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A celebration of five years of canon Destiel written to accompany my November 5th art works:
Five Months Later & Five Years Later
which were drawn for the fifth anniversary of November 5th 2020.
Five by Five by Five by Treezenith
Rated E, Dean/Castiel, Post-Canon Fix it
Summary:
Two scenes of Dean Winchester and Castiel's relationship told in fives. Their first kiss, five months after Castiel went to the Empty, and their far-from-first kiss, five years after.
Excerpt: (under the cut)
"It’s been five months since the Empty took Cas and five days since Dean got him back. The wound on Dean’s heart is both old and fresh. It’s a bone with a past break that healed badly initially and had to be re-broken to set correctly. It’s a scabbed over gash with new sutures holding it closed.
Getting Cas back was painful. The slow, torturous months of research and bargaining (more like begging, honestly). The final few days of sharp, dangerous hope warring with the threat of utter despair if the ritual— the last-ditch-if-this-doesn’t-work-nothing-will ritual— failed. The physical pain of the Shadow’s snatching hands trying to keep its grip on the both of them as Dean dragged a limp Castiel back through the portal.
The whole ordeal was agony.
But now the healing can get underway in earnest.
The bullet’s been removed from the gunshot wound, and the edges of gaping skin have been stitched closed with dental floss and a curved quilting needle.
Cas is back. Cas is home.
Dean is elated, obviously, it’s just taking his subconscious a little longer to catch up. So when he wakes gasping from a nightmare of sticky, stifling black ooze engulfing Cas, it takes him a good few minutes of despondent sobbing to remember that somewhere in the echoing halls of the bunker, Cas is fine. He’s alive and well and probably reading some dusty old tome written in Coptic or some shit."
I remember years ago, long enough ago that I was still using either Tiktok or Instagram regularly, because that's where I saw this, long enough ago that unfortunately I do not remember the username, I saw an older trans woman responding to a comment asking "how come we see trans women from your generation, but never trans men?" And her response was simple. "Unfortunately, it's because most of them are dead." Between lack of safe and legal abortions (which, hey, look what's an issue again), the HIV/AIDs crisis (which still is lacking in approved treatments for trans men, and they're still likely to be denied PrEP/PEP even when they should be eligible as sexually active queer men), and how many of them chose to take their own lives after being forced into marriages and other women's roles, a lot of the trans men that should be elderly right now did not make it.
And now, when I find myself making the mistake of going on Instagram, I get to see trans men themselves talking about how historically, trans men didn't do anything for the community, and so we need to step up now. Which, first of all, that isn't true, but second of all, if trans men's contributions are lesser, that makes a lot of sense if we listen to that trans woman talking about the trans men she was in community with back in the day. It's very hard to advance the trans cause if you're not alive.
Anyway. It's a really chilling answer. "Where are all the elderly trans men?" "They're dead." And I just wish more people saw that tiktok and listened to it and really took it to heart, now that we're in the age of "well obviously trans men have it so much easier."
ruby is sooo funny in lazarus rising because when she opens that door she knows it's dean. she knows if he's back from hell then something big is happening. but all she's thinking is gaslight gaslight gaslight keep him away from sam don't let him know we're having sex, so she just goes "yoooo, what's up pizza boy"
AND AND AND!!!! the bit where sam says he’ll call her and she corrects him on the name he uses for her. it’s a fake name. neither bobby nor dean know who tf she is. it doesnt even matter. she pretends he got her name wrong purely to make him look like a dick and know what she was SO funny for that. good for you girl lmao
