The doctor has recommended that I begin listing my daily events and tasks in order to continue with the therapy, for he truly believes that he can repair my shattered mind.
I slept. After sleeping, I awoke from my slumber. After waking, I left my study and walked the streets of Ironforge. After walking, I retrieved a letter from the offices. After retrieving, I stood outside the gates of Ironforge to feel the cold wind against my face. After standing, I sat inside the tavern for a drink. After sitting, I returned to my abode.
It is now nighttime. This is not working.
I must confess that this basic form of shorthand is not something that I am used to; it is very trite and boring. If it is supposed to ease my troubled mind, then I do not think it is actually doing its job, doctor. But I did not want to take the pill either.
Forgive me, my medical captor, for I must return to my preferred style of writing. Truth be told: it is impossible for you to ascertain the cause of my illness, and I may have to end our sessions prematurely. My only respite is my journal, for it is the one thing about me that is truly alive.
It is true: I did indeed die in the cold heart of Northrend.
I heard dwarven steel clashing against primitive iron.
"Altruin Cogboggler," I said, awkwardly pressing my face against the dirt prison, "What an odd name. Your voice sounds deeper than a gnome's."
I heard ice shatter under a young soldier's boots.
"It is a long story. A famous scholar such as yourself wouldn't be interested." He explained.
I heard a large beast's death rattle in response to a battlecry.
"You've read my work?" I asked.
I heard a laugh amidst the clamoring of swords.
"I have," he replied. "Impressive, but dated, I suppose."
I heard someone breaking the lock to my pit. As I turned my head to look up, the wooden bars were ripped apart.
"Altruin? What is going on?" I yelled.
A rope was lowered. I hesitantly grabbed onto it and something pulled me up -- It was Meladaris. I could tell that he was exhausted, as if he had spent the night braving the dangers of this frozen graveyard.
I raised my hands and grabbed him by the collar.
"Traitor! You left us to die! Do you wish to taunt me as I draw my final breath?!"
My voice was loud, but Meladaris was the only other being in the cave besides me and Altruin. Did he kill the rest of the snobolds?
"No," he calmly responded, "If there is anyone that I have betrayed, it is not you, blind one."
I let go of him. The sounds of bloodshed were growing louder. He started towards a direction opposite of the fighting -- a way out?
"Wait! Where are you going?! We have to find the others!"
He turned back, unsheathing one of his blades.
"I have done my part in this mission. You have no need of me anymore."
He raised his blade towards me, threateningly. He spoke as I stepped back in fear.
"Speak of this to no one, Stoneguard. You leave me to deal with my demons, and I will leave you to yours. If you follow me, it will be as if you died in the snow."
As he disappeared, I turned around to identify the source of warmongering as it made its way into the prison: Leingod, Gabranth, and Hayden, accompanied by a hunting party of dwarves. I was wrong; they never did forget about me.
"Altruin, don't worry down there! A rescue party is here to save us."
"Ultadan, come here! I need to tell you something."
We trekked through Dragonblight for an hour. By then, Gabranth had already appraised me of the situation. It seems like the boy and the old man had their own battles to fight.
The dwarves, led by Garagrim Hornsmith, stayed in the cave to clear out the remaining snobolds for their contract. Hayden, previously taken captive by the same vermin, had already found her way out earlier and led the party to our prison to rescue us. Altruin, a warlock who makes a living out of putting himself in precarious situations in the name of 'cultural studies', had traveled to Northrend in order to examine the relationship between snobolds and magnataurs.
During the walk, Hayden stayed silent, Gabranth and Leingod conversed about the possibility of acquiring a ship, and Altruin and I debated the differences between tauren and troll society. Each argument always ended with a knowing smile on Altruin's face and an annoyed grimace on mine.
