I finally got around to using the RaptorJenny Neko layers I kept meaning to use and this little shit ended up bald and eyebrowless for like a week because I had zero energy to figure out hair
they've ended up with way more facial hair than I expected and I'm kind of feeling it but also that was NOT what I had planned for this character and not what I usually use this skin for, so now I have to figure out if I want to swap to an entirely different skin ;_;
image description: a bad ms paint drawing of an opossum lying on its side with X's for eyes, indicating that it is dead or playing dead. above and below the possum is the phrase "no brain day."
I feel like I don't even know what I want out of social media anymore, especially after hellbrain for so long. What I need (probably) is a space where I can read a bit, and a space where I can turn my brain off for a little bit. Are those the same space? Dunno. I'm old, tired, hopeful, yet wary.
dont use it to refer to urself. dont ever refer to others with it i will chew your flesh from your bones. look up the nazi use of "degenerate" and "degeneracy", research the "degenerate art" exhibition and fucking think abt the history of that word b4 u use it to make a funny little joke about being so weird. fucking come on
ultimately my point is 1. do your research and 2. if you refer to actual people as subhuman then you are rapidly approaching facist ideology, if not already at your wretched destination. i don't really talk about this stuff on my blog because i am not as well versed as i should be, but i made this post because the adoption of phrases like these really makes me angry (especially when it's "ironic". you know that it won't be for long). to imply that someone isn't a person but a thing carving away at society, that there is a "true/upright/pure" way of being human, that the mere existence of others is tearing away your own quality of life? this shit often leads to the belief that these types of people, these "degenerates", are actually not people and do not deserve respect or a right to being alive. we know what happens with beliefs like these. there is so much history of hatred and suffering and slow systematic stripping of rights behind that word. please do your research
Every work of art says things the creator hasn’t considered, but if you’ve really thought about what you’re trying to say then generally the additional dimensions you didn’t know it had are in alignment with your purpose, whereas if you think you’re making no cultural comment at all you are actually making a LOT of cultural comments, most of which will be unflattering to you
“I don’t want to make anything with cultural dimensions. That’s why I only write within the genre that is legally sequestered away from every other kind of storytelling because of my culture’s attitude towards depictions of sex.”
Dropping the first papercraft of the year, and the first full papercraft I've personally done in 4 years (if you exclude commissions and standees). I was grateful to catch one of the limited theatrical screenings of Guillermo del Toro's Frankenstein (2025) at the end of last year and I think we can all agree this scene was the stand-out moment in the film. But there were also several themes that hit me with such a powerful resonation, I felt like my soul was sucked into the film and split between the mind of Victor and the heart of the Creature.
Firstly, how could I have not captured this scene in papercraft? Assembling the Creature from scraps of paper, moments before he's meant to become scraps himself. It allowed me to step into Victor's shoes, and relive the obsessive pursuit he describes in the film, only to suddenly meet his goal and aimlessly fumble with what he's created, chaining it in the dungeon, out of sight and mind. I find myself, after tireless nights of dedicated crafting, throwing my completed papercrafts into my closet, documented, abandoned, eager to start the next one.
My Cake Tier Patreon members can download a digital papercraft kit of this when I drop the files later tonight!
Read on further if interested in how this papercraft marks a personal health milestone for me. Otherwise, have a wonderful day!
Why this papercraft marks a personal health milestone for me.
March 2023 is when my health suddenly took a left turn (see Facedown Fate and Night-Glimmer posts). Out of nowhere, I began to have what I call 'low heart rate sessions', where my heart rate for any activity was running 10-15 points lower than normal. I felt like I was walking underwater, my chest felt heavy, I felt cold, and would have to breathe heavy to keep up with the activity I was doing (whether that be walking, or even sitting). Then after several hours, it would suddenly disappear. My HR would rise to normal levels, my breathing would ease, my temperature would rise. No explanation or trigger.
I went to the ER 7 times over the next two months, and with the onset of my second now-chronic symptom, what I refer to as a PVC, I checked into the hospital for evaluation. People who have PVCs describe them as heart flutters, but mine are heart 'kicks'. Like a miniaturized version of the wind being knocked out of you. It's a scary, uncomfortable heart rate hiccup, invoking a short cough, and there's a feeling of dread lasting moments after it happens.
Over the next two years, I went to gastrologists, pulmonary specialists, allergists, 3 different cardiologists, tested so many medications, had multiple CT scans, MRIs, Echos, holter monitors, stress tests, all coming back with 'you're healthy as a horse, it's just stress'. In the end, the only solution my cardiologists could offer were anti-depressants for the stress or beta-blockers for the PVCs (which, hah, lower the heart rate….hello???), which I declined both. I felt if it was stress causing these mystery symptoms, medications interfering with my productivity would just make me more stressed.
During the height of my symptoms I would experience a PVC every 20 minutes, invoked by sudden HR changes (even something like eating shaved ice, which triggers a hypothermic response through your tongue) or random stress events. Eventually, I cut out unnecessary stress in my life (like the news) and I saw my PVCs start to recede to a handful of times per day, months later.
Now, almost three years later, I'm only experiencing them a couple of times a week, if at all, after significant lifestyle changes and rigorous stress deterrents that I invoked at the start of 2025.
I sat through the Frankenstein film marveling at how bosom buddies I was with Victor's ambitions, only to realize I was experiencing my second self through the Creature. A being who was confused in his body, and clashing with his creator, desperate for answers on how to continue living as he is.
Him holding onto the dynamite stick was a taunted retribution toward Victor, but there's a moment of desperate hope in his eyes that this could be the way to unmake himself, perhaps into something Victor would realize he has to accept.
Last year I had to unmake myself to put everything back together with where I'm at now. With those tools in my pocket, I have a better outlook for 2026 and beyond. Rather than the closet, I've hung this frame in my hallway to remind me of this milestone, my Creature, everyday.
This is gorgeous and the fact that it's papercraft is just amazing. Something about the raw energy of it reminds me of Lee Brown Coye in the best kind of way.
The newest addition to the Burrow Obscura collection:
Kandicode // Texture-Coded Kandi Bracelets!
The product design allows customizing the color and physical shape of each bead by penciling in your preferred cells on a grid-based texture. Each bracelet you make can be truly, wholly unique, and with all the model data stored to a texture, you can share your designs with friends and enemies alike easily!
So the past 2 months or so ive been learning a whole bunch about 3D! And ive been making just, so much shit for secondlife that ive wanted for years and its been so fun 🥰😂 here's a silly little lucerne pigeon I made rhe other day. The deer head and ears im using are also made by me 🦌✨️
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