𝕾𝖊𝖓𝖘𝖎𝖙𝖎𝖛𝖊 𝖈𝖑𝖔𝖚𝖉 @upsethoughts-blog1 - Tumblr Blog

It will be just another teen suicide..

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#sad #depressed #black #deep #dark #life #feelings #cry #mad #suicide #suicidal #crying #all night #night #awful #feels #felt #teen #teenager #miserable #tears #teardrops #end

It’s 2am.I’m slowly opening my door.I’m sneakin’ into the bathroom to wash my teeth cause’ I don’t wanna see my mom cause i hate her now so much about all the things she did. Yesterday she maked me so angry i punched the fucking door’s window,and it broken.. Everybody hates us in this flat. My fist was fully covered in blood and it left a big mark.So I get in the bathroom,slowly closed the door but it was so fucking rusty,that it maked so much noise.I used my phone’s LED to saw something,cause I think mom would saw it.Once I finished brushing my teeth,tried to open the door silently, but it’s again, making so much noise.As i took a step forward through the door, I heard: Good night... And i recognized that, she wasn,t drunk exceptionally.. Without a word I stepped into my room,closed the door,turned off my PC,and started crying loudly... I hate her but at the same time i love her..

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My girl asks why I’m not sleeping.I can’t tell her the truth..I said I can’t sleep.. My life is a collapse.

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Yeah I’m here again.. Once I start to fall asleep,mum throws something to the wall,or try to karaoke down the music from the TV so fucking loudly.. Or she just randomly laughs in herself.. She screams: This is how to die at 42 years.I think we gonna get dislosged... I don’t know what to do.

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Sorry about that. U knew my family.U knew my mum’s problem about alcohol.U knew I’m her son.U sad I’m not like my family... I’m worse. Never wanted to hurt your feelings.. It’s half past 3 in the morning.Mommy talking trash about me loudly.I have my earpods plugged in.I’m listening to Lil Peep and dreaming awake how I’m gonna end my life one day..

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#somebody help #i don’t want this anymore #end my suffering please #i’m not kidding #all i want is leave

Looking cool,acting nice,cry a lot it burns my eyes

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