Soon enough, we had found an old road leading to a crossroads for travelers and hunters. At this point, Altruin shook all of our hands and said, "It was a pleasure to travel with you all, friends. Thank you for the timely rescue. And Ultadan," he continued, "Our conversations were enjoyable, even if your points were a bit, ah, well-- I will send you a letter of my findings here in Dragonblight. Perhaps you will include them in your next paper? Of course you will!"
Before I could respond, he bid us good day as he marched off to find his own awkward adventure -- probably from the inside of some cage in Tanaris.
As we neared the tavern, Hayden took the opportunity to ask around for a ship. Once she left, it was not long before the other two started asking me about Meladaris.
"Ultadan," Leingod said, "We have been looking everywhere, and one of the dwarves claimed they saw someone sneaking into the snobold cave as they entered. We cannot leave this continent without him! Leave no one behind."
"He has a duty to the group," Gabranth added, "Were it not for him deserting us, we would not be in such a critical state like this. Did you ever see him?"
As they spoke to me, I began to unintentionally tune them out until they were nothing but echoes. I blurred my vision by staring off into the snow and thought about what the elf had told me. Does he suffer from my condition?
Leingod took a firm hold of my shoulder, thinking that I had been daydreaming. "Ultadan?"
"No, not since the temple. I think he does not want to be found," I replied. "The elf is strong enough to survive living within a dragon's bowels, so I do not believe the ice has killed him yet. This place," I continued, pointing towards the frozen cliffs past the entrance, "This is what he craves. He is within his element here. I do not know what you said to him back at the temple, Gabranth, but he is out there somewhere because of it, I think. Perhaps he is exploring the area, and maybe even himself."
Leingod crossed his arms and sighed, but I could tell that he understood my words; he was also a warrior. Surely he has given into his primal urges at some point in his career. Zackary has shown that he can control himself, I noticed.
Gabranth did not seem impressed, however. Understandable. He had gone through much this entire campaign, and I know nothing about what happened between him and the elf. Time will tell, I suppose.
"Hate to interrupt, but I was able to convince one of the boys in there to give us a ride back to Stormwind. Let's get a move on?" Hayden said, as she exited the tavern. Knowing her, she either persuaded one of the local sailors with her looks. Or worse: her fists.
We had all quieted down, unsure of the current situation. Did we all just agree to leave Meladaris behind? I know Zackary didn't, but I had to reassure him that this was for the best. By now, he probably understood that the elf had something important to do and that he would survive and return to Stormwind. Besides, our work was done: the boy had already found the phylactery with Gabranth's assistance.
When the awkward silence attempted to take hold of our group, Leingod immediately stepped forward and said, "Then we leave. Meladaris' fortitude is great-- maybe even greater than mine. I truly believe that he will survive and complete whatever quest he is on; I understand a warrior's duty, not only to his people, but to himself." He brought a gloved fist to his chest, bowed his head in some sort of soldier's prayer, and nodded.
"Let's go home."
A familiar situation.
Ultadan, come here! I need to tell you something.
I sat in a cabin similar to the one on the Divulge.
Here, hoist me up, friend. I believe you will enjoy this.
The ice on my satchel began to melt as I placed it upon the table.
In ruins that seemed alien to me, I found this hiding in the snow.
I reached into the satchel and pulled out an item wrapped in a red cloth.
Open it once you reach civilization where it's safe. Don't want it to get damaged here.
I slowly unwrapped the object and set the cloth on the table.
I have no use for it. I would rather live in the present than study relics of the past.
A large bronze gear with intricate patterns carved within the metal.
Perhaps this will help you write your paper on, ah, what was it again... Ulduar?
I wrapped the gear with the cloth and hid it within my satchel.
Come now, let's get out of here, friend. I would rather this place not be our grave.
A sailor knocked on my cabin door. I yelled at him to leave. He will not steal my artifact. The artifact that I have been searching for. The reason why I accompanied Leingod to Northrend. The reason why I died.
My hand is cramping. I have written much tonight. I feel much better, doctor. I am telling the truth. Do not come near me.












