TW unreality

traumacore edits x vents x psychosis. a place to whinge about csa, regular sa, my shitty highschool, emotional incest, the works ✨️ 27F

[trauma-trove]

Why do so many right wing bigotted violent fuckwads interact with my emotional incest posts. Like I'm sorry you went through it, but like. I'm gonna be evil for a second. YOU are not welcome in a community of vulnerable traumatized people if you post about being a nazi, enacting violence on marginalized people, or telling people who don't celebrate trump's election win to kill themselves.

STOP LIKING AND REBLOGGING MY POSTS. You don't deserve solidarity from someone you'd enact violence against. And also GET BETTER OR KILL YOURSELVES ! !

[adjpngs]

you are exactly where you need to be, it’s gonna be okay WNRS, i am better than i was, you don’t have to be perfect, ur gonna figure it out

[only-knives]

"no one can make you feel a certain way without your consent" isn't the empowering statement that it posits itself as. there is a point to it, a valid one, but it's all jumbled up.

no one can decide who you are. no one can decide what your reality is. no one can decide specifically how you feel about something. these can all be true. while still acknowledging that it is, in fact, possible to make someone feel something.

you can make someone feel sad. you can make someone feel pain. you can make someone feel scared. you can make someone tired. and i don't mean people have this mystical power over you that you'll never be able to fight against.

i mean that what we say, and what we do, does have an effect on people. if you slap someone in the face, you made them feel pain. we know slapping someone hurts. sure, you didn't literally make their neurons fire and create the sensation of pain, but that's what bodies automatically do when struck (unless there's neurological damage, and that's a disability. one i have!).

the same goes for emotional pains. if you yell and scream at someone, there's a good chance that'll make them afraid. or angry. that's a normal response to threatening behavior. completely expected, and sometimes, people ellict that response on purpose. because they're choosing to hurt someone.

you don't tell an abuse survivor "no one can make you feel inferior without your consent!" and you certainly don't tell them their abuser "can't make you feel any certain way." that is abso-fucking-lutely a thing. people do it to other people all the time. we call that interpersonal violence.

toxic positivity is not therapy, it's gaslighting and abuse. 99% of therapists i've encountered have no fucking business being therapists, i swear to god. and then i have to go online and see the same pop psych shit spouted by people who either don't know what they're talking about, or don't realize they're being groomed into victim-blaming themselves and subsequently others.

to anyone in the latter case, my friend, you don't have to agree with them. you were right to feel hurt. that was a natural response to abuse. anyone who tells you otherwise isn't worth shit. other survivors are not your enemy in this situation, i promise.

[stupid-twink-girl]

self taught

[trauma-trove]

He just didn't know any better. He doesn't understand. He's autistic; he doesn't understand. He's the only one of us that's been sexually active with other people and as such is vocally invested in consent. But he doesn't understaaaaand. Why CAN'T he be entitled to my body?? It's literally ME. It's not incest. It's literally not incest guys, it's just me.

[trauma-trove]

Posting this on my trauma blog and not my agere blog but I'm allergic to any context of a caregiver right now because I've never had an older "caregiving" person in my life that wasn't abusive. I can't separate caregiving from sex because everyone (even my own fucking BROTHER) was so inappropriate with me.

I don't want a sexual caregiver. I wish I knew what it was like to be a normal child. I wish I could imagine having a caregiver without it feeling like I had to start presenting and acting out for attention. I fucking hate my life

[trauma-trove]

And if anyone responds to my last two posts aggressively grilling me about the graphic details of being sexually abused by a family member, I'll straight up block them. It's 2026 get your shit together

[trauma-trove]

AND this only came up tonight because my brother asked if he could follow my nsfw blog (where I post pics OF MYSELF) and I was like wtf NO we are NOT going to parallel play masturbate, and you as my brother are not going to get off to MY pictures and audios, and he got weirded out and defensive. Like. Ok gurl I know we're both autistic but I'm not giving my brother or ANY irl a direct link to my goon room that will give you real time updates on when I am indisposed and what I am getting off to. Even if he didn't know I make my own nsfw content, it just still feels weirdly entitled that he'd even ask. Like he never really.. recognized that he did anything wrong when we were kids.

[trauma-trove]

Yeahhhh I was definitely a survivor of SOMETHING given how sexually entitled to my body my brother has always been.

[hometoursandotherstuff]

[scoutology]

#crysobbing

[willgrahamscock]

[trauma-trove]

FUCK that bitch cunt rapist whore!!!!! I told my new doctor everything she did to me and she just fucking LIED about everything!! I was allowed to take my medicine, I was allowed to use anti nausea pills and muscle relaxers, there were other options for my pre op, AND there was NO fucking reason for her to take away my medication!!!!!! She was a fucking cruel rapist bully and I hate her so deeply I hope she dies horribly in a car accident like all the other dead shit doctors I've ever had

[mrgirl]

[trauma-trove]

Literally attempting to concuss myself so I can fucking go to sleep

[trauma-trove]

Honestly I hope I fucking die in my sleep. None of this is fucking worth it.

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