lets demystify transition

a blog to share the experience of transexuals, made by a transexual for transexuals. this is not a discourse blog or an exclusionist blog. i'm devin, he/him, and i'm bisexual. the mod of @our-queer-experience

[transsexual-experiences]

reading progressive sex ed caricatures with accurate and detailed and realistic diagrams of sexual organs + shows their variation, but all i can think about is how there is no discussion of what srs is besides the fact that it exists

[transsexual-experiences]

how may people know the before and afters of vaginoplasty? phalloplasty? meta? how it works at all?

[transsexual-experiences]

this one has been passed around recently from the mayo clinic and that actually makes me so happy because how many of transfeminine people are aware of what their options even look like?

there’s a diagram for phallo and meta from springer link(i believe) and. honestly i’d never seen these before and i dont think i’ve ever seen any diagrams. i know vaguely because of reading papers or listening to people talk about their experience but i’ve never seen it, yk? it makes me more confident in my choice to get meta when i’m older

[terraswallows]

Smoking absolutely destroys your estrogen.

[tf2heritageposts]

doing research into my penis options and this is such a funny stock image to use here

[tf2heritageposts]

people pointing out i said penis options and i am in fact doing research into my options for penis. my penis options #mypenisoptions

[princesspuppyangel]

Woah Progestrobun!

[demilypyro]

sometimes I see a post that's like "this character but I made her trans" but it's just like, that character with a dick. and like. idk. I'm a trans woman but I don't have one of those. it can make me a little sad to think that's what people think being trans is about... she could be trans and not have a dick, have you considered that

[demilypyro]

like you can draw me naked if you want. and there wouldn't be a dick but it would still be a trans woman's body, y'know

[cykelops]

I think phalloplasties aren’t popular because they have a name that sits strangely on the tongue so for marketing purposes im thinking a rebrand to big megadick enhancer 9000

[sinonlynx]

it so cool how the standard of evidence for "pro"-trans studies are "well they didnt use dohble blind approaches so it doesnt count" meanwhile anti-trans studies are fully accepted while making claims like "transition doesnt work because the tranny still had autism afterwards"

[aftonstan]

Yeah suicide attempt rates where slashed in half for guys who wanted and got phallo and it has high success and extremely low regret rates but phallo doesn't look right to me so 🫤 results inconclusive 🫤

[storyweavingspider]

Girls if you see this I am stuffing you full of high calorie and fat and protein food. For the boob and butt and hip growth, you see

[missstrogen]

Make girls fatter today, eat more carbs :)

[storyweavingspider]

For the girls with *certain* brainworms:

Your transition is fueled by calories and fat specifically. Unless you are extremely blessed by genetics, you will not grow the boobs, etc. you want without puttin calories in it, because boobs are almost entirely fat and have to GAIN new fat to make them.

Also if you feel you’re not developing fast enough, or as fast as the other girls, ask your mom, aunt, or grandma (on mom’s side) (if you safely can) if women in their side of the family family are early or late bloomers—it will legit help dysphoria so much to be able to go “oh, yeag my friend got D cups in 6 months on estrogen, but women in my family were the last in their classes to start puberty” rather than despairing that your transition is “just obviously a failure”. Trust me, I know and I was there too and my body is still growing and changing a LOT more 5 years on E bc my momma was a late bloomer too.

[storyweavingspider]

IF YOU ARE SCROLLING AND HAVEN’T EATEN RECENTLY, THIS IS A SIGN TO GET UP AND GO EAT

Reblog it to make the girls around you go eat too 😤

[papercranesandpride]

I thought I should share my top surgery results on here, because my top surgery was a little unconventional. Here's a full view of my chest. Pay attention to the right side of this photo.

And here's a closer view of that side:

As you can see, there's a little dent on one side of my chest, in addition to an extra scar attached to the main one. This is not a mistake. I specifically asked for this.

I was born premature, and in the first month of my life, my lung collapsed. When this happens, they insert a tube in your chest and suck out the fluid that comes in to fill the space, and then the vacuum that creates causes the lung to reinflate. As a result, since I was an infant, I've had a scar on my chest. When my breasts grew, the scar was firmly adhered to the muscle tissue that the breast on that side ended up having a large indentation in it. So for 23 years, my chest has had a scar on one side. And for about 15 years, my breasts were noticeably irregular. One of them had a large hollow on the side of it.

