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je veux pleurer mais j'ai des choses à faire

[twelvessa]

[twelvessa]

i don't wanna leave anymore, but i can't find any reason to stay.

[beingharsh]

*flirting with an older man* when i was born you had already attempted suicide once

[beingharsh]

finally someone says something kind of titillating

[twelvessa]

why does your sexuality *have* to be so connected to your appearance

[twelvessa]

I try to be optimistic and not assume I'm a victim etc etc, but I swear the number of times I tell ppl about my life and they're like "wow you're reallyyy unlucky!" like I am at my limit pls end me

[twelvessa]

sometimes takeout is genuinely cheaper than meal prepping/getting groceries 😭😭 but I hate doing it. it feels so counterintuitive.

[twelvessa]

i don't understand how some days i think my body looks great and then on others i see myself as grotesque, repulsive, enormous, etc etc

[twelvessa]

making pro con lists for decision making never works for me bc it's usually just. cons: terrible, not good for you, waste of time. pros: yolo 😜👅🙂‍↕️🙈💋

[twelvessa]

It just feels like no matter how hard I try, my bad luck always sets me back.

[twelvessa]

haters will tell you to look for the common denominator if you're always having roommate drama, but I swear the drama loves meeeee

[twelvessa]

that boy is corrupt, and yes I'm talking bout your baby 💋

[twelvessa]

hanging out with virgins at this age is so annoying sometimes. like girl, stop replying to my insecurities with "Ummm but men want to fuck you??" like ok?? quit projecting YOUR insecurity that a woman's value comes from male attention...

[twelvessa]

I just wanna make music. that's all I wanna do

[twelvessa]

I just want someone who sees me for more than what's on the outside.

[twelvessa]

music these days sounds like a phone case. maybe sometimes a bag of chips if you're lucky. but it used to sound like a burlap sack or orange peels. miss those days.

[twelvessa]

part of my issue is pitying myself too much for a wasted, strange childhood. that I didn't get to have fun back then, so I have to make up for lost time and have as much fun as I can now... but it's not cute anymore. everyone's traveling and getting married. I feel so behind. i still want to go out. i still want to be a mess. i still want to chase after better and better

[twelvessa]

on all levels except physical. i am george costanza