Smiling But We're Close To Tears.

I was smiling yesterday, I am smiling today and I will smile tomorrow. Simply because life is too short to cry for anything.

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Stay

You don’t have to ask me to stay. I’ll do it because that’s what i want. I will stay by your side as long as i can. I won’t let you feel alone and i don’t want you to feel that emptiness when no one’s there for you. I won’t let that happen. I won’t leave you just like what others did to you. I’ll stay by your side forever. You know why? Because i love you and even if you’ll push me away i will still choose to stay. I am really stubborn and even though i am hurting and even though the last option is to leave you, i will still find a reason to stay. So don’t you worry, do not be afraid to close your eyes and open it the next morning ‘cause you still have me by your side. There is still someone who will take care of you. Who will make you feel that you are important. Who will cherish you and make you feel love. Do not be afraid because i will stay with you until my very last breath.

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I will do everything for the one i truly love..

I can be your cheerleader, both on your triumphs and failures. I will cheer you up when you are upset. I can be a clown, doing silly faces, saying funny jokes, act funny in front of you just to make you smile and laugh. I can be your pillow that you can hug during at night whenever you feel alone and sad. I can be a star that will watch you during at night while you are peacefully sleeping and the sun that will light up your world during the day. I can be a handkerchief and will wipe away all your tears when you feel like crying. I am willing to lend you my ears when you want to talk nonstop and whenever you need someone to talk to. I can be your guardian angel to protect you from every harm that will try to hurt you. I am willing to hold your hand, pull you up when you’re feeling down. I can be the glass that will savour your lips. I am willing to do all these things just for you, just for the one i love. I don’t mind doing all these things, because that’s how much i love you.

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I hate it when we fight. I can’t stand mad at you. I can’t hate you. I hate the feeling when i have to stop myself from getting mad because i know it won’t bring any good to us. I am so scared that we might end up hurting each other emotionally. That’s why whenever we fight, i remained silent. I don’t like to say any word even if you’re asking me what’s wrong. Because if i will talk to you, i might say something that i might regret in the end. I just don’t like the feeling when we fight though ‘fights’ are also needed in a relationship. It makes us grow. I don’t care if we fight or argue a lot. The important is, at the end of the day, we will make up into each and still love each other. And we can prove that a fight won’t end the love we have for each other.

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I miss you. Everyday.

I miss you just like how the moon misses the stars at night when it’s raining. I miss you and all i wish is for you to be here with me and hold you close to me. You don’t know how much i miss you and say it in front of you, but i don’t have the guts because i can see you so far away from me. I have never miss anyone as much as i miss you and i am hoping that you miss me too. All i want to do right now is to hug you tight to make you feel how much i miss you. And i wish we could go back to to how things used to be. You don’t know how hard it is to miss you, i think of you every minute of everyday. You are always on my mind and i am thinking if i ever crossed your mind even just for a second. I wish i could say all these things to you. And missing you it’s not just all about the amount of time we haven’t seen or talked with each other. It’s about that every moment when i am doing something and wishing that you were right here beside me. I miss you everyday and that it makes me crazy. I miss you all day and you can’t imagine how stupid it makes me feel because i don’t even know if you miss me, too. I tried not to miss you but in the end i always do. I hope you’re here beside me to take away all these emptiness inside me because of missing you so much.

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I am not an easy person to love. You will be having a difficulty to understand me and my mood swings. I am like a broken mirror, you will can never fix me no matter how hard you try. Just like a mirror, once i get broken, i will never be the same anymore, and it will be hard for you to put back all the pieces. I am as sweet as a candy. I do have this personality of being a sweet to everyone that is important to me. I can deceive you using my sweet words and gestures. But that’s just normal to me, i like being sweet and i cared to other people, a lot. I am like a bomb. Threatening to explode in any minute when i am not in the mood. I have a bundle of emotions that i cannot control. That i’ll just sit in one corner and ignore you, because i am afraid that if you will try to touch or talk to me. My heart will explode all that i feel. Just like a bomb. I am like a broken guitar. Sometimes my mind is out of tune. I can’t distinguish what’s bothering me. And my mind is full of thoughts that i can’t control that leads me to compose a tune that’s not meant to be said. I am not easy to love. It will take you a lifetime on how to learn to love someone like me. I am hard headed and i don’t think there’s someone who can handle me. But there is something i want you to know. I am not perfect and i will never be. I have my flaws and insecurities. But one thing is for sure, I will love you with all my heart. And when i say i love you, i actually mean it. I will love every bit of you. I will love you on your weakest point and all your flaws. I will love you for who you are. I will love you and i will never leave your side. I know there will be days, that you want to give up on me or you will look at me like I am not the same person you fell in love with. Or you’ll get tired on me. But please, i want you to fight for me and don’t give up. I will fight my love for you and i will never ever give up. I promise, i will be your best imperfect girl in your life.

