All the T changes

A blog with all the mostly small changes when on Testosterone. Both for small venting on the annoyances of some changes and for the excitement of other changes. And how these changes are affecting your life.  Everyone is welcome to submit. I have been on T since december 22nd 2015 (and may have wrong calculations in that one post somewhere)

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Oh my god

So my posts are just confusing on how long ive been on T.

But for reference i started T on december 22nd 2015

Yeah imma put that in my uh bio. Ha. I got a semi recent post there saying im a year on T lol. Yeah double that at least .

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Body update

I am now 3 years and a month or 2 on T

I want to mention my lil short shoulder length blonde hair. And that today as a cashier im misgendered on a daily basis. Even me and a fellow male coworker its making me think people are just expecting ot tp be girl that they dont think or look before speaking. So anytime im misgendered on the register im like “this person is blind, not thinking, not looking, or all of the above. Not taking it personally”

My T got “lowered” and thats in quotation because it just got additional 2 weeks between my shots so it’s now every 14 weeks instead of 12 weeks.

The hairs of my arms have been the same for a while. I dont look like a hairy ape thankfully. My arm hair is visible but kot like obvious. Its just uhm. Thin long slightly darker hairs.

Leg hair is darker wavy and im not obviosly hairy but theyre so… The hair is patchy. And the hairs that are there are long slightly thicker and darker. So it looks bleh. I would wax my legs if it wasnt such a hassle.

Treasure..trail? Hairline from bellybutton is now dark long wavy hairs well visible.

I have 1, 1inch long dark but not very thick. Chest hair on the left side scar of my chest from Top surgery

Been using minoxidil on and off for help on beard growth and when used consistently works great. And has served its purpose for me to jump start the beard growth so i dont end up with years of moustache. And no despite no usenin the last few month my beard didnt wither away because I’m on T. If i wasnt it would wither away. So if youre not on T and want beard then go ahead use minoxidil but make sure its safe. Keep an eye out and read ahead!

Acne? Yes i have but thats all my fault at this point. If i had regularly clean pillow covers and changed my sheet more often i probably wouldnt have acne. I have a little bit on my face. Mostly small redness and the occasional 1-4 pop-able acne. (Im lacking pillow cases. Dont worry i bought a bunch so we’ll see how that goes)

My hairline decided to follow my dads hairline and. No. Not happening! So im using minoxidil to fill those missing triangles in again. Its one thing to have corners. But no reason for them to go that far back in. My hair is nice and thick. But thats just my family genes. I wonder if theres a correlation between long hair vs short hair in healthy hair. As long hair gets brushed which is like massage and pulling making better blood flow. Vs short hair not getting brushed or pulled as much.

Everything is stable currently. Thankfully. Changing your dose/timing makes your body get all upset and confused. My body temperature is still low. I still have cold hands and feet with low circulation which is this cold at one point made me legit afraid of losing my fingers to the cold. Guess T isnt gonna fix that :/

Also on note my cold allergy changed AGAIN! It keeps changing i should have a diary just for that. Now it’s all “if chest gets cold then you will have trouble breathing” and i had just gotten adjusted to life with a buff around my neck 24/7 since before it was all “if neck gets cold then you have trouble breathing”. However the buff keeps my throat warm which contains warmth near my chest. But I gotta start wearing warm shirts and shit :/

I remember before my pubic hair was gonna gt all thick and annoying but its not doing that now. So i guess all in all im happy with the dosage change. I get the look like a guy psrt but without excessive acne and annoying pokey hair. Btw back when my pubic hair was thick and pokey and annoying my ass cheeks. In the shower i would put silky soft conditioner on it which made it softer and didnt annoy me on a daily basis. I put conditioner on there. And then on my hair after shampooing and then washed body with soap and then rinse as the conditioner down there had now gotten the time to make my hair smooth. Also straight conditioner on leg hair? Uh yes. Lol. Looks nicer.

Also i may be almost a year post op top surgery having neglected my scar care but better late then never i say as i put lotion on my scars on the occasions i remember to.

Ugh also im almost a year post op which means possible fix up of my dog ears. Dont have much just a lil one on the left and a lil bigger on the right. But im just so not in the mood for another surgery followed by not moving hands and shit.

Im burning on average 2600 cal a day on a work day and around 1700-1900 on a day off where i mostly sleep and chill. Im not going to the gym at all. But my legs are all skinnier than before(but not skinny though) and musclier. Upper body is just mostly fat i think. Haven’t been working those out. Haven’t been doing leg workouts either but i do dinosaur walks on my “toes” so that might explain leg muscle. And im 62-64kg now. And i used to be approaching 79kg before starting T. For reference im only 5'2" so yeah.

