Where do I even start? This might be long, idk. I think I’m gonna quit tumblr. Well, not quit quit, but stop posting, at least for a long time. Like a very long break. Now I know you would think, “You’ve only been here since April, this is way too soon.” Well that’s what I thought too.
I’ll be so honest, I never really wanted to be a creator on tumblr. I only did it bc they stopped letting you browse if you weren’t signed in. I never planned to post, but I did. Over time, it stopped being abt me having fun, and I started to focus with getting more likes, which I know is stupid. If something didn’t get higher than 5 notes in 3 milliseconds, I’d delete the post. Now, obviously that’s not good right? It just didn’t feel fun anymore, and I ruined it for myself, which really sucks.
I also don’t have the closest connection with Nevermore anymore. I dunno what happened. It use to be the center of my life. I would only think about, and that was fun, obviously. But the more I posted on tumblr, idk why, but I feel like I started not caring for it as much. I went from snuggling up in my couch everyday at 7:55 so I made sure I wouldn’t miss it, to, “oh, it updated? I forgot about that.” It just doesn’t give me that happiness anymore. Before tumblr, I would just write stuff down in my notes app, and look back on it later and laugh. But after tumblr, I started getting a little dryer, my poor notes are as dry as the desert. I started watering myself down, because I was worried, “oh what if they think I’m to childish, etc.” So, the fun was kinda sucked out that way.
I also think I need some away time from the app. I was growing a bit of a not so healthy addiction. It was to the point where I started thinking I was closer to my mutuals, then I was to a friend I’ve been with since 3rd grade (I love my mutuals, but that’s crazy, don’t you think?).
I definitely will not stop posting forever, but I will definitely take longgggg break. You know me, I say I’ll go on a break, then only leave for 1 day. If anything huge happens, I will DEFINITELY wake up from my slumber to talk abt it. I’ll just keep stuff in my notes app I guess.
That’s really it. I hope you guys are having a fun time in your life. I’ll see you soon. Love ya!
