THIS IS GONNA BE LONG I DIDN’T THINK I’D ACTUALLY. SAY THIS MUCH, BUT. HERE’S MY EXPERIENCE WITH THEM.
OKAY YEAH SO LIKE, i’ve already talked about this guy to the op and apparently my experiences are technically old news because they’ve done shit they’ve done to me to countless other people, but i might as well put in my own information publicly too to just.. yknow, have more proof for people to see stuff. (they currently do not go by keith afaik but i’ll still? use that name for consistency, i guess?)
i knew this guy back in the latter half of 2017. we met over don’t hug me i’m scared inside a furby server, and they seemed pretty nice. i do genuinely believe i was their favourite person at the time, bpd-wise. i’m pretty sure they even told me that, and while they are pretty manipulative and will usually say anything to keep you around, i believe it was genuine said considering how they treated me.
it doesn’t help that i actually met up with them in real life after i met them initially online - they lived about two hours away from me in the same state and were going to move away soon.
i’m a cautious person, i wouldn’t normally do this - i made sure to have extensive proof that they were who they were beforehand, and the meeting went surprisingly well, but it just.. still felt wrong. i ended up getting sick, and they made fun of me for it, and not in the friendly-ribbing way, like.. genuinely making fun of me.
when i would talk to them, they’d openly insult my ocs, they’d insult my art, they’d criticize me enjoying a certain media and then turn around a week later and literally thirstposted about the main character for said enjoyed media, enjoyed something that apparently had this dude who would fuck his dead wife’s corpse and genuinely saw nothing wrong with that??
they got mad at me for having a fucking 3ds, and called me rich. something that i got as a gift from not even my own family years after it came out so the price had been dropped, while it was on clearance for the holidays so it was even cheaper. i tried to explain that to them, that i’m not rich or anything, but they didn’t care. i had a 3ds, so clearly i must be an entitled rich bitch. i’m pretty sure at one point they got mad at me for having secondhand furbies?? like, me having literally any money made them mad.
it got to the point that i was afraid to even tell then ‘no’ to not watching a cartoon that they enjoyed because it made me personally uncomfortable. i never told them it did, i never told them no, i just dodged the question repeatedly and it somehow didn’t piss them off.
another time, they openly admitted to getting off to noncon (aka fucking rape), not even in like, a “i have trauma and i need help but this is the only way i can vent it out and this happened to come up in conversation”* it was said as like, a goddamn guilty pleasure or something.
near the end of me knowing them, they sent a character design of a smiling anthro rabbit with a bodysuit playboy-type outfit with shackles on, with a label saying “fuckbunny” on it.
* (which honestly isn’t great, but i can get it in theory? i’ve. gone through my own fair share of rape trauma.)
among other gross horny stuff, YEAH, I REMEMBER SAORISE. when i knew keith, saorise was a trans woman with a girlfriend, also a trans woman. but like.. it was so weirdly fetishistic? like, they specifically talked about them having dicks multiple times without me even like.. asking. like they made such a point of them being trans that it bordered onto creepy? like, i’m literally trans myself and was already out for a long time at that point. this isn’t a “i’m cis and uncomfortable!” it was literally just “w. why are you telling me about them being girls and having dick. i don’t. what?”
they pressured me into letting them join my friend group. i’d give them excuses to avoid it. i already knew keith was trouble about a week into this, but was too afraid to leave, so i tried to say anything that’d get them to drop it without making them mad.
- “i don’t think you’d really get along, unfortunately”
- “why do you want to be friends with people who wouldn’t like your other friends?”
they’d bring it up a lot. i eventually cracked and let them into the server, but warned people beforehand in a private channel that keith couldn’t see.
but here comes back to the FP thing;
they trusted me. a lot. i can’t speak of if this happened to anyone else who wasn’t their FP, but man. they had me on call to listen to their mother absolutely scream at them in the car. they trusted me to try to help them, and it seemed genuine, not malicious - their home situation was fucking awful. they were genuinely looking for a way out, not a way to get closer to abuse me. they put an effort into looking up legal documents with me to try to figure out how to get them out. we never talked about them moving in with me in the future.
the thing is, they wanted to protect me, too. me and my friends at the time would playfully insult each other a lot, jokingly say ‘fuck you!’ in response to silly jokes, it was all fun and games. their response to it was to get mad on my behalf, tell me it wasn’t healthy, tell me it wasn’t okay. which, it was! it was fine, we were all okay with it, we constantly would ask if each other were okay whenever we felt we overstepped any boundaries, etc. but keith just didn’t care. to them, my friends were clearly hurting me, and i needed to be protected.
at one point, they tried to pressure me into a polyamorous relationship with them and their partner at the time. while i do believe this was influenced by them sensing me wanting to leave, i do also think they did genuinely love me, even if it was quite. uh. filled with a sense of desperateness at that point.
and about the polyamourous part, don’t take this wrong - i literally am polyamorous myself. the thing is, i didn’t want to be with them. i tried to tell them this, and they only got mad. that was the last straw for me, honestly.
after i cut them off i ended up getting in contact with someone who was friends with their partner back in 2015, they made callout posts about the abuse the partner suffered, transphobia, mental abuse, breaches of privacy ie. logging into the partner’s account without permission, etc.
they’ve been like this for literal years. they haven’t stopped. i know this is the general consensus; they haven’t stopped, and most likely never goddamn will.
it genuinely did seem like i was their goddamn favourite. they would not let me go. like, yes - they love being possessive, they love getting mad at people for leaving, so on - but this fucker literally stalked me and my friends for literally two fucking years after i finally stopped talking to them, trying to find any way to get back into contact with me. i kept dodging it, avoiding them, deleting accounts they’d find me on until they contacted me on goddamn rabb.it of all things and i finally went off at them - literal paragraphs saying everything they did wrong, admitting my own mistakes to them, telling them that while i acknowledge they’re sick, they cannot be excusing their abuse on bpd and trauma, etc. i told them it’s an explanation, not an excuse. i told them to fix themself, and to never talk to me again. their only response was “okay, thank you”. they only tried to add me on discord one last time in 2019 on an account i have no clue how they found, and after i denied the request, never again.
like the person above, i wasn’t exactly great myself. i can’t personally say what i did, cause i genuinely just.. don’t remember. but i know i did bad things then, and i know i’ve learned from it. most people do! we’re humans, we can’t help but learn, it’s natural. we were all assholes in the past, and we’ll look back on ourselves in the future and call ourselves assholes again.
but keith just.. doesn’t learn. they only seem to get worse. like, as someone who has literally kept an eye on them from a distance since i cut them off, (christ, i have like, a mile long list of URLs they’ve had since 2017 for the sole purpose of blocking them to keep them away from me.) my god they haven’t changed for the better and most likely never will unless they genuinely put some serious effort into evaluating their own actions and learning from it. which honestly, they don’t? seem capable of that. which is honestly just genuinely sad to me.
there’s something deeply wrong with this person. there’s no fixing them, not outside of professional. honestly, there’s probably more they did to me, but at this point i have enough going on in my life and it was long enough ago that my brain probably just got it flushed out of my memory to keep me safe.
honestly, if anyone with their own experiences with this guy want to talk to me one-on-one, i don’t mind! i’m here.
edit: if anyone who sees this wants more information than what op linked, check out their blog. they have much more new information since then. i honestly didn’t realize there were newer posts until i’d already posted this reply.
