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ZION AMADEUS WILLIAMS

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“  crying is very punk,  trust me,  i do it all the time   &   i am a punk.  ” “  do i like him or is he just tall?  ” “  not to be dramatic but if i don’t get my life together i will die.  ” “  am i dramatic?  yes.  is it justified?  also yes.  ” “  everything that you feel is just a chemical reaction inside your head.  wow.  ” “  there’s a special place in hell reserved just for me.  it’s called the throne.  ” “  let’s get high!!   …   grades.  ” “  i think my gps secretly gets mad at me when i deliberately disobey its directions.  ” “  it’s a bird!  it’s a plane!  it’s   …   me, trying to outrun my feelings.  there i go.  ” “  i am here to say that i am a bisexual who loves mangoes.  ” “  why has no one fallen in love with me yet?  i’m so bored.  ” “  honestly,  i don’t even play an active role in my life.  shit just happens   &   i’m like  ‘  oh,  is this what we’re doing now?  okay.  ’  ” “  life hack  :  you don’t have to be a wolf to yell sad noises at the moon.  ” “  what the fuck do mirrors do when nobody is around?  ” “  it may look like i’m having deep thoughts,  but really,  i’m just thinking about what to eat next.  ” “  do i deserve back pain at this age?  ” “  i’m a simple person;  anything happens,  i cry.  ” “  i’ve mastered the skill of feeling guilty for asking for anything.  ” “  yes,  the rumors are true.  i’m a lovey-dovey dumbass.  ” “  i try not to sound like an asshole,  but it’s really hard because i am an asshole.  ” “  someone has to date me eventually,  right?  ” “  what circle of dante’s inferno did you crawl out of?  ” “  your inability to learn complicated handshakes is tearing this friendship apart.  ” “  there’s no way that  EVERYBODY  was kung-fu fighting.  ” “  saying my name is so intimate,  why would you do that to me?  ” “  don’t ask me about my sexuality.  you’re not gonna get a straight answer.  ” “  i would follow you to the ends of the earth with only mild complaining.  ” “  the first step to any murder is to have fun   &   be yourself.  ” “  i think i am subconsciously trying to ruin my own life.  ” “  i may seem like an angry person on the surface,  but deep down inside, i am actually angrier.  ” “  i push everyone away,  but in a way,  i am doing them a favor.  ” “  what do you mean a thesaurus isn’t a dinosaur?  ” “  i’m not even a hot mess.  i’m more like a lukewarm mess.  ” “  i’m not interested in being polite or heterosexual.  ” “  can someone please explain to me how i’m supposed to sleep for eight hours straight when i’m not even straight?  ” “  you’re not allowed to be busy,  you’re my only friend.  ” “  becoming older than ten years old was the biggest mistake of my life.  ” “  is it cold in here,  or is that just my heart?  ” “  if i sigh loudly enough,  will all my problems go away?  ” “  hey,  sorry i’m late.  i didn’t want to come.  ”

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clairexmacken​:

location: times square

who: @upinflqmes​

“shit, z, i need you to do me a huge favor please.” claire reassured the older male as she tried to keep up with him, walking slightly faster to avoid a certain someone. “see that guy over there? that’s my ex boyfriend and he won’t leave me the fuck alone, something about not wanting me to hold any grudges over the holidays?” she reassured him with a small shrug. “anyway, do you think you could like pretend to be my boyfriend or something so he’d leave me alone? i promise i’d owe you big time!”

Zion grew up with four sisters, so this almost protective idealogy came naturally to him. Claire is not like a sister to him, but she is certainly someone he cares for and wants to protect. So when she drags him along,  asking him to pretend to be her boyfriend.  Well, how could he refuse? If not for purely selfish reasons, as well. Claire was one of his best friends and also someone he was clearly attracted to.  Yeah, he could pretend to be her boyfriend, easily. “Just promise to get dinner with me after this and we’re all good,” he reassures her, moving to wrap his arm around her shoulders, pulling her in close. 

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closed starter for @mayahirsch​

“  Does it mean anything to you?  ”

The words hit him like a ton of bricks.  ‘Does it mean anything to you? ‘ repeats in his head again, and then again, before they finally are clear. Before he finally comprehends. His relationship with Maya is complicated, to say the least.  He still remembers the day she broke up with him pretty vividly. He had always been one to put his whole heart into something, especially relationships. Especially with her.  They had fallen into this weird, whatever it was.  Zion is still confused by it. He thinks there’s a part of him that should hate her.  Or, at least be angry with her. But he can’t find it in him.