When I started pursuing top surgery, my biggest priority was that I wanted to preserve that scar. It has been a part of me for essentially my entire life. It's part of the way I look. I didn't want to lose that. And when I told my surgeon that, he immediately understood. And more than that, figuring out how to keep it was clearly a fun challenge for him. He asked if I wanted him to create an indent in my chest, so I'd retain that as well, and I said yes. I just assumed I'd have to lose that aspect of it if I wanted to have a flat chest, but he proved me wrong.

So even though I got my breasts removed, I still have the same scar from when I was a baby, and I still have a little dent in my chest. I think that's really cool. This isn't just any trans guy's chest. It's specifically my chest. Scars and all.

The reason I want to share this is so that you all realize that trans surgeries are individualized. The results are customizable to you. If there's something specific you want, even (or especially) if it isn't how other people's bodies look, you should pursue it. A good surgeon will understand that and do what they can to help you achieve it.

You don't have to try and achieve a cis body, or an average body, or a body that meets societal standards. You deserve to have your own body. It should look like it's yours.

Anyway, have another picture of my chest because it's cool:

(Additional information people might want to know: my surgeon was Dr. John Borkowski in Middletown, CT. He retired very shortly after my surgery, so you should not try and get top surgery from him. Second, he suggested several treatments to make my incision scars less visible, and I chose not to do them. If you're the kind of person who doesn't want prominent scars, don't look at how visible my scars are and get worried. That's on purpose. Third, the acne on my chest is not at all related to surgery. I always had a lot of acne on my breasts, and it took about two weeks after surgery for that to come right back. Don't look at these pictures and worry that top surgery will give you acne. That's just a me thing)

[sharkgirldick]

Happy neopussy Friday, babes!

[sharkgirldick]

On this beautiful neopussy Friday, I want to remind everyone that a trans woman isn't "a girl with a dick." We're a very broad (hehe) community, and being a trans woman means something different to each individual. If you want bottom surgery so you can have a pussy of your own, that choice doesn't make you less of a trans woman. It most certainly doesn't "perpetuate gender stereotypes."

We all deserve to be happy in our bodies, whatever that looks like.

Also, neopussies are hot.

[road0flife]

[avalonjoan]

@massachusetts-official

[angry-ace]

Extremely funny sentence

[mxjackparker]

Looking over the bullshit Children's Social Services referral made for my daughter while I was in the hospital after giving birth, because I've finally gotten around to making a formal complaint about the transphobic abuse and mistreatment I experienced from midwives and other staff while recovering, and I'm so angry all over again at what a joke this is:

The primary reasons they gave for referring me to CSS were... that I'm trans and live with other people. For that, they suggested there's a danger to my baby that required intervention.

It's such a short piece of text and there's so much wrong. The entire premise is obviously fucked up, but then there's the way they write it. I get called a "transman" as one word, my top surgery is mentioned out of nowhere, my cis friends that I live with are called "males" and my other friend is mentioned as being trans despite no relevance, they call me "she" after only one sentence of gendering me correctly before it, imply I'm lying about not being romantically involved with my friend, and incorrectly state that I'm financially supported by my friend (never said this, not sure where they got it from).

Luckily when CSS called, the woman I spoke to closed the case immediately after talking to me. She thought the referral was as ludicrous as I did and apologized to me for this happening. It doesn't escape my notice that if it had been a different social worker who was more transphobic, I would've had to deal with invasive house visits and assessments immediately after getting home from a 5 day hospital stay during which I only slept for 4 or 5 hours total.

People in that hospital thought I was inherently an unfit parent for being trans. I honestly think I'd risk a home birth if I ever get pregnant again.

[wizardarchetypes]

i had a nap dream that i got a phalloplasty and the results were so incredible that somehow it got out that i had the most beautiful penis in the world (whatever that would mean) and actors started hiring me to be their penis double in films (as if there are a ton of penis closeups in hollywood) and i made a decent living doing it but it was in all my contracts not to say anything so no one knew it wasn’t the actors’ real penises. but then after a few years a journalist noticed and compared all the shots and realized they were all the same penis so she found me and wrote an article for vanity fair. i was thrust into the spotlight and didn’t know how to handle the attention. i got invited to talk about it on a talk show and the host introduced me like “you know his penis…now meet the man!”

