Untitled

[tutulomi]

Hi Haruka by T.O.P

[tutulomi]

10 Things We All Need To Do Before We Say 'I Do'

Last week, I attended my best friend wedding in Medan. Simple wedding, but she looks so happy and full of smile. For the first time, I feel like, I want to be like her, trying to think again “why I still love being single”. I'm young (some people said), and when it comes to the topic of life-long love, it will be an eternity before I feel anything but young in that regard. I will never have all of the answers. Marriage is such a unique and complex entity. It starts out as this distant thought that most people think of very lightly for as long as possible. Then, time creeps up on you, and almost in an instant, forever starts to become more than a thought. Marriage has never felt light to me. I was 16 years old when I read my first Nicholas Sparks novel and started dreaming about soul mates. I generally pinpoint that as the moment I became doomed. That being said, I feel I would be doing an incredible injustice to myself and my future partner if I made that commitment without these ten points. I think we, as young people, have things we need to do before we say "I do."

1. Establish a true acceptance of our parents and of their relationships. Some of us were blessed enough to have parents with a very strong and loving relationship. Others were not so lucky. Before getting married, leaving behind any resentment and negativity you feel about your parents' marriage is really important. Your marriage never has to be your parent's marriage, and overcoming these feelings can be a daunting and challenging task, but a crucial one.

2. Rid ourselves of our immaturities. When I envision the journey from my first love to my last love, I want to see the changes I have made. I want to see myself letting go of pettiness. I want to see an understanding woman. I want to see a woman that possesses very little jealously, selfishness or bitterness. I know I can never be perfect, and I see myself growing each day. But before I dedicate myself to a man, I want to be a woman mature enough to handle the situations we face together with a sort of grace. I think we all need that.

3. Love who we are and find true confidence. I want to build a life with someone, not build myself in someone. It becomes all too easy to establish a sense of identity in someone else. I know this because I have done it. Before promising yourself to someone for forever, you have to be able to know how special and incredible forever can be with you. You have to believe that first, not wait for someone to tell you. Part of that amazing love story I envisioned when I was reading countless Nicholas Sparks novels is falling in love with one's self.

4. Feel like we have and will continue to follow all of our dreams. Contrary to some beliefs, following one's dreams isn't just a quest limited to a person's twenties. The ability to continue to follow our dreams is a lifelong gift. Before marrying someone, we all need to feel like we have followed our dreams pertaining to being young and single. We also have to feel like we will still be able to follow our dreams with our partner. A partner is someone to grow with; you must follow the desires of your hearts and minds with one another. Being confident that you can do those things without someone else, and that you've done all that you've wanted to do on your own, is crucial.

5. Let go of unfair expectations of ourselves. I can be incredibly hard on myself. I have beaten myself up about everything. We all do it, especially when we are younger and have less acceptance for our inevitable imperfections. Before we get married, I think it's important to be able to let go of this expectation of perfection for ourselves. We can't expect perfection in our relationships or in who we are. We will be many things in our lives. We may even be mothers and father. If we are going to do that with any amount of happiness, we will need to be able to accept imperfection, and see the beauty that lies within each of us.

6. Become entirely conscious of the fact that there is no need to rush any stage of life. Rushing is in our nature. We get excited. We want to move on to each new and intriguing stage of our lives. However, part of being truly ready to get married is knowing that like all other stages, it doesn't have to be done in a hurry. Marriage is not a testament to the validity of your adulthood or to your mature relationship. It isn't something to check off your list before you move on to the next category of gift registry you can create. When we each get married, it should be the right time. It should be something we can afford and can spend the time we really want to on. Every other stage is that way too, and entering one as important as marriage without understanding that, can damage one's ability to appreciate each state he or she is in at the time.

7. Understand what we require from life for true happiness. This may seem like a no-brainer upon first glance, but it is actually extremely difficult to concretely determine what it is that each of us needs for happiness. If it's passion and laughter that you need in life, that isn't something you can compromise. You have to be able to do things you are passionate about and that bring you true happiness with your spouse. You have to be able to go on travel together, or joint marathon event ( I really want to do this, when I get married). You have to be able to talk about what matters to you. You have to be able to do what you love. The first step to all of that is just figuring out what those things are you need in life and making sure you have them when you are ready to be a husband or wife.

