how do you live without wanting to kys as a transmasc minor (full transparency I can’t take hrt now, diy or otherwise is not an option)
As a trans man who also couldn't take gaht as a minor and had an unsupportive family, I personally used the arts (drawing, writing, etc. like you do now! :)) to express my frustrations while also making future plans and solidifying myself.
For me, "future plans" looked like exploring what method of testosterone I wanted to take, what is the process of obtaining hormone therapy, do i want to wear a chest binder, how do i do that safely, what is the process of changing my legal name in my country and state, if I wanted to have top/bottom surgery, types of double mastectomy incisions, types of bottom surgery, figuring out how I would pay for what I wanted, what figure was I working towards, what i am interested in pursuing as a career, etc. Remember, there is no "right" way to go, and it's all about what you prefer and want.
By "solidifying myself," I was trying to figure out my preferred style of dress (pinterest was my best friend for this one), what I wanted my full name to be, what my core values are, what are some more hobbies I want to do, what scents do I like in fragrances (fragrantica let's you search based on notes you like), what's my music taste, what do i enjoy doing, etc. This part is just hashing out the smaller details, so even the answers may not be entirely static, and that's okay!
This part of life is like pulling yourself up on a thorny vine, and although it hurts terribly now; When you reach full control, you can bandage your hands knowing you won't have to climb it again.