Standing im like. My ass is just so sad. Omg. And my stomach is like flat ish but still fat. Like its not beer belly fat its like flat fat.(wait isnt that a bad thing? Shit organ fat!) And my arms are so skinny(not skinny uh. Stick like?) But also not. Theyre not thick enough and i feel weird i gotta start lifting.

OH!

Topless. Now. My upper body looks more male like. Well i mean theres flat chest but i mean its rectangular when i stand normally. But then i stretch up and breathe in and it looks more like a doritos! So yay! Felt good i just noticed that today btw. Gender euphoria yes!

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2 years and 5 months on T

My legs are getting hairier.

As in my calves are now pretty hairy. We got that lots of long squiggly hair.  But my thighs are working on it. The hair is coming up from my knee and growing from there but also ahem growing basically outwards from my crotch. So middle of my thigh rn is not as hairy as the rest. Not that i ever would, but with this hair growth radiating from my crotch im not wearing a speedo anytime soon. Then again i would never wear a speedo. I feel like its illegal in a way..

Other than that im just annoyed how long it takes my head hair to grow. I suppose i could add some minoxidil to my conditioner or something.

Ah beard! I havent been good at using the minoxidil recently. But my chin and stash which is visible but not many hairs so its not good lookingnifni let it grow.. it grows in faster

I finally have hairs coming in my sideburn area. FINALLY im guessing thats the minoxidil. Because i wanted that hair to come first. Cheek area is like a desert with a few plants scattered all over.

But fast growing. And now im too lazy to shave shave as in all the way so ive just been trimming it with my electric razor. But it comes back pretty fast tho. Like 2-3 days and im like "oh i gotta trim it again" 

Im also totally cheating and using the minoxidil on where my hairline decided to recede for the corners. Idk i don't need corners going back that far. Aaaan uh i liked my middle hairline dip. It was a very sharp dracula looking hairline. So im totally using minoxidil to make sure that stays. Thankfully the foam form evaporates quickly. As the oil form is just annoying for a while and sticky.

I am really not that good at noticing changes right now. I just had top surgery recently and im mainly just thinking about that.

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Doc decided to delay my T shot by extra 2 weeks.

Despite no complaints on my side im all good here. None of the excessive T side effects.

But im going with it cuz idk why not lets see. Maybe it will stop me from looking like a gorilla who knows.

Day after i was originally supposed to get my shot as per previous 12week plans my body decided to panic with fun hot flashes and cold and hot and cold abd hot and cold.

Now at week 13 i have a sense of smell. And to be honest... Id rather not. I wonder how people manage to sleep without showering. My sweat is overwhelming as i try to sleep. My nose complains.

I have been eating nothing but dominos for the past few montha and mt hand took its sweet aweet time of an entire week to heal the claw marks from my grandmas cat(she has earmites and wasnt a fan of me putting anything near her ears. But she was a very good girl through the whole ordeal i gave her kisses and asked for forgiveness before leaving)

Well see how things are in week 14 before my shot

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Might not be T related but im unsure. Yesterday I fell asleep early (8pm-ish) and slept until I had work at 10am(usually i eat something around or even after midnight) by 10:30 my body decided just went “Its too hot! oh no! youre dizzy! oh no! youre gonna puke!” I did manage to calm it down by moving slower and getting a glass of water.  Its not even as if I hadnt eaten. I are quite a big fleshful of fish before falling asleep. 

However it was the MOST DRAMATIC way I have ever had my body tell me to eat food.

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hair update

I HAVE MORE SIDEBURN LOOKING HAIR!

FINALLY!

I mean my legs get hairier each day and my calves are surrounded in long dark curly hair(which i kinda want to straighten) and my thigh has smaller less dark straight hairs. Its also looking like my pubic hair is all “hey! this area of the thigh is now mine!” and im just like “what? NO? thats LEG. not crotch. get your shit together and stop this!”

do you know how weird it is to uh be cutting your toenails looking at the top of my foot(dorsal) and just seeing a rather random patch of hair. and then the odd need to shave it. and then you just want to shave your toe hair as well. which is just as weird btw. Still not a fan of that asshair. Life was simpler back then and now... now things get stuck and its just.. WHY. stop putting hair there! its only gonna get things stuck. I always feel like I never wiped enough. its annoying.

lower arm is looking the same in visible long straight hairs if you look at them. but nothing you notice far away..  top arm is looking the same in tiny almost invisible curly hairs. I gotta exfoliate. hairs still slowly going over my hand but not too far. I also got a nice big burn from about a large spoonful of hot hot oil straight from the pan right on my left hand. hair is still there and good. dead skin cells im waiting to fall off. Mind you fixing your chest under the binder when you have a large burn on the back of your hand is painfull and irritating as it hurts but despite the pain you still feel like you didnt fix your chest well enough but pain so you leave it be.

