emma

21| MDNI ❌

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theoretically I have always assumed I was into being choked but had no experience w it.

So basically my theory was correct. 😛

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UPDATES:

oh my gosh so much has happened since my last post. Too much to explain actually. So the guy that I mentioned in my last post yeah so something interesting went down and long story short he got a girl and his girl blocked me. For no reason btw.

Uhh the girl that I had a crush on that’s pretty much nonexistent now too. Nothing happened and I pretty much got over it.

And finally the big update is I fell in love with someone. And he happens to be a year younger than me which is crazy considering yall know this whole account was about me going crazy for older men. But uh yeah I could talk about him forever but I’ll spare the details.

We’re not officially together but it’s definitely happening very soon. Maybe I’ll do a few story times or share some moments. Idk yet.

Honestly idk what to do about this account. Im thinking ill just keep ranting to the void. But definitely no more of what I was posting/talking about.

Anyways I’m really happy these days. 🩷

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Guys I have a big fat crush on this guy I recently matched with. I find him so attractive and oh my gosh I need him to ask me on a date asap.

We’ve texted a few times but I’m unsure if he’s into me. Like yes we matched but idk he’s giving mixed signals kinda. Or maybe I’m overthinking it.

Anyways I wanna meet him so bad that I’m like literally contemplating asking him out myself. But ugh lowkey I have a thing that like a man should take the initiative yk so I’m like hmm well if he isn’t asking me then he’s probably not actually interested.

I’ll keep yall updated if I fold 😭

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Seeing her

I honestly thought I was over my crush on my friend. But I hung out w her yesterday after like two months and yeah… all the feelings came back. This time it was different though. We’re not really close since again we met through a mutual friend (who was also there yesterday) but we got closer yesterday.

We hung out pretty much the whole day and it was just the best. I got to know more about her story and she even told me a little secret of hers. (She’s so cute) As I mentioned before, I am more shy and introverted until I really get to know someone but with her everything feels natural. I can be my sarcastic self and she finds it funny. She actually told me I’m funny 😛.

Im glad she likes my humor and joins in.

Anyways long story short, it was a fun day w her. I honestly think she talked to me more than she talked with our mutual friend yesterday 😭 which again is new because we don’t hangout a lot and we don’t know each other much. It did help that she was a little drunk lol. She kept saying the funniest things and asking me the craziest questions. I tried answering them all because she was so cute when she asked.

I hope I see her again soon 💞

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guess they didn’t like me serving cxnt

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How much sorrow can I take

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so real

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“I wanna lick you through your shorts”

SIR YOU CANNOT SAY THAT TO ME 🫠

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associating songs with people is fun until they end up ruining that song forever and now you can’t listen without thinking about them

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Alone again, naturally.

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I like going out and I love people watching but then I get sad because I feel so alone.

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Real ones know I’ve been saying kindness turns me on AND SO THE NEW SONG BY SABRINA MAKES ME FEEL SEEN.

Yes I get wet by a man being a responsible guy

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I saw one of my old professors today and I wanted to cry just seeing him. We talked about the time I lowkey broke down in front of him because of an exam grade which was ofc entirely my own fault for not trying my best. And he congratulated me and reminded me that I’ve persevered regardless and he was proud of me.

Ughhh I missed him. And his praises make me happy still.

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a sucker for brown eyes 🫠

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long and tiring day but Superman got me through it 🙏🙏

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it’s the dark hair, the glasses, the dimples omggg…

kiss me now.

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I think the fact that my eyes water when I see an attractive man truly says it all about me 😭