𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘦𝘯𝘥. @utatouri - Tumblr Blog

❛ i once was lost, but now i’m found. ❜ | @hirememory

#hirememory #☆ ○ ɪ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀɴʏᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ / ᴀᴇs.#☆ ○ ᴡʜʏ'ᴅ ʏᴏᴜ sᴀᴠᴇ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴍᴇ ? / ᴡᴏʀɪᴄᴋ.#☆ ○ ᴀ ᴅᴀᴍᴀɢᴇᴅ sᴏᴜʟ ᴄᴀɴ sʜɪɴᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ɢᴏʟᴅ / ᴠɪs.#this is more likeness than anything #since i don't have a proper faceclaim for alex #BUT !!!#anyways : ))#also the fact that they are both sex workers #tho alex is a former one #is SO important to me #the other dynamic that i adore out of this series #besides the three of them all together #waiting for them to reunite : ))#too much pain

littlebunnynurse‌:

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#☆ ○ ᴅᴀʀʟɪɴ’ sᴛᴀɴᴅ ʙʏ ᴍᴇ / ᴘ.#!!!#YES

❛ Just promise me you’ll stay here. ❜

concerned sentence prompts / accepting

she wonders how nina does this, how she’s not FLINCHED by the skin that’s trying to remain stitched, the stray bullets, & the sight of blood. alex RECOGNIZES the strength that nina has, the hands that want to reach out & heal what she touches. most of all she wonders how she REMAINS a cool refreshing geyser when their friends are on the LINE. then again she’s known both worick & nic longer than her. the only thing the both of them can do is be there for them, waiting in a SILENT purgatory for when they’ll wake up. a weak smile remains a FIXTURE on her lips while she rests her head against the soft mattress. INKY hair spills like an ink bottle being knocked down, dangling on the edge of the bed. it was a long chess game of waiting for nic to wake up.

despite everything, alex doesn’t get much sleep. there is no SPRINKLING of sleep dust on her lids. it’s only when EXHAUSTION is begging for her to close her eyes that she surrenders. she knows they’ll be in for a LONG night. she’s touched that the young girl is still looking out for her, for all of them. she’s more than happy to oblige. ❛ i promise, nina. would you like to keep me company ? ❜ she straightens up now, sitting upright on the stool. she’d also like to see nina smile as well. ❛ could you promise me something, too ? i’d like it if you’d come see my next performance. ❜ it’s in times of BLEAK situations that it’s best to remain hopeful together.

@littlebunnynurse

#littlebunnynurse #☆ ○ ᴛʜᴀɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ ғᴏʀ ᴄᴀʟʟɪɴɢ ʙᴇɴʀɪʏᴀ / ᴀsᴋ ᴀʟᴇx.#thanks for sending this in #you can aways turn it into a thread if you like <3

Touches the butt

surprise still SHOOTS at her when she feels large hands groping her ass. she never gets used to it no matter how much time they’ve spent together. the shock washes away since she can feel IRRITATION rise in her like a VOLCANO erupting. fingers reach up to PINCH his cheeks, STRETCHING THEM out as if they were play-dough. ❛ pervert. ❜ her CHEEKS start to blend into rosiness as she does hoping he’d stop already. alex wonders why he enjoys teasing her so much. ❛ you’re going to have to wait longer to hear me sing then. ❜

@hirememory

#hirememory #☆ ○ ᴛʜᴀɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ ғᴏʀ ᴄᴀʟʟɪɴɢ ʙᴇɴʀɪʏᴀ / ᴀsᴋ ᴀʟᴇx.#IM SO DONE WITH WORICK AND SO IS ALEX #i cannot #when he's the finding nemo meme but with an actual butt

@hirememory

she approaches the couch, noticing the silkiness of his blonde hair & the way that exhaustion creeps in his face. he smells like cologne & perfume mingled since the weekends were for his CLIENTS. there is also the undertones of tobacco, it sticks to him like a STRAY cat. they never really saw each other on the weekends, so it was just her & nic until he finally comes home. ❛ worick. ❜ she calls him gently before her hand rests on top of one of the CUSHIONS. ❛ do you want to sleep next to me? under the conditions you don’t suffocate me like last time.❜ alex just wants him to sleep better & she thinks a nice bed would work after being in ENDLESS throes of passion with his clients. she never asks, well they’ve never asked each other anything beyond what was necessary. it was like ENCROACHING a boundary they haven’t yet crossed.

