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an OSDD1b system

[unhinged-recap]

♡ bodily 23 ♡ she/her collectively ♡ pro-endo

Our host is at her wits end trying to get something to work out for us at least once, so here's our attempt at keeping a blog going.

If we seem like your vibe, feel free to follow! We follow back. We love having mutuals to reblog content from just to feel a little alive, you know?

This blog is sfw (with maybe an occasional swear word) so you can follow if you're a minor.

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Our personal posts will be tagged with #ours, #system memories and #system update for new things happening in the system with #system spice for edgier posts- nothing nsfw though! Other posts might be tagged with #not ours, #system help, #system joy and #keep this in mind

We're badly in need of therapy and diagnosis but so far we check most or all the boxes for OSDD 1b, social anxiety, bipolar disorder, possibly agoraphobia, PTSD/CPTSD and perhaps ADHD and hypomania?? In short, we're really confused, send help.

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Deep in a depressive low right now and fragmenting like crazy. I literally don't have the energy otherwise I'd start logging fronting times on SimplyPlural. Maybe that could help ground us because I'm very disassociated right now

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You know what's pretty annoying? Telling someone "you don't understand me" and them saying "no, no, I DO"

and then they proceed to say something that proves you right

[unhinged-recap]

Oof talking to neurotypical singlets is honestly exhausting

[prairiemountain]

Don't panic if you can't feel your headmates. A day of them being gone doesn't mean that it was all fake. Don't let the doubt get ya

[rosebushcollective]

Hey, you.

Yes you, you scrolling pluralblr.

Go kiss your alters.

They're here for a reason.

[obscurix]

swinging rapidly from "maybe i'll be okay" to "it never gets better" every damn day

[we-are-orlando-deactivated20251]

I go back and forth like every other hour bro

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I am kind of unhinged. What do you mean I'm considering asking my headmate Lucent to maybe be my boyfriend so I can politely turn down all the single guys I know?

I've been thinking about it for months but I don't even know where that guy is. I haven't spoken to him or seen him in a while. Time to hop into the inner world, I guess! I haven't been there in ages either. I'm a little out of touch...

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System Update

It's been a minute since we've been active on this blog! It's been a bumpy couple of months but I feel we've learned and improved a bit. Socializing in our system has been minimal of late (I keep telling myself to gather everyone for a game of monopoly sometime) but we came to an unspoken agreement of working together more and acting as a whole while still being our own persons.

It's been working great so far, we just need to figure out how to get results for the stuff we want to do without having to hyperfixate and "alter lock" into co-con with the host. Simple things can take days or weeks to finally get around to because we're always "high" on a mixture of dissociation and forgetfulness and hyperfixating.

The entire month of September is ruined because I learned that we're most likely meeting some old friends at the end of the month and it has thrown me completely off balance. Agoraphobia and social anxiety and not having much to show for 23 years of being on earth makes for enough stress to bulldoze my will to live ngl. They're sweet people so I'm sure it'll be fine but I just want all the people I used to know to forget I exist because I'm just not ready to be a person yet

Anyway. I'm hoping there's going to be an upswing in our mood because June - August was rough, plus the cursed month of September. I think we deserve some happiness and maybe Mera fronting as long as she doesn't do anything too crazy. I can't wait for October to finally come around. New month, new reset. Plus it's fall and spooky season! What's not to love?

[unhinged-recap]

Look at my cute little balloon. A year has passed since we started this blog whattt

[unhinged-recap]

Split three fragments and I just realized maybe letting them hyperfixate on their jobs/hobbies (writing) isn't the move because that's all we've been doing and basically they've just been fronting 24/7 for that reason. Not only do we not know how to maintain a good work/life balance, we apparently don't know how to share front. 😐 Helppp.

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Question for systems! Who is your most random headmate?

For us it has to be Novello, who is basically the personification of a jar of duo chocolate spread for reasons nobody knows.

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Being a system is all fun and games until you have to start searching for the password to an alter's blog when they come out of dormancy.

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Man, life has been good recently. Thanks to two new fragment headmates, we have been hyperfixated on writing and I couldn't be happier. Our thoughts are quieter and we're also more positive and gentle with ourselves. I don't know how or why things just go well sometimes, but I'm grateful. Thanks, guys! (You know who you are) <3

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I think our system can be described as a spectrum. Sometimes we're more fused/working as a team and other times we feel very seperated and individual. I don't know how this happens but when we're working together it feels like we're all holding hands and it's a very warm and cozy feeling

[unhinged-recap]

Hey, why does it feel like with each new headmate we get better at existing? What in the system evolution is this??

[tough-beans]

Something that never fails to fascinate me is how different my sister and I think. She's very logical and practical, while I act on feelings and vibes. Sometimes she'll show me a new way of doing something and I'll look at her with big eyes and say "will you believe me if I said I never thought of doing it like that before?" and she'll just roll her eyes at me, lmao.