âConfetti in her veins.â 23/06/17 ; N.B // I bled confetti for you. You lured me into your atrophy like an invitation to what would soon become a funeral but disguised itself as a birthday party. My heart found a rate that it hadnât yet discovered. A pace so invigorating that my rib cage almost collapsed in on itself. I caught myself staring at the streamers in the hollows of your cheeks left from a party you attended last year. The jagged edges, I suppose you werenât ready to take down. The leftover slice of cake in your refrigerator, remnants of what I can assume is a ballon on the floor; you still hadnât left that party. Foolish for me to think you could possibly throw one. You showered me with wrapping paper and fairy lights. Unknowingly, the litter of plastic cutlery, cups and plates illuminated a form of a âwelcomeâ sign. If only for an instant, it felt like home. For you, I became a Confetti Girl. Because confetti is exhilarating, wonderful but confetti is also messy. Confetti is a mess that nobody likes to stay after the party & sweep up the remains of something once wonderful. It will attach itself to your sleeves & it will latch itself into crevices where it never was before. Confetti is a disaster that nobody can bother with. But you basked in the radiance of my torn paper sides. We had jagged edges, together. My invite list was a black, white and blank page, how could I throw a party, when you were the most colourful thing in my mind, we couldâve been on the brink of a cosmic miracle. You didnât mind the mess of a confetti girl, almost like you understood. As if there were corners of confetti buried beneath your lungs. You never tried to fix me because you never saw the need to clean anything. I will be the unwanted guest you felt obliged to invite because you are the party that I will never bring myself to leave. I bled confetti for you. You are the left over slice of cake in my refrigerator that I couldnât bring myself to throw away.
12:16AM 23/06/17 I have never cared for parties, until I bled confetti.








