nice to believe in.

recently the land has been seemingly dying and everyone’s freaking out.

my dr is basically just a quest looking for the light: an adventurer with no known origins, a runaway royal, a demigod and his dragon, and an heir cast out until he earns the right to return.

different people with completely different goals, but the world’s falling apart and nobody else is doing anything about it.

[touywa]

Just read ur other posts AYA THE RIZZLER CONFIRMED?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[touywa]

does bakugo get drunk easily? if he even does drink

he has a pretty good tolerance and isn’t someone who drinks often but he’s the type who can be blackout drunk and still not show it 😭 his asian flush is extremely cute tho