feeling a heavy weight in your body pulling you to the ground
only being able to move slowly, not having any energy to move fast
feeling numb, emotionless, uncaring, stone-cold or deeply sad
feeling like nothing in the world matters and nothing is worth doing
not having any interest in activities that take any energy
finding other people tiring, and interactions exhausting
clinging to anything old, familiar, nostalgic, and comforting
wanting a distraction, but also feeling like nothing can distract you enough
over-indulging in distracting activities like video games, tv shows, internet
not being able to find words to express what you’re going thru, feeling like nobody could possibly understand or empathize
not wanting to see or talk to other people, wanting to be alone, but also longing for comfort and familiarity
doing anything is very tiring and you wish you could only lie down forever
not wanting to eat, or alternatively, always wanting to eat
craving mostly comfort food, things you’ve had in some period in your past, or sweets, fast food, anything that brings you a little comfort
losing control over your diet, not being able to care about what you’re eating
feeling like this feeling will never end, feeling like you should be over it already
having surges of memories, some of them painful, some of them made painful by the fact that they’re in the past, unchangeable, unrepeatable
feeling physical pain in the area of your chest, back, stomach, shoulders, if a particularly painful memory is touched or triggered
wishing you could stop feeling and re-experiencing past moments
feeling like you’re never going to be happy again
feeling like you’re dying