i think ill quit Roblox for some time or forever, im not sure so probably the last post about ett, sorry. enjoy some headcanons
Jake's nervous system can't stand love. for him, this feeling is too complex and complicated, and over the years spent in a loop alone or with dumbasses like he is, his emotional intelligence has slipped to the level of a carrot. the peak of the variety of his emotions is pure anger from a difficult room or happiness from finding a medkit. I'm not saying that Jake is stupid or emotionless, it's just that for so long being a simple tool in someone's grandiose plan, he has developed such a protective mechanism for himself. Don't feel anything and don't think about the injustice of your life, otherwise you'll endlessly throw yourself headfirst into landmines, and even that won't save you from the abyss of despair you'll find yourself in.
and when John and James dropped in and began gradually filling his daily background with care and love, he felt overwhelmed and confused. for him, these were too complex and mixed signals, to which he was not used and which he forbade himself to experience and perceive, and he preferred to distance himself from his lovers. And it was only when they realized that at such moments Jake should not be left alone, but rather pushed harder, that cracks appeared on Jake's armor. He's still clinging to his emotionless mask, which he's so used to, because without it and without John and James, he'll be completely naked in front of all the horror that he meets each new loop. and because he allowed himself to love at some point, this feeling always accumulates in him until he just bursts. and there are moments when he's just hysterical because he's afraid of losing his loved ones, literally going crazy for several hours in a row.
Additionally, he is confused by the completely different approach of his partners to expressing feelings and affection.
John, even though he embarked on the path of redemption, still did not completely get rid of harmful sinful habits. it's like dealing with a brick wall: scream, fight, try to flee, he doesn't give a fuck. Jake can't really run away from him, he's too fast, Jake can't fight him off, he's stronger, Jake can't persuade him, because this guy is the most stubborn creature in the entire universe. If he decides to do something, he will do it no matter what. if he decides that Jake need a portion of love today, then he'll get it, and whether he wants it or not, he doesn't give a fuck.
James has the same vision, but his methods are completely different. He'll sneak up on you so smoothly and imperceptibly that you won't even notice the moment when James has filled the whole space with himself and he's already showering you with kisses, touching, and saying some sweet nonsense. Jake only realizes at the moment that he has fallen into the trap of a filthy succubus.
In John's case, Jake may feel trapped. considering how big John is (according to my hcs!!!), Jake may even start to hear paranoia box's whisper if John hugs him too tightly. it scares him and he likes it at the same time, because he feels safe, as if behind a stone wall. he can relax, finally stop twitching from every little sound, because John will take care of him if anything happens.
With James, he often has the feeling that his brain and soul have been penetrated, that he has been hypnotized and manipulated. It was as if Eyefistation had persuaded him to look out the window. on the other hand, his eyes are not burning, and his head is not splitting from the terrible pain. when he notices this cunningly executed plan, it's too late, and he doesn't really mind, because such intrusions bring nothing but pleasure.
i used translator for this because my English still sucks so yeah, sorry for possible mistakes.
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