Until he can. Because he thinks she must know, that if he’s still answering her call, that it means something. 

“I wish I could say no, you have no idea. But unfortuanetly, it means too much.”

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** abba lyrical starters.

“  I don’t wanna talk about things we’ve gone through.  ”

“  Though it’s hurting me, now it’s history.  ”

“  I was in your arms thinking I belonged there.  ”

“  I was a fool playing by the rules.  ”

“  But tell me does she kiss like I used to kiss you?  ”

“  I apologize if it makes you feel bad seeing me so tense.  ”

“  Now is all we get nothing promised, no regrets.  ”

“  I’m really glad you came.  ”

“  You know the rules, you know the game.  ”

“  I remember long ago another starry night like this in the firelight.  ”

“  We were young and full of life and none of us prepared to die.  ”

“  There was something in the air that night.  ”

“  The stars were bright, they were shining there for you and me.  ”

“  If I had to do the same again I would.  ”

“  I wasn’t jealous before we met.  ”

“  I’m possessive, it isn’t nice.  ”

“  All I’ve learned has overturned.  ”

“  I beg of you don’t go wasting your emotion.  ”

“  I still don’t know what you’ve done with me.  ”

“  I feel a kind of fear when I don’t have you near.  ”

“  Don’t go sharing your devotion.  ”

“  The night is young and the music’s high.  ”

“  Here is where the story ends this is goodbye.  ”

“  There is nothing we can do.  ”

“  We just have to face it this time we’re through.  ”

“  Memories, good days, bad days they’ll be with me always.  ”

“  What happened to those wonderful adventures?  ”

“  It hurts to remember all the good times.  ”

“  All I do is eat and sleep and sing.  ”

“  Still I’m thinking about you only.  ”

“  There are moments when I think I’m going crazy.  ”

“  The sight of you will prove to me I’m still alive.  ”

“  I was defeated, you won the war.  ”

“  Promised to love you for ever more.  ”

“  I made up my mind, it must come to an end.  ”

“  How can I resist you.  ”

“  I’ve been broken-hearted, blue since the day we parted.  ”

“  Where are those happy days, they seem so hard to find.  ”

“  I try to reach for you but you have closed your mind.  ”

“  Whatever happened to our love?  ”

“  The love you gave me, nothing else can save me.  ”

“  You made me feel alive but something died, I fear.  ” 

“  I’ve heard about him before.  ”

“  I can still recall our last summer, I still see it all.  ”

“  I was so happy we had met.  ”

“  We took a chance like we were dancing our last dance.  ”

“  There’s a lot you can teach me.  ”

“  Does it mean anything to you?  ” 

“  Can you feel it the way I do?  ”

“  You make me talk and you make me feel.  ”

“  If I trust in you, would you let me down?  ”

“  Would you laugh at me, if I said I care for you?  ”

“  Could you feel the same way too?  ”

“  I can read in your face that your feelings are driving you wild.  ”

“  Better slow down, that’s no way to go.  ”

“  I know what you mean when you give me a flash of that smile.  ”

“  I’ve never felt this strong.  ”

“  I am invincible, how could this go wrong?  ”

“  I see a road ahead I never thought I would dare to tread.  ”

“  You will be my love and my life.  ”

“  Now there’s nothing at all that can keep us apart.  ”

“  When you sleep by my side I feel safe and I know I belong.  ”

“  Losing you is a nightmare fate and to me.  ”

“  You make me think that you will change my life forever.  ”

“  I lay my life before you.  ”

“  I only want you more and more

“  You’ll see how much I care when you meet me.  ”

“  I’m nothing special, in fact I’m a bit of a bore.  ”

“  Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk.  ”

“  If you change your mind I’m the first in line.  ”

“  If you need me, let me know.  ”

“  If you’ve got no place to go when you’re feeling down.  ”

“  Come on, give me a break, will you?  ”

“  My love is strong enough to last when things are rough.  ” 

“  I can’t get you off my mind.  ”

“  Take it easy with me please.  ”

“  Touch me gently like a summer evening breeze.  ”

