i don't have a single original thought

stella | 20s | any pronouns | 18+ | aroace | multifandom

[fruitgravies]

the failure(s); the many loves of the vampire lestat

prints • insta • twt

[gatesofminrathous]

there will never be anything as funny as the mutual disbelief between long form and short form fic writers about each other's style.

short form writers look at people writing 100k+ fics as though this is some sort of talent given as part of a fae bargain, that the commitment required shows some sort of ungodly mental fortitude.

meanwhile long form writers look at people writing 1000 word one shots like god I would cut off my left nipple to be able to say anything concisely. i would love to play with multiple ideas. free me from the shackles of this child I have birthed. i love them but I now must take them to t-ball and doctor's appointments and they're going to destroy everything I own.

[ao3commentoftheday]

[samsteacup]

this year, has me learning that reaching out to writers/artists/people doesn't have to be scary or end up with my message being ignored.

so far I have had lovely conversations on @vaguelyviolet amazing fic (if you like hucklerobby - pls check it out!)

i reached out to a german punk band* to thank them for their work, show them the art i was making inspired by them and asked for future shows of them and i got a lengthy reply from the singer... and its been still one of my favourite things that happened that year

*Goldzilla is a punk band from Berlin, who makes incredible music. Their songs cover topics from transphobia, nationalism, militarism, annoying straight endocis dudes, liberal pseudo activism, german politics and right wing attacks in Germany. They can be a bit whimsical at times (love that) and their music is really catchy... so check em out!!!!

i just now i got a reply from Peter Gelderloos on Substack after i simply thanked him for his work. and it feels really insane... just simply because in my mind they are such an insane impactful and important person in modern anarchist writing and action. like he has his own Wikipedia article kinda big. plus their big catalogue of anarchist books. idk just feel weird to have contact to someone who is so inspiring to you and has such a huge impact on your worldview, while living so far away

but in case you are not familiar with his works, Peter has a bunch of books, that i recommend reading. Check out your local library or you will find most (if not all?) of their work at the anarchist library. I also really recommend his Substack. It's articles have a bunch of different topics. some more nerdy, some analysing and criticising current world events and systems - but all with a refreshing empathy that your normal news articles lack. all of their writings on Substack are also free - but if you want to support him, you can also get a pair subscription!

[peachpulpeuse]

IF YOU SEE ANY PAINTING BY "EMILE CORSI" ON HERE, DO NOT REBLOG IT THINKING IT'S REAL AND FROM THE 1800s. IT IS AI-GENERATED AND EMILE CORSI IS NOT A HISTORICAL FIGURE

examples:

[tattedpetticoats]

And if you love the vibes and wish you could find something similar painted by a real person, let me introduce you to John William Waterhouse, on whose work the AI was definitely trained:

[rpfofficial]

levels of mutualship :

the closest thing to real soulmates you can find

we fought in the same trenches and have a warrior's bond that carries over into every stage of life

friend i sit next to in every class and pass notes to/whisper to constantly

academic peer/colleague that i respect and have a little intellectual crush on

neighbour in the same apartment block that i say hi to on the stairs

neighbour across the street who i wave at every morning and evening

we're regulars at the same bar

i can't even remember who you are but if you weren't here there would be something fundamental missing

[lamiasage]

I started watching Interview with the Vampire and Louis looked SO good with those glasses so I needed to draw him in them 🩸

[melandrops]

the aroace read of ryland grace is so personal and haunting. "you don't even have a dog." was it not enough to love the world for the sake of living in it. was it not enough to live for the thrill of discovery. was it not enough to smile at your students. was it not enough to be afraid.

[pyxilz]

I love drawing scenes from Hannibal

[huariqueje]

Nasturtiums -  Stanisław Wyspiański , 1903.

Polish , 1869-1907

Crayon , 113.5 x 154 cm.

[nevver]

Why are we like this? Spike Milliken

[vqtkufi]

‘But in the low light, you know I’d do anything for you’.

[evvyvve]

huckleberry

[gvalesdraws]

Melkor from Silmarillion that I did for the amazing Lucifer zine! (@the_cursed_zine on instagram)

[vqtkufi]

‘But in the low light, you know I’d do anything for you’.

[knifefightscene]

[elbiotipo]

Just got off a whole day on a bus to check the world's most beautiful pictures of the Moon and Trump threatening genocide upon a whole civilization

[elbiotipo]

oh carlitos we're really in it now

[inkskinned]

you know what? fuck it, man. the world is held in the fists of people who like to break things. at this point i’m saying who gives a shit. wear that victorian dress you don’t have an excuse for. dress up like a witch, pointed hat and all. who cares anymore. why worry about it when there’s bigger stuff to worry on. i’m saying. yeah, this lipstick is too dark, wanna share? i’m saying go talk to her, tell her that you like her hair. i’m saying she’s out of my league but i’m still swinging, i’m saying yeah i’m in a ballgown and it’s a pta meeting. what about it. eat the extra brownie, tell her your feelings. i’m saying if nothing matters than we might as well give nothing meaning.

[inkskinned]

#i’m saying if existence is a void at least i’m going down screaming.

it’s been 9 years since i wrote this. i was experiencing 24/7 anxiety so badly that i needed serious medication. these days in the back of my car is an “emergency party box.” when people admit they no longer really celebrate their birthday; i tell them to put the sash on and queue up kesha, we’re going bowling or something. these days i can’t spin around without finding something i am enamored with. these days i list 3 things i’m grateful for before i fall asleep. you’re probably one of them, just by virtue of you existing.

at the time i wrote this, i was suffering through a severe panic attack literally every night. i tortured my brother with constant 2 AM calls just to hear someone else breathing, because i couldn’t be alone in the silence.

i rarely wish i was still 23 even though ironically i had more hope back then. what i can tell you is this: i love the same way, but bigger now. i’ve worn the velvet cape to several business meetings. i spent thursday in a crop top without caring what my stomach looked like.

i told her i like her; i often dress as a witch. i still got glass in my foot this morning. i’ve kissed maybe a thousand people since then and met a million more than that; passing like the shadow of a hammerhead in trains and planes and buses.

i saw you, beloved, there, maybe, on platform in south station. you didn’t speak, but you said: i struggle to give the nothing meaning. the nothing fills up everything. it is just loud and yellowed panicked silence. i can’t stop shaking.

on the roof, birds curl together against the chilled spring wind. the sky outside of the craft store was an iridescent pink. the nothing already had meaning; you are giving it meaning by witnessing.

the act of living, beloved: it’s just decoding how to translate it.