t4transvestite

sad edgy cripple // sideblog for @tonyjalapeno

[vampiresblog]

he/him only, sometimes nsft

this has turned into my disability sideblog, main is @tonyjalapeno for my art and silly stuff

I am 21yrs old disabled t4t tboy with a beautiful girlfriend <3 ambulatory wheelchair user and cane user 🦽👨‍🦯

talk to me about; digital art, cats, minecraft, my chemical romance, emo music, saw (2004), stephen king, and more !!!

I <3 body horror. the body is a prison and such.

[ijustwannafallunderyrsawteeth]

if you're still out there masking I'm out there too and I love you. we are not alone.

[mortallycrispygardener]

[shiftingbonesofapoltergeist-dea]

I'm sorry WHAT

[smallerontheoutside]

'lazy people don't feel guilty about not doing anything' is insane to me and I have been trying to make my brain believe it for a long time, it shocked me to my core when I first heard it

[astropithecus]

An important corollary to "if you were faking your mental illness, you could stop whenever you wanted."

[shamebats]

Half the people on the internet for some reason

[bebsi-cola]

i don't want this to come across as condescending. but when i talk about the never ending crisis after crisis that disabled people face it is strange when people just link it it burnout. like yeah regularly overdoing it will lead to burnout. but it also leads to disability. ableds in permacrisis regularly become disabled as a result. disabled people regularly become more disabled as a result. being in a state of relentless deficit can and will burn you out. and it can make your health permanently worse. a lot of disabled people are disabled because their health got worse and just never recovered. and, as disabled people, we are painfully aware that there's only so far we can be pushed before the consequences become severe. not just burning out. not just having your health deteriorate again. serious health scares, losing large swaths of our abilities, shortening our life expectancy, mental health going to ruin, dying, becoming homeless... I'm not saying burnout is easy but I am asking people to consider that there is n bottom line. if we fall too far and slip through the net then we're done for, and disabled people who are barely managing and working in an unsustainable environment are painfully aware of this possibility

[zackisontumblr]

i am supposed to have the energy… to do stuff...?

[zackisontumblr]

every? day??

[bebsi-cola]

disabled people are often in permacrisis

[bebsi-cola]

there's never enough money each month. there's always an unexpected illness. new symptoms pop up or old symptoms flare up. meds have to be managed always and refilled constantly and any refill has the opportunity to go wrong. any regular care has the opportunity to go wrong. any mistake can send your health spiralling. it's always "i just need to get through this bad patch" but as soon as one ends another begins. another crisis begins in the middle of the last crisis. managing one thing leaves another thing to be neglected until that becomes a major issue and has to be managed asap and the cycle starts anew over and over and over

[tonyjalapeno]

perfectly normal grieving daughter

[tonyjalapeno]

perfectly normal grieving daughter

[ijustwannafallunderyrsawteeth]

the best way to protect your health and well-being in 2025, amidst a pandemic that is severe but now ignored (not to mention a bird flu pandemic is brewing with an estimated 50% mortality rate if it mutates toward human to human transmission), is to wear a kn94, or even better, an n95 mask in your day to day life, as often as possible. sometimes is better than never. it's truly my top health tip.

i followed the research from the beginning, as i watched what happened to me happen to people en masse (the chance of postviral illness from each covid infection is somewhere between 10 and 30%. every time you get sick you're rolling the dice on lifelong disability).

because of learning this early, i never took my mask off. i have not had as much as a cold since 2019. cannot recommend it enough. it's wonderful to not get sick and it's wonderful to not pass it on to others. i will gladly wear a mask in shared spaces as long as I need to. it helps prevent organ damage, brain damage, increased likelihood of heart attack and stroke, and also helps prevent damage to my immune system that covid can cause.

wearing a mask should not be a badge of shame. wearing a mask is an affirmation that our lives, all our lives, are precious and we all deserve to be protected from harm. please consider a mask. your life matters and the damage covid causes is so severe people are making comparisons to HIV/AIDS. i know the messaging isn't telling you this, but the research is, I can assure you. covid causes what is called t8 cell apoptosis. your t cells are a vital part of your immune system, and covid has been shown to cause the death of these cells.

your life is so precious. my life is so precious. please consider masking up.

Like the N95, the FDA Authorized KN95 face masks sold by Bona Fide Masks™ are rated to provide 95% ore greater filtration of particles large

[chronicillnesshumor-deactivated]

[b-skarsgard]

Bill Skarsgård & Madeline Stowe in IT: Welcome To Derry

[kookychick253]

Accurate review

[bebsi-cola]

the way they treat people with poor memory it's really like. extremely shit. people take poor memory to be some kind of flaw or fault with the person. where they believe that evidence of poor memory is done intentionally, and when someone is finally convinced that poor memory is unintentional then the person with memory issues is considered to be without the ability to think, have likes and opinions or have anything good or meaningful to say. people take their ability to talk over someone else as a given, or a as something funny. and instead of helping someone with an issue that can quite often be either very frustrating or very scary, these malakas don't even answer basic questions

[black-mesa-runs-wikipedia]

I hate that any post I make about the healthcare I need being discriminative, abusive, expensive, or just completely unavailable everyone always assume I'm American talking about American healthcare.

Disabled people suffer everywhere. Americans can exclusively post about American healthcare because they usually don't know shit about the rest of the world but don't assume all healthcare that is bad or all posts about bad healthcare are American.

[joeyridersvoid]

This sounds like a shitpost but people should be allowed to be horny. As in, sexuality is just part of life for most people and there’s no reason for consensual sexual behavior to be punished. A celebrity getting “caught” at a sex club shouldn’t be a scandal. No one should be fired for having a fetlife profile outside of work. Nudes getting leaked shouldn’t be career-ending. Denying and hiding (consensual) sexual interests doesn’t make anyone more professional, it just makes everyone more repressed. And sterilizing ourselves to be better work drones isn’t productive, it’s just creepy. I’d rather my surgeon get absolutely railed on camera and come to work in a good mood, frankly.

[joeyridersvoid]

the amount of ace, aroace, + sex-repulsed ppl leaving support on this post is rly heartwarming

[rimonoroni]

also this goes without saying but is also true of ppl who do sex work for used to do sex work. an accountant’s boss finding out that they used to do sex work shouldn’t be a career ender. a restaurant worker shouldn’t be fired bc they have an OnlyFans.

[cecil-apologist-deactivated2024]

does anyone know if we have transmasc and transfem love and friendship today

[damazcuz]

We do. And tomorrow and the next day and every day forever and ever and ever too. :)

[cecil-apologist-deactivated2024]

a long time ago i was struggling with being transmasc because i felt like i was betraying womanhood somehow. then one of my best friends came out as a trans woman and i realised "ah... there will always be so many beautiful women in the world, so it's okay that i'm not one of them". what i'm trying to say is you need to love each other or there's no point to any of this

[risenfromthebog]

in a reversal of this. when i came out as transfem i was almost dissapointed because i spent so long trying to be a truly good man. i was raised with a lot of shitty guys so i tried to be the most pro-feminist comfortable dude i could be for the women around me. when my egg cracked, i almost felt this feeling of "shit, are the only men who think like this secretly women inside?" and it feels nice to see that proven so utterly and completely wrong by the trans men i know in my life. i love seeing people take on the masculinity i hated and do amazing shit with it, god bless trans dudes