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I'm tired of being told to forgive because I'll regret it once he passes.

I wont.

I know I wont.

I'm not being dramatic or deserving of an eyeroll - I mean it.

The person I wanted him to be - the person I loved - was never there.

He didnt exist.

I mourn him.

I dont know this man.

and I dont want to.

#Why cant people just believe me?#Maybe it's because they believe in forgiveness no matter what #it's disgusting.#some people deserve to be left.

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Ripped Seams

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@less-depresso-more-espresso

I can feel my intestines

They are contoured and wrong

Tied in a knot

Kinked hose

Attempted breath against a waistband

My body's hatred for me almost measures to match my own

Purge me.

it's like a knife.

Maybe California made you soft. Made you forget how ignorant and hateful people are. Remember how she retreated as soon as your hands touched?Like you were infected. Tainted. She couldnt even look at you - she was too busy looking at your choker.

You knew this would happen. Everyone did and yet you're surprised? Hurt? You touched the stove and now you're surprised by the blisters on your hands? Did you really hold some form of hope that maybe it'd be different?

You saw how they looked at you and really thought your answers, experience, and personality could change what they already saw in you?

It doesnt matter how well you conducted yourself.

It doesnt matter how nicely you smiled and nodded, your polite laughter.

You're you and I mean that in the worst way.

You're naive.

Grow up.

And stop crying.

#one step at a time.#Keep moving.#Another day.#You have to keep moving.

It'd be easier.

I'm terrified by how tempting it's become.

I have to keep moving or I'll be swallowed whole.

#I'm sinking #One step at a time.#I cant do this anymore #I want to go home #It'll be ok.#It'll always be ok #just have to keep moving.#I have to keep moving.