“  Oh please don’t let me down.  ”

“  There’s a shimmer in your eyes like the feeling of a thousand butterflies.  ”

“  One of us is lying.  ”

“  Now I’m changed and I want you to know.  ”

“  I should not have let you go.  ”

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mayahirsch​:

At her core, Maya has always knew that she wasn’t good. Perhaps she lived a life drenched in a kind of denial that often worked for her in bursts. Her denial was just real enough that she could go about her days without a hitch. But then this happens, the core of her rottenness being brought to the surface from one fatal act. And bringing Zion into the mix was only half of that, it seems. She feels terrible. Riddled with guilt. Yet, she does not persist. She remains as she is, standing before him asking about breakfast as if she didn’t pound another nail into her almost-closed coffin. Zion was at the wake.

That’s new. Maya chuckles but only to save face. He was so handsome, so sweet, and Maya’s guilt only grows under layers of saving face. Her head cants to the side, her neck and ears warming under the sudden pressure she was under. “Coffee’s good.” She muses with only the slightest bit of hesitance. She turns after speaking, sifting through her dresser drawers for something appropriate. Or anything other than her bare tits and a pair of underwear she scooped up from the bathroom hamper. “Or you can just tell me to fuck off, too. I wouldn’t mind, you know. I get it.” In some morbid way, Maya would prefer it. But that was a confession best kept under lock and key. 

When he stops and thinks, he realizes just how messed up this all is.  Maya had essentially broken his heart, and here he was, crawling right back. It was kind of pathetic of him, truthfully.  He knows that the two of them have this weird thing, this unexplained something, that keeps bringing them back, and he sometimes hates himself  that he can’t break free of it. But then sometimes, he looks at her, or hears the sound of her laugh and he’s also glad he’s still welcomed into her atmosphere.  She has him wrapped up, is the only way to explain it. He’s not sure he wants to be unwrapped.

“I don’t need to stay for coffee,” he suddenly says, not that he doesn’t want to, because he does, but he doesn’t want her to feel obligated, like she owes him.  He makes the move to get dressed as well, swinging legs over the side of the bed, reaching for discarded pants, a shirt. “I wouldn’t tell you to fuck off,” he tells her but she knows that, she knows that’s not who he is, not with her at least. He gets dressed, and he stands and he rubs the back of his neck as if they hadn’t been here before, as if they hadn’t had a whole relationship at one point. “But I can leave, Maya, if you want me to.”

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aniyahwilliams​:

location. 68 jay street bar feat. @upinflqmes

As any high maintenance sibling would have done, Aniyah made Zion meet her in her neighborhood at a bar she frequented on her off nights. It was the middle of the day so there weren’t many around aside from the regulars or at least, who she assumed the regulars were. Who else would be at a bar in the middle of the day? 

The bartender arrived, placing the young woman’s champagne in front of her at the table, to which she gave a small smile in return. After taking a sip, her eyes moved to the doorway where she saw movement - her brother making his way in. She stood, a much larger smile gracing her lips, and extended her arms for a hug. 

“Took you long enough!”

Zion’s time off was few and far between, twelve hour days could take up most of your time, afterall. So, when Aniyah had called and asked to meet, he was surprised when it was actually on one of his off days. Time worked in mysterious ways, or whatever. So she asks him to travel to her neighborhood, which wouldn’t be a problem, except the subways are more packed than usual it seemed, and taking a cab seemed too bougie, even for him.  But he made the trek anyway. Anything for his sister, afterall.

It’s not his nromal place, mostly because his normal place is so close to the firehouse, but from the outside it looks fine. It’s what’s on the inside that counts, he’s learned, both with people and with bars. He’ll judge them on the atmosphere, and more importantly, the quality of the drinks. When he walks in, he doesn’t have to look for her, because she finds him first, she jumps up and hugs him, which he returns with laughter in his voice.

“You try making it across the city on time and then get back to me,”  he replies as he pulls back, taking a look at her “you look good. you taking care of yourself?”

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amescooley​:

location: any bar or restaurant cuz i’m #basic open: anyone! @enycstarters​

It didn’t happen as often as one might think, but people did stop Melly from time to time on the street if they recognized her due in part to her family being what you’d call ‘Hollywood Royalty’. Which, in itself still to this day took the woman by surprise whenever it happened. As someone who worked mainly behind the scenes, aside from a few roles here and there, or some premiers and interviews where she did show her face at, she stayed behind the camera not in front of it. 

