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lazy artist fuck | 🇲🇽 | 24 👵 | pan

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Today is my birthday 🌱

I will be grateful for the repost ~

if you have a desire to please me on my birthday, then you can send me a donation 👉🏻👈🏻

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woah never posted this one

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im starting to feel that i dont deserve anything in this life

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i think that life set me up to be a constant disappointment, im so fucking sorry mom

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is it selfish to say that I really don't want to participate in this society

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fucking crazy that sometimes you just have to pay for prescription drugs in order to function properly in this society, not really to treat a really serious condition that causes you sickness or pain mind you but to make your brain become competent enough to do some bs like washing dishes or sending emails

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Currently at that stage of unemployment where the peace that comes from quitting a shitty job gets replaced with fear

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i still don't know what to draw unfortunately.

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today i had a burger with fries, my mom bought me icecream too

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Today I had to skip work to get some paperwork for the other company I'm trying to apply to and I was able to have a nice walk around my city and enjoy a bus ride on the same route that I used to take to get to college, so it was kinda of nostalgic.

I finally went to an appointment with my old therapist which was happy to see me again after two years and I'm super relieved that I was able to get an appointment with her again since she was the one who helped me and my mom realize that I have ADHD and autism. I'm just really embarrassed that I was too fucking stupid to explain in a coherent way my current issues with anxiety, the fact that I dropped out of college, my struggles at work and that I started medical transition 5 months ago. The appointment went longer than scheduled.

Today I also had a lovely time with my mom and her boyfriend, we went to eat together and they accompanied me to get some new glasses, it was super nice!

I'm super tired physically rn so unfortunately I cannot take my dog out for a walk and that makes me a little sad because he has been really lonely today since no one has been home for more than 3 hours. He has been sleeping on my bed lately, today's not an exception I guess

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My anxiety has calmed down a lot since I decided to give my two weeks notice at my current job and take a try at pursuing a similar one job with better pay, with less interaction with people everyday and where I can continue to improve the only useful skill I have (being bilingual).

I do have a couple of days left before my resignation is in full effect I still keep getting mad and stressed during my shifts, even more than before, but I went from waking up feeling an overwhelming dread and sadness to just feeling grumpy at mornings.

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Oh, I’m sorry to hear that. I understand though, hope whatever your going thought now gets better, have a great day

It's getting better fortunately, not too much to worry about. You also have a fantastic day!

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I like your art, have you thought about taking art suggestions/ideas? Just curious

Multiple times, but I don't think I'm in a good place mentally to do that, not right now

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Get me out of this fucking job 🥀

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why can't i just stop thinking and do something for once??? I just feel bad about my dog, my health, the future, the anxiety and the shame

my only options for tonight right now are being awake the whole night crying, using sleep to numb myself until i have to get ready for work or just panic

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everything is so quiet my ears are fucked