my first 3 days on testosterone
the injection did not hurt like i thought it would. i’m scared of needles and was surprised that i didn’t even feel it, it helped that i was doing it myself, and i couldn’t feel the fluid enter me either
post injection i felt like that muscle was mid excercise in a good way, then went back to normal
i am much more confident, and feel more connected with my body which is a brand new thing for me. i can also make decisions a little easier and things that would make me insecure and have panic attacks now don’t bother me. however every night around 11pm i’ve been having anxiety, but before injection my anxiety was constant so it’s a huge step up.
i did get sore that night, the muscle hurt to walk, touch, and just resting, but bareable and was a kind of reminder that i did it!
the muscle of injection is now a lot harder than the surrounding muscle. like one little spot of man meat. which is bizarre but touching it makes me excited and happy.
mainly placebo and emotional changes but i had the calmest, warmest, happiest gender euphoria after my first injection that lasted for hours instead of moments
internal throat changes, i can feel something changing shape and my throat feels slightly heavier, where i feel like i can talk lower than usual internally but when i speak out loud it’s the same
my body has started to smooth out, not in shape but where i had cellulite on my thighs is smoother, which gives me mixed feeling because eating disorder recovery has me finally accepting and loving cellulite
i’ve wanted to exercise like a lot. and making the choice to move is easier (i have chronic fatigue caused by ehler danlos)
my right arm is transitioning first lmao. literally last night felt a new muscle forming and it ached and was not present on the other arm.
my hair is growing on my legs a little, it looks softer and longer and spots that were bare now have little dark hairs forming
barely any changes in bottom growth, but feeling more *plump* like…. it’s got a tiny bit swollen. as of third day morning i feel like it’s starting to wake up a little
my skin is glowing. partly from happy and partly it’s just beginning to change texture
my surgical knee hurt immediately after injection, but has not hurt since, i’m feeling fewer chronic pains, more pains similar to growing pains
i always had tiny little mustache hairs and this morning i had a couple more but nothing you could see if you weren’t two inches away from a mirror
my cousin said i look and sound the exact same tho
haircuts are so theraputic
oh and i don’t have this looming suicidal feeling anymore
i cannot wait for my next dose :)
