👁🧷TRAUMA🧷👁

SideBlog | Axe | Adult | i use no pronouns just name | i simply don't exist 🤟 | Filter 'Beware of axes' for all more generally triggering stuff if ya want | i'm just trying to hopefully like survive or something idfk.

[jeniffercheck]

hey sorry i said those weird and pathetic things. do you still think i’m mysterious and alluring

[mournfulroses]

Ottessa Moshfegh, from "Eileen: A Novel," originally published in 2015

[lonelysummerbreeze]

2008

[liz-cat-meow-deactivated2020011]

[rains-of-words]

“What lies behind anger is grief that demands to be understood.”

— 10/13/20, anastasiasyah (via anastasiasyah)

[petaltexturedskies]

Anne Sexton, “The Truth the Dead Know”

[krasnoarmeyets]

i bet it feels good as fuck to intend to do something and then actually do it

[thingsfromthedirt]

[solarmorrigan]

*hitting my brain with a rolled up newspaper* I am allowed to be annoying! I am allowed to be wrong! I am allowed to take up space! Not! Everyone! Has! To! Like! Me!

[whizpurr]

[what-a-bastard]

"you can't blame everything on your parents you're an adult now" okay but I can blame some things on my parents because you'll never believe whose job it was to teach me how to be an adult.

[muttsys-deactivated20260425]

Bite the hand that Nothing you #neglect

[fairycosmos]

i really wish we could all just stop this weird facade that mental health is taken seriously just because there might be more conversation about depression than there was 20 years ago. as soon as you’re unable to work or maintain relationships or mask effectively enough you might as well be a joke. even to people who say they understand it

[bllyzh]

Barbara Kruger, The Globe Shrinks, 2010. L&M Gallery Venice.

[forestgreenandgray]

Hey do you know what rumination is?

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

What to Do When You're Triggered

[kosmogrl]

I never got over anything. I miss everyone and everything. nostalgia and grief kill me every day. oh and I also love going on walks.

[paper-wounds]