8. To have stopped making decisions out of fear. Being with someone forever shouldn't be because you are afraid to be without them. The same goes for your career choices or your choices with living circumstances. You shouldn't live in one place because you don't know if you'd make it where you really want to be. You shouldn't marry a person because you think are afraid you won't find someone else. You shouldn't settle in life at all, and you certainly shouldn't do so because of fear. As adults, we must be able to thrive in the unknown and follow the rhythmic passions of our hearts and minds. During the years that we are married, we will face situations that are terrifying and complicated (fact from all my friends). However, entering those years knowing that your heart is stronger than your sweaty palms, can make all the difference in the end.

9. To understand the importance of understanding. Being young can often mean being innately selfish. This is often a good thing actually, because it helps to encourage each of us to work towards our dreams vigorously and not allow others to dictate our life choices. However, when it comes time to share a life with someone, selfishness can be toxic in certain ways. Marriage brings differences. It means making decisions alongside someone else that strongly affect the both of you. It means looking at situations from a perspective that isn't your own. It means compromise. It means respect. Before any of us are ready to offer a partnership in this world, we have to be ready to let go of stubborn attitudes and pridefulness. We have to be able to understand.

10. To know what love is. "Love is patient. Love is kind. It is not envious, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13

[tutulomi]

BIGBANG (빅뱅) – LET’S NOT FALL IN LOVE (우리 사랑하지 말아요)

우리 사랑하지 말아요 아직은 잘 모르잖아요 사실 조금은 두려운 거야 그대 미안해요 우리 약속하지 말아요 내일은 또 모르잖아요 하지만 이 말 만은 진심이야 그대 좋아해요

아무것도 묻지 말아요 대답할 수 없어요 지금 이렇게 둘이 행복한데 왜 날 가지려 하지 말아요 그저 이대로 조금만 있어요 갈수록 더 마음 아파지게 왜 잦은 만남 뒤엔 이별 계속 반복되는 실연 더는 의미를 찾을 수 없어 어리석은 미련 사랑의 탈을 쓴 mistake 느끼는 감정은 다 비슷해 하지만 이 순간만큼은 I want you to stay

우리 사랑하지 말아요 아직은 잘 모르잖아요 사실 조금은 두려운 거야 그대 미안해요 우리 약속하지 말아요 내일은 또 모르잖아요 하지만 이 말 만은 진심이야 그대 좋아해요

나를 보며 웃지 말아요 정들면 슬퍼져요 예쁜 그 미소가 눈물이 될까 봐 사랑이란 두 글자 속에 우릴 가두려고 하지 말아요 채우지 못할 욕심이니까 처음엔 설렘을 안고 반은 고민을 안고 끝엔 서로 의리로나마 지내 시행착오 난 하루하루가 불안해 네 그 순수함이 부담돼 하지만 오늘 밤만큼은 I want you to stay

내게 너무 많은 걸 바라지마 나도 그댈 잃고 싶진 않아 깊어지기 전에 상처 입기 전에 날 믿지 말아요 넌 항상 그래 이기적인 새끼

우리 사랑하지 말아요 아직은 잘 모르잖아요 사실 조금은 두려운 거야 그대 미안해요 우리 약속하지 말아요 내일은 또 모르잖아요 하지만 이 말 만은 진심이야 그대 좋아해요

LET’S NOT FALL IN LOVE (우리 사랑하지 말아요) – English Translation Lyrics (가사 영어 번역)

Let’s not fall in love We don’t know each other yet Actually I’m a little bit scared I’m sorry Let’s not make an appointment We don’t know if tomorrow will be another day But this word is serious I love you

Do not ask anything I can’t answer now We are happy together now, but why? Do not try to taking me Just stay like that for a while Mind becomes increasingly hurt Separation after frequently meeting And continue breaking No longer find the meaning Stupid foolish Mistake that wears a mask of love Feelings are all similar But as much as this moment I want you to stay

Let’s not fall in love We don’t know each other yet Actually I’m a little bit scared I’m sorry Let’s not make an appointment We don’t know if tomorrow will be another day But this word is serious I love you