#hirememory #☆ ○ ʟᴇᴛ ᴍᴇ sᴛᴀʏ ʟᴏɴɢᴇʀ / ɪᴄ.#ᴠ. ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴀʏ ʜᴇʀᴇ ғᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ.#: )#softness #before everything goes to shit

dicennio

WE’RE BENRIYA

#☆ ○ ᴀ ᴅᴀᴍᴀɢᴇᴅ sᴏᴜʟ ᴄᴀɴ sʜɪɴᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ɢᴏʟᴅ / ᴠɪs.#☆ ○ ᴄᴀʟʟ ʏᴏᴜʀ ɴᴀᴍᴇ ᴛɪʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ʙɪᴛᴛᴇʀ ᴇɴᴅ / ɴɪᴄ.#☆ ○ ᴡʜʏ'ᴅ ʏᴏᴜ sᴀᴠᴇ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴍᴇ ? / ᴡᴏʀɪᴄᴋ.#☆ ○ ᴀ ᴘʟᴀᴄᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ's ɴᴇɪᴛʜᴇʀ ʜᴇʀᴇ ɴᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ: ʜᴏᴍᴇ / ʙᴇɴʀɪʏᴀ.#this edit is so pretty

wnq-music

She shines in a world full of ugliness. She matters when everything is meaningless.

Trent Reznor | @wnq-music (via wordsnquotes)

#☆ ○ ᴀ sᴏɴɢ ʙɪʀᴅ sɪɴɢɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ɪᴛs ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇɴᴛ / ᴍᴜs.#!!!!!#beautiful

@voulatile continued from x

her heart waits in ANTICIPATION like a child waiting for their test grade, an OVERWHELMING feeling of dread or joy. it’ll either be a pass or a fail on her heart. they were two lost SOULS finding solace in each other during a THUNDERSTORM. she had stepped into a magnetic field, her underlying attraction to him appeared as natural curiosity, but eventually it was more. eventually he’d step into it too & that’s why she asks. the feelings she’s experiencing can only be synonymous with LOVE. alex doesn’t care what that makes her to love a monster. was he truly one ? she’s seen with her own eyes that violent hands can be capable of such tender acts. couldn’t they see cold hands could REACH for the sun too ?

she was too warm for a world that gave birth to CHAOS & destruction, for a world that’s been unkind to her. alex would never let them strip her of her KINDNESS, it’s the seed of BENEVOLENT words that can create gardens & forests of goodness. some may be stepped on, some may wither, some may be cut down, but there will always be one. alex craves the ghost of his hands on her, CALLOUSED by forces that made him who he is today. she needs him, wants him more than what he is in her life at the moment. friends do not give LINGERING touches, volcanic stares, & a closeness that begs more questions.

he had plucked something from her heart & then he had scattered the pieces on the ground like fallen petals.

NO. he says no. would it have been worse if she had signed the words : I LOVE YOU? would he have said anything ? her worries grow more, her chest aches because she’s always thought he’d opened himself up more to her. she thought maybe he’d want to be with her too. alex was just DELUDING herself, wasn’t she? she just wanted to be happy with him even with the risks of being with someone like him. alex GRINDS her teeth, a pained expression floods instantly. she reminisces when she HELD his hand in hers, the ANGUISH was paralyzing, but she handled it. so she will bear this too since it’s NOTHING. she can deal with the aftereffects of heartbreak. ❛ why? why not? ❜

#voulatile #☆ ○ ʟᴇᴛ ᴍᴇ sᴛᴀʏ ʟᴏɴɢᴇʀ / ɪᴄ.#ᴠ. ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ sᴛᴀʏ ʜᴇʀᴇ ғᴏʀᴇᴠᴇʀ.#WHO THE FUCK ARE WE ?#IM GONNA #CAUSE OF DEATH: NIC AND ALEX ANGST #im so #kerm crying #that's me right now #going to lay here and die !!

hirememory-blog

these tend to get around faster than edits so could you please like / reblog this post if you’d be interested in writing with a worick from gang/sta. a gigolo formerly from a wealthy family, worick is the founder of benriya with his partner nic & their secretary alex. obviously this blog will contain mature themes so proceed with caution !!

#mobile.#i love mhmmm #👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼#here for the waifu #already killing me with our discord convos