Right now though? This was another scenario all together. Some persistent fellow had decided to make Melly their person of interest for the evening, and as such couldn’t take several no’s for an answer. She’d been walking down the street, and the blonde had decided to duck into the first establishment she came across. Sidling up to the busy bar to sandwich herself onto the last available seat, she turned to one of the patrons with a warm and friendly smile. “There’s a short man a few yards behind me-reddish hair, glasses, looks like he could have his own episode of Criminal Minds where he’s the suspect?-he won’t leave me alone so the next few rounds are on me if you pretend like we know each other to some capacity. Deal?”

When you work twelve hour days, the logical thing would be to go home and sleep.  But Zion wasn’t always logical, and he sure as hell wasn’t going to waste the beginning of his weekend sleeping. Not when the city had so much to offer, and also maybe not when being at home means being alone with his thoughts, which he’s not prepared to deal with right now. He hates to admit that he’s in this weird place of unknown, that everything he had come searching for in this city wasn’t as easy as he thought it was going to be. And don’t even get him started on his love life.  

So maybe he finds himself at a bar, two beers in.  There’s a game on television that he’s only half paying attention to.  It’s distracting enough, something to keep his mind off of everything else surrounding him.  He’s about to order another drink, when someone sidles up next to him, and starts talking. It hits him what exactly is happening not soon after, it only takes a moment to register. “No need to buy the rounds, we’re best friends, that’s what we’re here for,” he says casually, talking to her as if he’s known her forever, because that’s kind of the point, right. “I’m Zion, by the way. Let me buy you a drink?

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mayahirsch​:

starter for: @upinflqmes​. location: maya’s apartment.

She doesn’t mean to be this way. Rotten. Sometimes it just happens, a knee-jerk reaction to her growing loneliness. By some miracle, Maya often nursed her loneliness in better ways. She learned to appreciate it, to see solitude as a way to simply exist without expectations. But it soon becomes quicksand and the only way to stop herself from drowning was to reach out, to do something reckless. This time, it was meeting up with Zion, the man who’s heart she shattered into a million little pieces. She can’t decipher much of what happened considering she drank more than she usually would. It wasn’t right, she knew that, and a part of her knew she was acting out as a result of her parents’ cruelty. The cruelty she couldn’t escape when she was stone cold sober. 

The air was cold as she reaches for the bed sheet lying on the ground, wrapping it around her body. She waddles into the bathroom, feeling gross at the sight of her tired expression. One hand reaches up to rub over her face before turning on the faucet, running her hands under the water before splashing it over her entire face. When she heads back into her bedroom, Zion is squirming and Maya assumes he’s awake too. It still had to be pretty early considering the chill in the air. 8AM at best. “Are, um, are you hungry?” The brunette asks, her voice hoarse, “I can make you whatever you want. I actually went shopping this week.”

Old habits die hard. Maya is an old habit, but also so much more than that. More than tongue can tell.  He likes to think of himself as reliable and steady.  That’s probably how he ended back up here, that and this certain pull that Maya had over him, even after all this time. He didn’t particularly want to delve too far into that, it would bring up too much. Maya had broken his heart, something he isn’t too quick to admit. And yet, when she called, even drunk, he showed up.

He thinks he should leave, but he doesn’t know how this works.  Maya has gotten up, gone into the bathroom and he’s not sure what he’s supposed to do. He moves so he’s staring up at the ceiling, and then scrubs both of his hands over his face. Was this a mistake? It may very well be.  He doesn’t hear her come back, not until she finally speaks and he feels terribly awkward. “That’s new,” he says with a rough laugh in reference to her going shopping. He’s buying himself some time, before he answers “as generous as that offer is though, we could do coffee?” he raises an eyebrow, hoping that that answer is sufficient, that it doesn’t make things any weirder than they already are.

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Do you miss your sister? What's your relationship with her like?

"I miss all of my sisters right now, but I'm assuming this specific ask is about @biancawilliams, and yeah, of course, I do. She and I are close, and not seeing her is weird to me.

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What's the first thing you do in the morning after waking up?

"Besides the basics, like brush my teeth and stuff? I have a protein shake and go for a run if I have the time."

