Well, fuck this

Slowly becoming a monkey B/p free for 365 days

[givemearmstopraywith]

every day i wake up and drink my silly little coffee while God eats my heart like a pomegranate in front of me

[qvotext]

[ughh-fuck]

Do you really think i look good or did i just lost 15 pounds since we last saw each other and you didn’t know how to point that out without sounding rude?

[fatloserkid]

I haven't felt this fat in some time 🤡🤡🤡

[ughh-fuck]

I want to feel beautifully sad but lately all this sadness just feels ugly

[nobodycares-anyways]

Is anyone else’s body image like 104% dictated by that morning’s weight?

Like, I can gain about half a pound and immediately the mirror shows me what I looked like at 20lbs heavier, my Jeans feel 2 sizes too small and even my fingers seem to have swollen.

But if the scale tells me I lost a pound, suddenly my clothes are looser, my steps feel lighter and I generally seem to be mere days away from my goal weight. Does anyone else experience that??

[anona-posts]

Body dysmorphia my doods yay it’s so fun

[just-shower-thoughts]

When people overeat because they’re stressed, they’re just giving themselves one more future thing to be stressed about.

[casually-bothered]

i really need friends that understand what i’m going through. this shits so hard to deal with when you think you’re alone.

[foxgraves]

no offense but i’m literally starving for affection but when people give it to me i can’t accept it as valid because i’m worried i’ve manipulated their perception of me by only portraying myself a certain way and feeling like this portrayal of myself is an imposter and makes me disingenuous and not deserving of the affection they give me.

[n6mcv]

Do u ever sit back and realize ur not anybody’s favorite person, ur just kinda there and then you get the sudden urge to distance urself from everyone and chill alone

[hatefuckingunconditional]

am i the only one who feels like i don’t even have my own personality? I just pick up traits and behaviors from people i admire and idolize and smash it all into one huge ass mess. And that shit changes weekly at this point.

[diaryofarexi]

[salemwitchtrials-deactivated202]

“[Eating disorders], at the most basic level, [are] a bundle of deadly contradictions: a desire for power that strips you of all power. A gesture of strength that divests you of all strength. A wish to prove that you need nothing, that you have no human hungers, which turns on itself and becomes a searing need for the hunger itself. It is an attempt to find an identity, but ultimately it strips you of any sense of yourself, save the sorry identity of “sick.” It is a grotesque mockery of cultural standards of beauty that winds up mocking no one more than you.”

Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia, Marya Hornbacher

[ughh-fuck]

Parent really do be out here giving us a shitty metabolism and then coming for our bodies smh

[owlmylove]

you don’t “beat” depression. you don’t “defeat” eating disorders. you survive them. stop making severe mental illnesses sound like something you can overcome just by throwing the right punch.

[anxietyproblem]

[lotusflowersfromconcrete]

I hate that mental disorders have turned into a competition. you cant discuss eating habits without someone saying how they survived off green tea for 3 weeks and weighed 4 stone. you can’t discuss your depression because another person has already tried to commit suicide 8 times and theyre only 12. you cant discuss self harm because you punch your leg till it turns purple whilst they slice their arm to the bone. you cant talk about addiction because someone else will talk about facing their crack addiction for 18 years. every god damn time you even come close to wanting to reach out you know theres no point because in other people’s eyes you’re never sick enough. there’s always someone worse off. that’s the problem with attitudes to mental health. this ‘oh suck it up you’re not as bad as me/them’ HAS to stop. you have no idea how much a problem affects a person because, okay it might seem like nothing to you but to them their entire world is breaking down and they just have to wait till they either figure it out on their own, or become so sick that people can’t deny it any more. and by then its usually too late.