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I love the way you look at me, it captures my soul. I love the way you smile, it makes my heart melt. I love the way you laugh, it makes me sweep off my feet. I love they way you look at me, it takes my breath away. I love the way our hands entwine, it makes me feel i am holding the most valuable thing in life. I love the way you say my  name, it’s like a music to my ear. I love the sound of your voice because it’s the sweetest melody i could ever hear. I love your manly scents that sends shiver to my body. i love how you can make me smile and make my heart skip a beat by your presence. I love your presence itself because seeing you is the only thing i look forward everyday. You are the only person the i love. I love everything about you simply because i love you.

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i love you.. it’s not a promise, nor an assurance. It’s a feeling that I only dedicated to you. I love you and I wouldn’t mind telling this to you every day. 

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I love a guy who’s overprotective and selfish when it comes to me. A guy that lets anyone know that i am his. A guy who’s man enough to protect me and won’t leave me no matter what. A clingy guy that cares too much and can get jealous to some other guys that i talk to. I love how he shows that he really loves me and how he shows that he’s only mine. I like that they fear of losing me it shows how much he loved me.

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To the guy i’ve known for months now,

I can still remember how we first met and how we started talking. I have never expected that i will know someone like you that is just a stranger to me. It all started with a picture and the rest is a history. To be honest, i didn’t expect that we will be this close. There’s something about you that makes me want to know you more each day, that i am always surprise by the things that you shared. You’re a mystery that i am trying to solve everyday and wanting to complete the quest. You told me a lot of things about you that made me understand your views in life. And i am so grateful that you trusted me in knowing you. You have this strong impact on me that i can’t go a day without talking to you.

Things has changed as you allow me to know you more. And i just realized that you’re one of the most important people in my life. Who would have thought that there’s this soft heart inside a manly guy that everyone admires. I realized that there’s a meaning and story behind every words that you say that never fail to amuse me, never fail to leave me hanging with confusion.

We both know that we never expected that things will turn out this way. There are times that we don’t understand each other. We had arguments but at the end of the day, we make sure that we’re okay. Sometimes you’re pushing me away, but as what i always say i won’t leave you no matter how stubborn you are. No matter how complicated, and moody you are i will never give up on you. I don’t even know how to calm you down when your mad or how to make you feel better, but i do hope that through my words that surely came from the bottom of my hearts somehow can less what you feel.

When you’re sad, i just wanted to hug you so tight to stop all the pain and worries that you feel. There were times that i wish i was there to wipe away your tears and be your shoulder to cry on when you’re crying, and whisper that i am always here for you through your ups and downs. You always say you are okay when i know deep inside that you’re not but i always want you to know that you’re going to be fine one day, there’s no assurance when, but i’ll make sure i’ll help you way throughout out.

Thank you for allowing me to enter your life. Thank you for making me smile and laugh. I’ve told you this many times but i am going to say this once more, i love hearing your laugh it makes me smile.I will stay by your side as long as i can and as destiny permitted me to. Let me be your helping hand to find yourself and what’s missing in you. Let me fix you and make you as a whole person. Let me put a smile on your face, a true smile that can make my heart melt. I will give you a lift whenever you’re feeling down. I will be your star during your darkest moments in life. Allow me to do all these things to you, whether you like it or not. No matter how many times you’ll push me away. I won’t leave you. That’s my promise. Because there’s a part of me that you touched the most and that’s my heart.

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I love you. I can be your everything. I will always be by your side no matter happens. I can be your best friend that you can tell everything. I can be your sisters that will scold you if you came home late. I can be your shoulder to cry on if you really want to cry, you know it’s just normal for boys to cry, it’s not that you’re weak, but it shows how strong you are to let anyone see you cry. I can be your pillow that you can hug whenever you’re upset or you feel sad. I can be your favorite food just to make you feel better. I can be your comfort zone when you’re feeling down. I can be your home when you can’t seem to find yourself. I can be your radio that will sing all your favorite songs even though i don’t have a beautiful voice. I will always make you feel that you are loved and tell you that you’re worth it. I will protect you as long as i can especially to the people who will try to destroy and bring you down. I will keep on telling you things that you should know so that you’re always aware about it just like my love for you and that i am always here for you. I know you’re a man but you also need someone who will take care of you and who will always tell you to smile and i’ll help you to stood up whenever you feel that the world weighs on you shoulder. I’ll try to calm you down when you’re angry and when you’re not in the mood. I will joke around if you’re bored and i want to hear you laugh because of me. I’ll hug you tight during rainy evenings. I know you need someone like me, who will comfort you who will never leave you. There’s no assurance when or how long but i’ll try to be with you until i can. And i will never give you up, i won’t give up on you. And hope this will make your life worth living for.

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You have shown me what love is and what it feels like to be loved. Every time i look at you it never fails to make me smile. Every time i will kiss you, it gives me shivers. Every time i am hugging you it makes me feel that i am safe. When i am near you, i could feel it when our hearts get so close, they are beating as one. You are the beat of my heart, the smile across my face, the soul in my body, you are me because without you, i feel so empty. I love you today, I love you tomorrow and i love you ‘till my very last breath. You are the person i know i could turn to when i needed help, the person who never get tired on listening to my drams in life, you are the person i looked at when i needed to smile, and you are the person i went to when i needed a hug. I never want to lose you. I don’t want to be away from you because i feel like i left my soul at your side. You have shown me how to live, you taught me so many things and you have shown me how to be truly happy. I want you to know that you are always the reason behind my smile, You never fail to make me smile even just in your simple ways when others can’t. You taught me how to find myself. You have shown me so much more. I want you to know how much you meant to me. You are my whole world. The beat of my heart. I love you with all my heart. You never left my mind even before i go to bed you are the last thing i will think of and upon opening my eyes in the morning you are the first person that i will think of. I want to say something more than these words. I wanna tell you how much i love you. You are only mine and i am only yours. I love you more than words i say.

