May 10, 2021
We lost one of our cats today.
I don’t think it has hit to me yet fully, just partially.
My body and mental health has been on somekind of survival mode just little over a week with this. The only time I managed to dress and go outside, I went to buy easily digestable cat food and some microwaveable food to myself (because my ability to take care of myself just sunk), and I ended up vomiting less than two minutes after coming home. The one banana that I had eaten just before leaving when I realised I hadn’t eaten anything or took my meds. Plus some ice tea that I had bought and needed to drink something when waiting on the bus when trying to manage my breathing and some sort of unintentionally grounding myself.
It’s just empty and headache.

