Head hair needs to grow faster please... HHair line did go back for that boxy look. and now its coming in again in those corners for a more round look and i am confused. but happy i gues. dont really want my head hair to go anywhere.slightly sad that my favourite dip of the hairline down the middle of the forehead is planning on a trip further back to a more straighter line. I dont want a straighter line. im fine with the dip it looks nice. 

Moustache is barely visible and now tat i think about it might be a bit creepy.But I am reluctant to shave it. out of nowhere just a dozen hairs appeared on my chin. i thought it was a dream at first since thats thje only times i notice sudden beard type thing. but i checked the mirror and yes. dozen long curly hairs popped up there and theyre just gonna get longer and weirder looking unless i shave them. 

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So far i have some hair on my chin. Mostly light but like at least 10 dark ones and those are long and curly son i gotta shave because it looks horrible Lots of light hair as a moustache so its there but invisible from far away but definitely needing a trim because once you get close you see "oh. Oh no. That looks creepy" And some hair coming in around my would be sideburns. Not much in the actual sideburn area but in the surrounding area.

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There are times when i just look somewhere and i go "woah! Hairy! Since when?" I knew my thighs had hair but just now i realized its like 2 x more hair than i thought i had. Amazing

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Before: i run all day at work and im cold all day at work. Today: i use a staircase and im hot and sweating by the time i get down.

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My thighs have hair. They used to be hairless And now just hair. On my thighs Am i going to be like a shorthair gorilla?

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Okay i knew about the ass hair and i thought it would be just that. Hair near my asshole.

I did not expect(or remember) it to be ass hair as in ON MY ASS CHEEK? that just feels. So weird. Like im sitting on the toilet and i feel my ass cheek hair moving.(but theres no wind so im also confused)

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My voice is deeper. But thats not the point. No one can hear me anymore! I have to speak up and still it feels like im just loud whispering. I cant emphasize words or speak louder and i just feel kinda muted by it. As a person that had a big problem with being ignored this deep voice that no one can hear isnt helping...

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Acne

I always throught the position of my acne on my face was odd. But never thought it through well enough to realize it wasnt just the extra oily face.. First i got acne on my chin and above my lips. Then i got a thin moustache and a few chin hairs. Later i got acne around my jaw. But not too high up. And still some acne on my chin because i got lucky with that "probably gonna have only a moustache fill your 45" thing. Now i got acne on my cheekbone. Nothing on my jaw. Still a bit on my chin and around my nose. But mostly theyre all hanging out at my cheekbone spot. And as i realized this i saw there's no acne where my sideburns should be. And i got some hairs there. So my conclusion is this: Acne -> facial hair Acne-> facial hair is trying to grow but youre not exfoliating well so theyre getting stuck and your face is oily and it all ends up in acne. Which also explains when i pop some acne and a baby hair is all "oh hello. Thank you for setting me free" Final words: exfoliate your face. Exfoliate it good. Unclog your pores. Free your beard.

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Before T i heard EVERYTHING. I heard the music in my ear. The music in the system speakers at work. The coworkers talking. The various customers talking. Mostly focusing on any footsteps or noise coming closer to me from behind. I knew which songs were on amd what people were talking about. Today at work I could barely focus on the song in my ear due to the music in the system speakers. And i didnt jear my coworker literally scream my name untill he did so the third time. Before i would have noticed him before he even said a word. First i thought "okay anxiety induced knowæedge of surrou ding?" Nope still got all that anxiety so i dont know. I dont feel any safer so the only differe cenis that im on T and to be honest i would ratjer have this be a possible short time problem rather than a permanent effect from T. So in all honesty i dont know if it is due to T or just my brain getting sloppy. But posting anyway in case anyone has had any similar... things

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You know how you may have heard your dad fart and been like "why oh why is it so loud?" The dad fart ™ And now yours sound the same. And you think back to the days of silent farting because those days are over. With the exception of lucky cases. Which will not be happening at your convenience either so not really lucky cases at that.

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Its 29C and im very hot(temperature wise) I dont want to know what this would feel like in a binder I am definitely sweating and im afraid to lift my arms at this point