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

hey sex witch :3

I have a clitoris currently, and am debating going on T and possibly getting bottom surgery some day. If I go on T and get bottom growth, am I then going to get, like... erections? When I get horny?

And, following up, is it possible that I'll get erections if I get bottom surgery? Will different kinds of bottom surgery effect that differently?

thanks!

hi anon,

yes, going on testosterone will (often!) cause a clitoris to get larger and experience erections in a way similar to a cisgender man's penis would. the clitoris is made of the same erectile tissue as a penis is, and also responds to arousal by filling with blood and becoming engorged. taking testosterone can make that process much more noticeable since the clitoris (often!) increases in size.

bottom surgery is very individual from patient to patient, and the end goal is whatever you want it to be. if it's important to you to have a sensitive penis and/or one that can be used during penetrative sex, your care team will work with you to make that a reality.

[rainbow-demoness]

Since most doctors are cisgender and I don't trust cisgender doctors to be universally good about giving trans patients accurate information: if you reach the point of having noticeable erections when you get aroused (and sufficient T should get you there) and you want bottom surgery and still have that happen, that is possible. If a doctor only suggests phalloplasty and that you'd need a device which mechanically forms erections for you, they're not telling you all your options. The keyword you're likely looking for is metoidioplasty.

The state of the art may have advanced since, and your best best is to ask a trans guy for whom it's been relevant somewhat recently or who has kept up with the news on it. Last I heard, there are two major methods (and have been for a while):

tl;dr phalloplasty has an advantage on size, metoidioplasty on cis-similarity of erections. Both give sensation, can typically piss from the tip, and are typically combined with a scrotum. Ask a transmasc to be sure.

In phalloplasty, a flap of skin is harvested from elsewhere on your own body (locations vary, lower arm, thigh, abdomen...) and rolled into a tube to form a penis whose size can be more or less chosen (within reason, but "average" is well within reach). Sensation can be better than you might expect: the graft typically includes a nerve, which the clitoral nerves can attach to, and after a recovery period, the skin of the neophallus becomes sensitive as expected for genitals. However, the same doesn't go for erectile tissue, since nowhere else has equivalent tissue to place there. So instead, you get inflatable penile implants, which get filled not by arousal but by an implanted pump (I think the pump and/or control tends to be concealed as one of the testicle protheses). This is mechanically fairly close to how erection normally works, so it should function fine, but if you want it to respond autonomously to arousal levels, this is not that.

In metoidioplasty, no self-transplantation occurs. Instead, it takes advantage of the bottom growth that T causes (so it kind of relies on that). The once-clitoris, now grown to what's often called a T-dick, is freed from the skin holding it down. This allows it to stand up as in cis guys, and reveals a bit more of it. The end result, as I understand it, looks and functions pretty much like a cis dick (it's the same structure, after all), just not a very large one, because you get what you've grown. I do not know whether it is typically long enough for penetration, but the way it gets talked about makes me suspect that it usually is. Do ask your surgeon and/or trans mascs who've had it done if you need to be sure.

Both techniques typically construct a scrotum (from the erstwhile outer labia), implant testicle prostheses, and lengthen the urethra to emerge at the tip of the new penis. The vaginal canal may also be closed, but I suspect that requires a hysterectomy, because a blind uterus runs the risk of being a very bad time if your period ever returns for any reason.

There's a lot of things I don't know about the details, but at least I hope this gives you an idea for some pointed questions to ask your care team, and to get a second opinion if they only give you one option where you should have two.

[orcaking]

The Lake

[accessible-art]

[ID from Alt: an illustration of a nude trans masculine figure with shoulder length dark hair, top surgery and phalloplasty scars. They are standing knee deep in a lake, with their head bowed and are holding a sword horizontally in front of them. Behind them are trees and a pink sky.

[transmascpolls]

Transmascs on T: have you experienced any completely unexpected effects from T?

Yes, unexpected and position effects

Yes, unexpected and neutral effects

Yes, unexpected and negative effects

Yes, multiple unexpected effects that I’ve felt differently about

Not, not really, I had a general idea of all the effects I’ve experienced

No, not at all, I know specifically all the effects I’ve experienced would come

Unsure / I don’t know

Other answer / it’s complicated

See results / not on T

Voting ended onFeb 4

Positive / negative / neutral is from your perspective on it

[gunpowder-tim]

if ur american u should check this guy out bc! customised binders!!!