Do not laugh at me It’ll be sad if we have a relationship I’m worried that beautiful smile turns to tear In the four letters its love Do not try to confine us It’s a not able to fill greed At first hold the excitement And half of them, hold the worries At the end we get along with loyalty Trial and error I’m nervous every day To me, your innocence is too much But as much as tonight I want you to stay

Do not demand me too much I also don’t wanna lose you Before it gets deeper, before get hurt Do not believe me You always do Selfish chicks

Let’s not fall in love We don’t know each other yet Actually I’m a little bit scared I’m sorry Let’s not make an appointment We don’t know if tomorrow will be another day But this word is serious I love you

[tutulomi]

BIG BANG – IF YOU

그녀가 떠나가요

나는 아무것도 할 수 없어요

사랑이 떠나가요

나는 바보처럼 멍하니 서있네요

멀어지는 그 뒷모습만을 바라보다 작은 점이 되어 사라진다 시간이 지나면 또 무뎌질까 옛 생각이 나 니 생각이 나

IF YOU IF YOU 아직 너무 늦지 않았다면 우리 다시 돌아갈 수는 없을까 IF YOU IF YOU 너도 나와 같이 힘들다면 우리 조금 쉽게 갈 수는 없을까 있을 때 잘할 걸 그랬어

그대는 어떤가요 정말 아무렇지 않은 건가요 이별이 지나봐요 그댈 잊어야 하지만 쉽지가 않네요

멀어지는 그 뒷모습만을 바라보다 작은 점이 되어 사라진다 누군갈 만나면 위로가 될까 옛 생각이 나 니 생각이 나

IF YOU IF YOU 아직 너무 늦지 않았다면 우리 다시 돌아갈 수는 없을까 IF YOU IF YOU 너도 나와 같이 힘들다면 우리 조금 쉽게 갈 수는 없을까 있을 때 잘할 걸 그랬어

오늘같이 가녀린 비가 내리는 날이면 너의 그림자가 떠오르고 서랍 속에 몰래 넣어둔 우리의 추억을 다시 꺼내 홀로 회상하고

[T.O.P/승리] 헤어짐이란 슬픔의 무게를 [T.O.P/승리] 난 왜 몰랐을까

IF YOU IF YOU (If you~ if you~) 아직 너무 늦지 [태양/GD] 않았다면 우리 다시 돌아갈 [태양/GD] 수는 없을까 IF YOU IF YOU (If you~ if you~) 너도 나와 같이 힘들다면 우리 조금 쉽게 갈 수는 없을까 있을 때 잘할 걸 그랬어

Romanization

geunyeoga tteonagayo

naneun amugeotdo hal su eopseoyo

sarangi tteonagayo

naneun babocheoreom meonghani seoinneyo

meoreojineun geu dwitmoseupmaneul baraboda jageun jeomi doeeo sarajinda sigani jinamyeon tto mudyeojilkka yet saenggagi na ni saenggagi na

IF YOU IF YOU ajik neomu neutji anhatdamyeon uri dasi doragal suneun eopseulkka IF YOU IF YOU neodo nawa gachi himdeuldamyeon uri jogeum swipge gal suneun eopseulkka isseul ttae jalhal geol geuraesseo

geudaeneun eotteongayo jeongmal amureochi anheun geongayo ibyeori jinabwayo geudael ijeoya hajiman swipjiga anneyo

meoreojineun geu dwitmoseupmaneul baraboda jageun jeomi doeeo sarajinda nugungal mannamyeon wiroga doelkka yet saenggagi na ni saenggagi na

IF YOU IF YOU ajik neomu neutji anhatdamyeon uri dasi doragal suneun eopseulkka IF YOU IF YOU neodo nawa gachi himdeuldamyeon uri jogeum swipge gal suneun eopseulkka isseul ttae jalhal geol geuraesseo

oneulgachi ganyeorin biga naerineun narimyeon neoui geurimjaga tteooreugo seorap soge mollae neoheodun uriui chueogeul dasi kkeonae hollo hoesanghago

[T.O.P/Seung] heeojimiran seulpeumui mugereul [T.O.P/Seung] nan wae mollasseulkka