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Who would you want by your side during a fight?

"@leonsout probably, and I saw @vale-x at the halloween party and he seems good under pressure."

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Ask me anything

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rylanpratt​:

Rylan just blinked at him a couple of times as he talked to her about what he’d brought her, not wanting to eat anything at all. Her stomach felt like it was constantly churning and full of bile, she wasn’t even sure she’d be able to keep the food down at all. Reaching out from under the cover towards him she grabs his arm to give it a small squeeze of thanks, even if she wasn’t going to touch what he’d brought it didn’t mean she wasn’t grateful, she just wasn’t functioning properly right now. Anyone could see that from the outside so Zion certainly would be able to, he knew her well enough by this point.

Even if she didn’t want to spend time with anyone she was grateful that he’d come over to check on her, her overwhelming loneliness pricked with the pin of someone caring enough to worry. A glimmer of positivity in an otherwise constant onslaught of negativity the voice in her head was feeding to her in those moments of silence. “He…” She was about to tell him how Kal had kissed someone else but the words were so hard to form because if she said it out loud that would make it all the more real. Shaking her head she swallowed, feeling her eyes well up with hot tears of shame and embarrassment. She wasn’t worth his love which must be why he’d kissed Greer and that in itself was mortifying. Pressing her lips together she shook her head, looking at him with wide sad eyes, before turning away as a tear rolled down her cheek. 

Rylan was practically his little sister, and so seeing her in this much pain hurt him. Seeing her in this much pain and not being able to fix it for her was even worse. When she reaches out from underneath her blankets to squeeze his arm, he moves to put his hand over hers and to squeeze back, as a basic reassurance that he’s there for her when she’s ready, whenever that may be.

He. He who? Her boyfriend, he guessed. What was his name again? Kyle? No. No, it was Kal. “What did he do?” a wave of older brother protectiveness washes over him suddenly. Something bad, if this is the outcome. His eyes scan over her for a moment, trying to put it together, what could he have done to have her this upset? She’s not talking, which doesn’t help the situation, instead, she turns away from him. “Ry, come on, “ he begins, shaking his head and scooting himself further onto the bed, hoping to catch her attention “Whatever it is, you can tell me. It’s me, you can tell me anything, you know that. I’m on your side, no matter what.”

[michellekpoems]

I aim to be lionhearted, but my hands still shake and my voice isn’t quite loud enough.

Michelle K., Earning Your Roar (via allexsheathes)

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rylanpratt​:

Rylan had no idea what time it was, hell she had no idea what day it even was at this point, because with the drapes closed in her bedroom it was perpetually dark. The only time she had extracted herself from under her comforter since getting back from the halloween party was when she absolutely had to go to the toilet, but even that wasn’t happening all that often since she wasn’t really eating or drinking anything at all. She had withdrawn into herself entirely, pulling back from the world as she wallowed in her own pain, not replying to anyone who was texting or calling her. She didn’t want to talk, explain, it was too hard.

Duvet wrapped around her tightly she heard a voice coming from actually inside her apartment, there were only a few people who knew where the spare key was, and she sent up a silent prayer it wasn’t Kal who’d let themselves in. Rylan had no energy to fight with him right now but there was still so much rage inside her that it wouldn’t be optional if they came face to face. She knew he’d been texting her, calling her, but every single one had gone ignored and unanswered. Peering out from the edge of the cover she met Zion’s eyes vacantly, her ace pale and sunken. “I’m living the dream.” She cooked out in a small voice, the first time she’d spoken in days.

When he finally finds her, underneath her duvet and looking like hell, Zion sighs. “hey kid,” he greets, stepping fully into the room and putting both cups of coffee and the pastry on the bedside table. She looks pretty terrible, and he imagines, with whatever is plaguing her, she’s feeling ever worse. “I brought you something to eat, how about you sit up and eat? Maybe drink some of the coffee? It’s your favorite.” he adds, finally dropping himself onto the other side of the bed.

He’s not sure what is bothering her. He knows she has times like this, where everything isn’t sunshine and rainbows, but this seems just a little bit more. “And while we eat our food maybe you could tell me what the hell is going on? You had me scared, not picking up for me.” It was true, Zion saw Rylan as just another sister, the fifth of the Williams girls, he would joke, and he had sworn long ago to take care of his family, for better or for worse.