“ I knew my life wouldn’t be the same, memories just feed the pain. Realize it’s me that’s staying, when you left, it was me that changed. But I can’t understand cuz it don’t make sense. I’m a grown (wo)man why do I feel like this? 100 proof shots can’t heal my shit. I drink to the things I feel I miss. Life’s too short you left to soon, climbing these walls, I need more room. Feel like im falling back in the gloom, trying to let go I got more consumed. The pain may leave for a moment or two, but I know it’ll be back soon. Tryin to smile until it comes back around. So many thoughts that I just can’t drown. You said you’d never leave me stranded, so how was I suppose to know? This ain’t the way that I had planned it, I never thought I’d have to let you go. Would I be wrong if I tried to smile again? Try to be strong but the pain I have within... you seen the best in me and I am shattered. There ain’t no recipe for my disaster. Would I be wrong if I tried to smile again? Be strong for the ones you love, don’t ever let them see you cry. Am I wrong for trying to be tough? Hell, I never thought heroes died. Fairytale endings are all just lies. Thought they werent, and got hit by surprise. The truth is, when you hit your grave, what I wouldn’t give to have one more day, I’d give it all up just to have one minute, of my life now with you back in it. If you could see me right now, you’d be proud. Everything you taught me, I’m living right now. Too little too late, I can change me but I can’t change fate. I hope he up there lookin down on us. Forgive me for the (wo)man I was. Would I be wrong if I tried to smile again?”
❤️ for my dad❤️