IF YOU IF YOU (If you~ if you~) ajik neomu neutji [Tae/GD] anhatdamyeon uri dasi doragal [Tae/GD] suneun eopseulkka IF YOU IF YOU (If you~ if you~) neodo nawa gachi himdeuldamyeon uri jogeum swipge gal suneun eopseulkka isseul ttae jalhal geol geuraesseo

Translation

She is leaving

And I can’t do anything

Love is leaving

Like a fool, I’m blankly standing here

I’m looking at her, getting farther away She becomes a small dot and then disappears Will this go away after time passes? I remember the old times. I remember you

IF YOU IF YOU If it’s not too late Can’t we get back together? IF YOU IF YOU If you’re struggling like I am Can’t we make things a little easier? I should’ve treated you better when I had you

How about you? Are you really fine? Guess our break up is setting I should forget you but it’s not easy

I’m looking at her, getting farther away She becomes a small dot and then disappears Will this go away after time passes? I remember the old times. I remember you

IF YOU IF YOU If it’s not too late Can’t we get back together? IF YOU IF YOU If you’re struggling like I am Can’t we make things a little easier? I should’ve treated you better when I had you

On days where thin rain falls like today I remember your shadow Our memories that I secretly put in my drawer I take them out and reminisce again by myself

Why didn’t I know – About the weight of sadness that comes with breaking up?

IF YOU IF YOU If it’s not too late Can’t we get back together? IF YOU IF YOU If you’re struggling like I am Can’t we make things a little easier? I should’ve treated you better when I had you

[tutulomi]

I Will not Say Goodbye to my Father

“If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I’d walk right up to heaven and bring you home again”

It has been 2 years since I sat in the bed next to my father as he passed away from 13 years suffering his heart disease. 2 years still feels like yesterday, 2 years and I am still bargaining, pleading to see my dad on the couch when I open my front door. They don't tell you that each day, the grief will hit you like a sucker punch during the most mundane tasks, or that the smallest memory will cause a hole so big you fear it will never be filled.

I’m definitely not an expert on grief, but I do know there are many phases. I think one of the last few phases, “acceptance” becomes more challenging before the acceptance and healing become easier. I’m currently in what I believe the “guilty” phase of grief. I’ve shed so many tears in the past years; I am numb and mentally exhausted. I lay in bed at night thinking of my dad and how each day I feel is getting to be too “normal and routine.” I feel guilty going about my day and not shedding as many tears. What if he is watching down and thinking, “ They’ve already moved on…” Obviously I haven’t, but do our late relatives know we have them in our thoughts every moment?    

I wake up every night around 4 a.m., think of him right away, and have trouble falling back asleep. I sometimes wish he would send me a message, but then I get startled right away and change my mind. It just feels surreal to me; I can’t believe he isn’t here.

What I know for sure, as Oprah would say, our energy never dies and our soul moves on once it has reached peace within that particular individual. But then what? I’m still unsure about the ‘what comes after that.’

Is he okay? Was he really ready to leave? I have to force myself to believe that if he let go, then he was ready, but I just don’t know for sure.

Reality has not set in on the fact that I will never get to speak to my father again, that I will never hear him ask for a cup of coffee from Starbucks in this lifetime again. Instead, I have had the chance to hear from other people, from all walks of his life, about the man he was and the stories they so generously share with me. These are the stories I hold onto for dear life, these are the stories I choose to remember, those filled with my father at his best. 

I wrote this letter 2 years ago:

“It’s Not Goodbye, It’s I Hope and Pray to See You Again.”

Dear Dad,

There will never be enough words or time to tell you how much I love you. Whether you know it or not, you have taught me so many life lessons in the past 26 years. Your imperfections, your courage, your strength, your heart, your laughter, your kindness, and your, at times, stubbornness have been wonderful to examine and soak in.

You’ve taught me to see the “little things.” I know I’m not the only one to notice that every time you walked into somebody’s house, you would always state a compliment. You always noticed a change in their home if it was your second or third time back. You appreciated the little things in life, and it was refreshing.

You’ve taught me to do a little less complaining and take each moment for what it is. As you would say, “Well, it is what it is, we’ll just have to take it one day at a time.”

