omg i forgot i remade right after i took 6g of shrooms with a sketchy dude and freaked the fuck and possibly had a seizure(?) but omg. i was a super impulsive mess at the time (still kinda am But) like i really intended to cut down my tumblr use to a bare minimum & that didn’t really happen heha. still am on this site less atm tho. i don’t really use drugs anymore and i miss it bc i feel like i think more boring thoughts but weed turns me into an anxious mess 90% of the time and psychedelics would absolutely melt my brain i hate thinking and being aware it just stresses me out. like i could do it when i was not present in the world or aware of myself & i’d chill but now it makes me think about what’s going on in my life and stuff (not good, really!) and like. feels bad man
ALSO i am like. at the point where i have really fairly recently stopped being seriously emotionally invested in celebrities/musicians i Do Not Know & that’s good bc it’s kinda wack and though i was aware it was cringe i was #coping i guess. still post abt them tho sometimes for entertainment and maintain some level of interest in them as people but in a much more detached(?) way i think. or i hope. so that’s what’s up
