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[upstatestuck]

Mind your business and stay in your lane.

Even if you've got the solution, they'll call you insane.

Drop the facade and stay in your lane.

Some lessons are learned through loss and pain.

[upstatestuck]

Dear my almost forever,

you were the first one I chose.

The rest, I fell into—

pulled along by timing,

by fear,

by circumstance wearing a disguise.

You were different.

You were the one I picked with open eyes.

The one I stayed for.

The one I tried for.

The one I did the hard things for.

Just not enough of them.

There were reasons.

There were explanations.

There were weights I didn’t know how to put down.

But none of them are excuses.

I know that now.

You weren’t my accident.

You were my decision.

And losing you

is the cost

of not finishing the work I started.

[upstatestuck]

Remember to question and grill someone after they’ve been traumatized. That’ll definitely make them feel safe and okay after….

[upstatestuck]

Closure isn’t possible.

[senecasfollower]

"We suffer more often in imagination than in reality." - Seneca the Younger

[vexheart]

[yoogrimo]

‼️🎯

[remanence-of-love]

[upstatestuck]

[upstatestuck]

#grieve #foreverended #anxiousavoidantattachment

[upstatestuck]

#nothing lasts forever. #dead and #breathing

[upstatestuck]

You told me what to do but I couldn’t listen. I destroyed what little safety I had and in the process lost myself even more than I already had. The pain of this loss isn’t ever going away and again I’ve gone down paths I said I never would again. You showed me what love could be and the memories are all I have now. I wish I’d written you letters and explained how much it all meant to me but I know it’s pointless. Be the light in the darkness.

[quote-bomber]

[upstatestuck]

You’ve become more trouble than you’re worth. I thought I was irreplaceable….

[upstatestuck]

You can’t fix anyone, you can only make them as uncomfortable as possible to force them to change themselves. So thanks for not stopping the downward spiral I was on.

[upstatestuck]

If you don’t have you, nobody can have you. #hindsight

[stay-close]

“Be careful who you make memories with. Those things can last a lifetime.”

— Ugo Eze

[upstatestuck]

I feel like reaching out, but I won’t.

Because I already know how that story ends.

It ends with me hurting again, doubting myself again, feeling small again.

Right now, my brain is lying to me. It’s saying:

“Just one more message won’t hurt.”

“Maybe this time will be different.”

“I can’t take this pain.”

But the truth is:

I’ve already lived that loop. Over and over.

I know it doesn’t end in peace.

I know it doesn’t bring healing.

This feeling — this urge — is a wound reopening, not a sign to go back.

I’m detoxing from a connection that made me sick, made me small, made me feel unworthy.

The pain I feel now?

It’s the price of freedom, not failure.

It’s the ache of growth, not weakness.

I don’t need her to feel whole.

I don’t need her to survive.

I am building something better.

I’m reclaiming my life, my voice, my future.

Let this wave pass.

I’ve made it through worse.

And I won’t abandon myself again — not for anyone.