You’ve taught me to work hard and not be lazy. You worked every day until they forced you to retire, but even then you didn’t stop working hard and fighting each day.

You’ve taught me to turn the lights out when I leave a room. It took years to click in, but now I am constantly turning lights out of the rooms when nobody is in them.

You’ve taught me to not waste food. I love leftovers just like you and I hate to see food go to waste. I love how you never lost your appetite, even at hospital. I know all of us will never forget your favorite—rujak.

You’ve taught me to have humor. Well, try to. You always had a sense of humor and I loved how you were never that grumpy old man. Whenever you could fit a joke in, you would. You really knew how to make others smile, and your kind disposition always shined through.

You always be my first love, If I could have another chance, I want you to walk with me to the aisle and meet with someone I choose.

I'm not saying goodbye... I hope to see you again and until then, you will be part of my every day.

Last week I read a poem and I thought I would share it with you since it is so beautifully written.

May I Go Now? by Susan A. Jackson May I Go? May I go now? Do you think the time is right? May I say good-bye to pain-filled days and endless lonely nights? I’ve lived my life and done my best, an example tried to be. So can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free? I didn’t want to go at first, I fought with all my might. But something seems to draw me now to a warm and loving light. I want to go. I really do. It’s difficult to stay. But I will try as best I can to live just one more day, To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears. I know you’re sad and so afraid, because I see your tears. I’ll not be far, I promise that, and hope you’ll always know that my spirit will be close to you, wherever you may go. Thank you so for loving me. You know I love you too. That’s why it’s hard to say good-bye and end this life with you. So hold me now, just one more time and let me hear you say, because you care so much for me, you’ll let me go today. 

Before I close this post, let me just say that I am truly thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who gave me the opportunity to return to Him some day. I believe He allowed me to be born in this era and location with the people and opportunities that have made my life so rich with love.

Take the time to appreciate all the people, things and opportunities that enrich your life and share your grateful heart while you have the time 

[tutulomi]

Who You - G Dragon

Baby i love you ireoke malhajiman Nae maeumeun waenji hanado jochi anha I want you i need you norae bureujiman I don’t know why i feel bad niga mwonde

Chukhahae geusae dareun namjareul tto manna Jaldwaesseum hae ajik jom ireudaman Nan nega johahamyeon geu ppunirago but jakku hwagana baby Daeche niga mwonde

Du du du du du du du du du du du du du oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Du du du du du du du du du du du du du oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Baby i miss you wae jakku neoman saenggangna dareun saram mot manna wonhaji anha Neol saranghaneunjido miwohaneunjido gubuni anga maeil hetgallyeo ajikdo I don’t know why i feel bad 니가 뭔데 Nun ape aljjanggeoryeo geu nomgwa paljjang geolmyeo igeon gyeonguga aniji jangnanchyeo nugu nollyeo? Eomeo? Enganhi jom haera erai georieseo pin han ssangui deoreoun gaenari Naega neoege mot sajun bissan baege gudu daesin sabeorin nunmul jeojeun baege Wae neon haengbokhago nan bulhaenghaeya haneun geonde daeche niga mwonde

Du du du du du du du du du du du du du oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Du du du du du du du du du du du du du oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Baby i just want you back i want you back i want you back Baby i know it’s too late it just too late it just too late Baby i just want you back i want you back i want you back Baby i know it’s too late it just too late it just too late

Ssawora bireo heeojyeora bireo naegero dasi dorawa dallago neul bireo Dongnemada georimada aesseo chaja danimyeo gyaene yojeum an joteonde rago illeo Guchahago jjijilhae na wollae jjijilhae mollasseo neodo machangajiya nappeun gijibae Naega deo jalhalge hanbeon manna jullae gwichanke an halge jebal dorawajullae

Baby i hate you baby i loved you Ma baby hate you Baby love you du du du du du Niga mwonde

English 

Baby I love you, I say this but I don’t feel good at all I want you I need you, I sing but I don’t know why I feel bad, who you?

Congratulations, you already are meeting someone new I hope it works out, althought it’s a bit early If you’re happy, that’s all I want But I keep getting angry, baby who you?

