[trengalli]

This is useless. My entire process of just pushing ahead, to keep going even though I'm tired. I have tried to form connections and it never works, I'm just not a person.

I recently got my hopes up and went somewhere to be social, but I couldn't even talk because I know that I don't have the right. I'm planning on going to something at the end of next month and I'm excited for it, but in the end thats just another thing to keep me going a little longer if I even end up going. And I'll almost certainly not talk again. How many more times do I have to decide to keep going and see if it gets any better when I know it won't.

[demilypyro]

I don't know why I still try. I don't know why I try, even though I know it never works. When I know it only ever means I'll hurt myself and everyone around me. Am I selfish? Am I stupid? Is the loneliness just so bad that I can't learn my lesson? I know I'm incompatible, I always have been incompatible, and I always tell them I'm incompatible. But I always let them give me hope that maybe this time will be different. I always let myself believe it. But it never is. I know it never is. So just stop trying, you fucking idiot. Learn your fucking lesson. Wise up and go die in a hole somewhere. Stop trying. Stop hurting yourself, stop burdening others with your problems. Learn the fucking lesson.

[trengalli]

Eh I know I'm not the best at drawing out there but figured I'd post this anyway.

[trengalli]

Okay I'm actually kind of excited to start going to locals. Problem is that I live in a area where there aren't any close by but I've found one that's roughly an hour away by train. That will be expensive as fuck and I don't really have that much money but it seems so cool I might just go there once anyway. I couldn't go to the most recent one because of a birthday and can't go to the next one, but maybe the one after that if I'm lucky.

I realize I'll be super silent and awkard but I kinda don't care because it seems really fun anyway

[trengalli]

Nice perfect against Gio in ranked (third round for perfect)

[trengalli]

Don't know if this is any good but drew Demily Pyro as Evangeline Morgan. No real reason that I drew this specifically, just seemed fun to draw.

[trengalli]

Got a clean kill against Sin in ranked

[trengalli]

I got to plat with this match! Can't believe I got there today. Will almost certainly derank tomorrow but I don't really care. If I can get there once I can get there again. Favorite moments of this match was the speed I reacted from slayers first poke in round 2, and the fakeout I did with the jumping in the end.

[trengalli]

Got a perfect against Ramlethal in ranked

[trengalli]

Got a nice comeback in the second round against Chipp

[trengalli]

Enjoyed this potemkin match, feel like I played decently.

[trengalli]

Watched 2 of the episodes of Young ladies don't play fighting games. I love the little notes on screen like what labbing means and how they showcase them fighting. thought it was rather good and thinking about maybe starting to read the manga. Haven't really read mangas before but they always seemed really cool.

[trengalli]

Got gold with Unika, Definitely played a bit on the defensive but it worked. (although I still have a tendency to overuse the Gun dipper move).

[default-cube]

people talk about unmasking and i wonder what i would even be like without a mask on

[default-cube]

like at this point i don't think there even is anything underneath

[trengalli]

Started playing Unika yesterday, Really enjoying her so far, Although I obviously still suck.

[trengalli]

Might not be good, but at least I'm gold (I'm Gio)