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Some things i love about you:

Your smile. Your smile captivates me ans can surely catch my attention. Your smile that made me fall in love with you right from the very moment i first saw your smile. It melts my heart upon seeing that curve line across your face. It’s like a wave inside my heart that can make my heart beats so fast. Your smile that can make my day complete and it gives me shivers. And i love it more especially i am the reason behind it.

Your laugh. The sound of your laugh that’s like a music to my ears. Just like a song that i want to repeat all over again and i will never get tired in listening to your laugh that gives life to my life. Your laugh that can make me go crazy. I want you to know that when you laugh, i automatically laugh, too because i can’t help it, i enjoy listening to you, to your laugh to be exact. Your happiness is my happiness as well and vice versa. I am the type of person who is willing to do everything just to make you laugh because seeing you happy is like a contentment to me.

Your drama. Even though you are the most dramatic person i’ve ever met, i still don’t care about that side of yours. No matter how sensitive you’re, moody, and emotional at times but that doesn’t make me love you less. I even love you more despite of all those things. I will stay here beside you, to wipe away all the tears, to be your shoulder to cry on, to cheer you up when you’re upset and to make you laugh when you’re sad. 

Your eyes. Your eyes that twinkles every time i see you. It’s like they have the powers to hypnotize me and it can make me stare at you for more than a minute. Your eyes that smile on its own even without seeing you lips smile. I got addicted staring at your eyes that always shines like a star that i won’t mind staring at you all the time. And what i love the most about your eyes is the spark produced whenever our eyes meet. 

I love everything about you. Because you are you and everyday i am falling in love with you more and i don’t mind falling in love with you for the rest of my life.

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I won’t give up on us. No matter how the situation may be. No matter how hard it is. They say when you love someone, you have to face all the pain and trials that you might encounter. When it comes to love, you can’t think if this, or these, or that is good for you or won’t hurt you. You know why? because of love, because you love that person and you’re willing to do everything and won’t never give up. Even if it will hurt a million times, i still choose to love you and won’t ever give up. And i will never give up on someone i know might regret in the end. I don’t want to lose someone i know might hurt me when someone else is holding them. I will never give up to someone i can’t go a day without him by my side. As long as i can, as long as i can still fight for it, i will keep on holding on. I will keep my faith. I am hoping that someday, it will be worth it. And when i feel like giving up, i will think of the reason why i held on you for so long. I won’t give up on you like everyone else did. Because you are worth it, you are worth fighting for.

Don’t ever give up just because you’re hurt and you think you can’t hold it any longer. No matter what it is, just don’t give up on that person. Because you’ll never know, that person needs you more than you need him..

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I am not pretty. I am not like the other girls who can catch your attention just by passing by in front of you. I don’t have that beautiful face that can capture your eyes. I don’t have an attractive look. I’m not even sexy and don’t wear sexy clothes that reveals almost everything. I am not a head turner. I am just an ordinary girl. I have nothing to offer physically. And that’s how i understand why you don’t like me. Cause you like pretty girls.

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There are times that we fight. There are times that we argue about little things. But that doesn’t make me love you less. It helps us grow and understand certain things. Even though we fight that doesn’t mean that we’re immature about things like this. It just means that we’re old enough to handle things and how we can resolve it. Fight helps me realize that there are things that we don’t have in common or we don’t have the same opinion and it helps us test our ability to solve it together. We should talk about the things that we like or dislike. Fight is not that bad for us, it’s just one way of proving that we’re capable of handling a relationship like this. It helps us realize that it’s not easy to commit in a relationship.

There are times that i might shout at you. There are times that i might not talk to you because i am not in the mood. There are times that i just want to argue with you with nonsense things. That’s a girl thing and i hope you’ll understand me about that kind of attitude that i have the way i understand you when you’re moody or being short-tempered at times.Please do understand that i get jealous easily especially to the girls that you’re talking to. To your sweetness with your friends. And i know, i wouldn’t give you reasons to get jealous, too. Our relationship is not perfect, we’re not perfect, but as a couple and as one, we’ll try our best to make it work. I just want you and nothing else. Even though we fight, that doesn’t mean i don’t love you anymore. It means i love you enough to fight for this relationship. 

I love you and all your flaws. And even if you’re the most complicated person i’ve ever met, i still love you. You are one of a kind, and you don’t know how special you are and i am glad that you let me enter your world and made me feel how it feels to be loved by you. You may say that you’re imperfect and full of wrong but for me you are so perfect. You are perfectly fit for me, only to me. Cause you are only mine.