Du du du du du du du du du du du du du oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Du du du du du du du du du du du du du oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Baby I miss you, why do I keep thinking about you I can’t meet someone else, I don’t want to Whether I love you or hate you I can’t determine, everyday I’m still confused I don’t know why I feel bad, who you

You keep showing up in front of me with your arms locked to his This isn’t right, are you kidding me? Oh my? Enough is enough A pair of dirty flowers bloomed by the street Instead of the expensive purse that I couldn’t get you Instead of shoes I bought a pillow, wet with tears uh why are you happy while I’m unfortunate Who you

Du du du du du du du du du du du du du oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Du du du du du du du du du du du du du oh-oh-oh-oh-oh

Baby I just want you back I want you back I want you back Baby I know it’s too late it just too late it’s just too late

Baby I just want you back I want you back I want you back Baby I know it’s too late it just too late it’s just too late

I pray for fight, pray for a break-up I always pray for you to come back to me Every neighborhoods every streets I visit and tell people that you two aren’t doing well

So lame and loser-ish, I’ve always been a loser I didn’t know, you’re the same, you bad girl I will treat you better, will you meet me? I won’t bother you, will you please come back to me?

Baby I hate you Baby I loved you Ma baby hate you Baby love you du du du du du who you?

[tutulomi]

Nothing Is Permanent: Letting Go of Attachment to People

“Impermanence is not something to be afraid of. It’s the evolution, a never-ending horizon.” ~Deepak Chopra

I have been reading a lot lately on attachment and impermanence. It’s a big topic, one that is often hard to wrap your head and heart around. How can I live a life without attachment? Doesn’t that mean that I am not being a loving or caring person? I mean really, no attachment—it just seems cold.

This all started for me when the love of my life told me, “I love you, I am just not in love with you.” Ouch.

To say I was hurt would be a gross understatement. How could someone who I felt such strong love for not reciprocate the same feelings? This wasn’t the way it was supposed to go. We were together, attached forever, remember? Wrong.

While I didn’t like it and I didn’t want to, I had to accept what I’d heard. Sure, I fought it for a while, told myself little fairy tales that he would change his mind and come back. The call never came, my love letter did not arrive in the mail, the “here I am on your doorstep” never occurred.

It was over, and it was time for me to move forward, but how?

I would like to say that I held my head high and just moved forward with dignity and grace.

I would like to say I had a secret potion to “get over” the love of my life. I wish I could tell you of a magic book I read or twelve steps to follow to heal a broken heart. Those things I cannot offer, but I can offer you hope.

Years after we parted ways I had an overwhelming urge to run in nature. All I wanted to do was walk by myself, and that’s exactly what I quietly did. Day after day, rain or shine, I took my little heartache out for a run until it was exhausted.

A funny thing started to happen after one year of running. I started to notice the nature, how beautiful they were, tall, strong, and magnificent.

I started to hear the sound of the birds, the leaves blowing, the babbling of the creek, and the crackle of the earth under my feet. I started to step outside of my head and heartache, and I started to notice the things around me. It was beautiful, fresh, and amazing.

As my heart started to take in the grace of my surroundings each day on my walks, I felt little pieces of my broken heart start to heal. My self-talk of “why me” drifted away with each step.

I began to stop thinking about my loss of love and started to think about how lucky I was to have experienced love. I opened myself to gratitude rather than attachment and loss.

I had attachment to a person, an ideal, a hope. In many ways I had attached my personal happiness to this person.

In my mind the love of my life was attached and permanent, to me and for me. As I have now learned nothing in life is permanent. If we can appreciate this reality, we can open ourselves to cherish “now” moments.

Love is not about attachment or permanence. Love is about spending time with another person, sharing moments, experiences, and each other.

The moment we make it about “keeping” another for our own gain, our own need, it becomes about our ego, fears, and insecurities. A mindful, compassionate, kind being only wishes happiness and love for others. Sometimes happiness and love for others is moving on and letting go.

I think of the many wonderful memories. I feel full of gratitude thinking of the magnitude of wonderful times, the laughter, and the love. I cherish those memories and I think I am pretty lucky that I was able to share those wonderful experiences of love with another person.

