Elliott: Yeah... this is fucked up, I can't believe they just could take Mike's body like that, or any body really... what the fuck... just... what the fuck.
Elliott: The TODDs yeah... he got on the way to let Sam and I escape, it was like... so fast, and at the same time as if time stopped...
Elliott: I still can't believe he is dead.
Santana: I mean, it's going to be very fucked up if they keep doing it. Specially if they chose some "missing people" death body and they can just infiltrate here with one that can actually act.
[SANTANA DELETED]: Well, better him than you.
[SANTANA DELETED]: Shame it wasn't Henri.
[SANTANA THOUGHTS]: Try to write something sensitive.
Santana: Start believing it, just in case another Boulder reapears.
[SANTANA THOUGHTS]: God fucking damn it.
Santana: Did you and Sam saw how the TODDs attack then? Well, that was probably fucking shit, but it might help us in the future to know how to avoid them, right?
Santana: Then don't. I'm throwing a fucking tantrum anyway.
Santana: That's the thing, Elliott. When I take risk is because I assume I'm going to win. Let's say reckless self-preservation.
Santana: I'm not scared of caring. I know how my "caring" works, if it can be called that. I don't want people caring so they stop caring later. I prefer to know whats always going on and not count on people who are going to give their back to me when I need it.
Santana: Hey, if I do deserve caring everyone does isn't it? But what? I'm not going to take Love and Care from the Love and Care tree like that's a thing that exist and it's free and no one loses anything when taking it. That's bullshit.
Santana: Of course you are tired, Elliott. Stop wasting your energy in people who are just draining you down.
Santana: Now c'mon, Santana's bullshit time is over. I'm angry. Do you need a fucking pep talk you tired man?
Elliott: So... then you don't care about yourself? Is that what you are saying?
Elliott: In that, I can agree with you, I'm tired of people pretending, I would prefer if people were honest with their feelings and actions too, but also, we can't just go around thinking everyone is going to turn their backs, can we? Like... I don't know... you don't even trust... hmmm... Blaine? He is like the most honest, transparent, person ever.
Elliott: Well, I'm not saying Love and Care is easy, as any other feeling and relationship, when you love and care you also have to put effort into it, not just think "oh yeah this is going to work" or "it would never work" before it even happens... but make it work if you really want it to work, and as many people that are involved, they all should put effort in it.
Elliott: You are putting yourself out there, being vulnerable when you love and care about someone, of course, if things go badly you are going to lose something, but that's the thing, that is going to happen anyway, many times, in different situations, the thing is... we can still try, we are still here, we can try to love and care all the times we want. If we lose hope that things can be good again, or be better in the future, no one is going to do better for us. It is on us to keep working and find those who will love us and care for us for real, as we do love and care for ourselves.
Elliott: I know all that may still sound like bullshit to you, but... even if I keep saying I'm tired, that's what I always keep on thinking... i felt many times like giving up, but i don't really want to.
Elliott: If there is no hope left, what is left?
Elliott: If I can be the person who does better for themselves, then I will do better for others people future.
Elliott: Life is really unfair, it is unbalanced, it is cruel, and it hurts, and it's shit, but among all that, I was able to find a tiny little bit of hope, I just want to keep thinking it is worth it for that hope, but it takes a lot from me, if i'm honest...
Santana: I cared about my goals more than myself and everyone else.
Santana: Of course I don't trust Blaine. He is not honest or transparent, he is just good really at pretending he is, even to himself. He's the naive son of a controlling bloodline family, the one in charge of "security". His brother is a cardine. He thinks he can trust the cardines, even after everything that happened. Do you trust cardines? Now, do you think when shit hits the fan he would chose us over his own family? Or that even if he wanted to, he would be able to? Months ago you would had perfectly used Tina in that example of "not even this trusthful person?" wouldn't you?
Santana: Yeah, *everyone* should put efford into it. So kick out the ones who aren't catching up, or fucking lower the efford.
Santana: Are you telling that to me, Elliott, or is a reminder to yourself all this hurt is worth it?
Santana: I have no more hope. This is what it's left. So hold your own as long as you can. If you think that's the best. Honestly, is not even that bad. No hope left means you have nothing to lose, isn't that freeing?
Santana: Actually, I still have things I can lose. shit.
Elliott: I always have a hard time with the concept of mortality, it reminds me how easy would be to lose any of you, and makes me sad.
Elliott: I saw so many names of people I used to see every day listed as if they were mere information to assimilate, and I don't know what to do with it. They are gone. And know what do we do?
Elliott: Do you really feel that way?
Santana: I think that's a problem for a lot of people, being immortal or not.
Santana: We keep on living.
Santana: I don't feel much, to be honest.
Santana: Sometimes I get annoyed, I guess. People I kinda liked aren't alive anymore. But like all those people crying like they are going to break?... no.
Santana: Or those ones who just keep breaking and breaking more but still not completelly.
