âKeep tryingâ. Yes, I wrote about this back in October of 2015. Now, we enter July 2016. Have I kept it up? Have I been successful? Was âkeep tryingâ really worth it? My face curls out a smile. I sure have. This journey has been well worth it. I feel stronger, I am happier and I feel like I finally look how I was ment to look. Sure, looks aren't everything. The whole purpose for this journey was to prove to myself that I can indeed have control of my mind. I have never felt this great before in my life. I did it for my health, for my heart, for my family and it was because I controlled my mind. Growing up I was always chubbier and I was always the bigger one most of my groups of friends. I was never really picked on until one of my friends began making back handed comments when we were in high school. I wasnât obese, but I was clearly overweight. Still I didnât let society shape my idea of beauty. It was never about beauty, but it affected my confidence. I began to lose weight after high school. I felt better and I began doing well but I kept yo yo -ing. I needed to be consistent. I looked fine, and felt fine, but I wasnât satisfied especially after my doctor told me to âkeep tryingâ. I realized that if I truly loved myself, I owed myself this favor. So far, I have lost about 20lbs. I used to be a size 6 in dresses, size 8 in jeans. I am now a size 4 in some cases, and have even been able to fit well into some size 2 clothes. Now, size and looks isnât everything. I just wanted to share my results to prove that all of these months of âkeep tryingâ was worth it. It wasnât easy and yes, I still need to improve a lot for things. I donât limit myself completely (I am a die hard chocoloholic), but everything in moderation. Now, what I have noticed with this change, although itâs all been positive not everyone will see it that way, unfortunately. Along with the âhey! You looks greatâ comments, there have also been the âyouâre waay too skinnyâ. I have kept my cool and just smile those off⌠I feel great and I am healthy. I donât believe in unhealthy diets. I am balanced and I pay attention to my body. I look a lot smaller, but I feel stronger than ever before. Now that I have lost the weight, I have been focusing on toning. It takes a lot of motivation, but hey, I guess I just have to âkeep tryingâ. The results have been encouraging and the best part is, I did this for me.