[tutulomi]

10cm – Fine Thank You And You

I heard about you recently I heard that you already live in a large apartment I still eat ramen every day I’m getting older but my tastes haven’t changed

I’m fine thank you thank you and you I can’t believe we used to be in love long ago, it’s so funny

I heard you bought a nice car An expensive car that you always talked about I am also learning how to drive I didn’t know how hard it was

I’m fine thank you thank you and you I can’t believe we used to be in love long ago, it’s so funny

I’m really doing fine, I’m happy Don’t worry about me and have a good life

I’m fine thank you thank you and you I can’t believe we used to be in love long ago, it’s so funny

[tutulomi]

wedding vow

“I never thought I was going to meet you in my miserable time

When I thought my life would be closed to an end

You just came

You guard

And you guide

As far as I remember, I did not fall in love with you

You neither with me

I just walked into love with you

Choosing to take every step along the way

Yes, I do believe in faith and destiny

Thank you for all positive energy you always share

All the good thoughts you always think

All the loving feelings you always share

Thank you for being my water

Being with you is the best thing I want to do

Thank you for being my closest friend, my crazy partner, my daily photography, my most comfortable shoulder to lean on, my older brother, my everything

Yes, whenever I am with you I know that I am home

I promise I will make the best out of it

I promise I am going to make you smile everyday

Although the fact is that 70% of it you are the one who always does that

I am going to be the best wife, a loving mom for your children, your lifetime exercise partner, your greatest travelling partner through the journey of life

Well, I am not going to learn how to cook

I am sorry

But I promise you I will be everything you need except to cook

I vow to love you in all your forms

Til our hair turns to grey and we grow old together

I vow to always know in the deepest part of my soul that no matter what challenge might carry us apart, we will always find our way back to each other

I love you too

[tutulomi]

Sang Filsuf - Mr. Sonjaya

Wahai kau budak dunia

Cintailah bijaksana

Dengan penuh kesadaran

Pahami dirimu sendiri

Lusinan jurnal puisi

Jaman berkembang mengikuti

Mencari jawaban ilmu

Tentang satu dunia yang baru

Masa depan lima benua

Manusia alam semesta

Tak akan kau ketahui

Namun Tuhan bukan pembenci

Lupakanlah masa lalu

Dan dia yang telah pergi

Bukanlah suatu tragedi

Jika kamu jatuh cinta lagi

[tutulomi]

Merakit mesin penenun hujan Terjalin hingga terbentuk awan Semua tentang kebalikan kita Terlukis, tertulis, tergaris di wajahmu Keputusan yang tak terputuskan Ketika engkau telah tunjukkan Semua tentang kebalikan kita Kebalikan di antara kita Kau sakiti aku, kau gerami aku Kau sakiti, gerami, kau benci aku Dan bila esok nanti kau akan tersadar Kau temukan seorang yang lebih baik Dan aku kan hilang, ku kan jadi awan Tapi takkan lama, ku kan jadi hujan... Frau - Mesin Penenun Hujan

[tutulomi]

untuk segala sesuatunya, ada waktu yang tepat.. 2015, im coming 😊

[tutulomi]

Pertama kali mencoba, ketagihan.. Terima kasih bapak dan ibu guru, profesi yang bagi gw sangat penting selain jadi orang tua. Sehari mencoba profesi ini, energi gw terserap penuh. Berkata di dalam diri, mungkin inilah salah satu bentuk kepuasan batin yang tidak terganti dengan uang yang diperoleh. Hahahahaha, mungkin gw belum sampai pada level itu, tapi bisa diberikan kesempatan untuk ikut membangun bangsa ini, terima kasihnya luar biasa. Sukses terus Kelas Inspirasi dimanapun, tetap berikan inspirasi bagi anak Indonesia. Cheers

[tutulomi]

santai sejenak

[tutulomi]

Ayo memilih, jangan buang hak sebagai warga negara!! #IndonesiaMemilih

[tutulomi]

Maybe if I tell myself enough Maybe if I do I'll get over you #vsco #vscocam #squready #igers #iphonesia (at Over You - Ingrid Michaelson)

[tutulomi]

lama tak berjumpa, dan ketika tidak direncanakan kami pun berjumpa ☺️☺️