moved!

MOVED TO KAMAUEA Benjamin Lafitte [indie selective / private spn rp.] "loss is an illusion; you’ve never actually had anything." (ride or die) —written by ck

[vampiricallyxspeaking-blog]

benny’s not gone, he’s just relocated. come find him here. ♥

[jaxonsawyer]

a much shorter post (than this) with my ‘where to find me’ info:

writing blog — https://hakuxmele.tumblr.com/

personal blog — http://carolinekualii.tumblr.com/

instagram — https://www.instagram.com/carolinekualii/

disco —  ssgt.sawyer~#7856

i love you all! ♥

[jaxonsawyer]

so this post is LONG overdue. it’s been an extremely busy summer between my work schedule & family stuff. and i’m sure this comes as a surprise to no one. 

but i just want everyone to know that i won’t be returning to this blog for the time being. 

as much as i love indie, and as much as i love all my partners, with my work schedule and my attention span, i just can’t make the time for RP along with my personal projects. and my personal projects are what i’m devoting my attention to. since graduating, i’ve realized i need/want to focus on trying to get published. (and that won’t happen unless i’m producing work haha.) sadly, thanks to adhd, i’ve been using RP as a way to procrastinate focusing on my own work. 

that being said. 

i’m not completely disappearing. you all are AWESOME, and i don’t want to just disappear. i’ll drop links if y’all would like to follow me/add me! additionally, i would love to keep writing with a lot of you guys. so if you’d like to do some 1x1, plot-driven, character development heavy stuff, let me know! 

writing blog (where all my characters still live and where i’d be open to doing some 1x1 stuff!) — https://hakuxmele.tumblr.com/

personal blog (basically where i reblog nonsense and make the occasional personal post) — http://carolinekualii.tumblr.com/

instagram — https://www.instagram.com/carolinekualii/

disco (for chatting, and 1x1 stuff if anyone wants) —  ssgt.sawyer~#7856

f u r t h e r m o r e —

if anyone would like to start a writing group, where we read drafts & consult about plots and characters and generally help each other with writing and creating, i would love that. you all are amazing writers, and i’d love to keep y’all in my life. 

lastly, i just wanna say thank you. to all my partners, to everyone who has plotted with me and supported me and followed me. thank you for being so sweet to me, thank you for being patient and understanding, and maybe most of all, thank you for supporting and wanting with interact with Jaxon. it’s such a lovely feeling to a writer to know their character is loved by more than just themselves. thank you. i appreciate all your love and affection more than you know. 

imma put some mushy stuff below the cut. but thank you everyone for reading, and thank you for making this part of my life so great. ♥

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[vampiricallyxspeaking-blog]

same goes for this blog. ♥

thank you to everyone for supporting me and wanting to interact with dear benny here. you all are amazing. ♥

[endfault-blog]

❝    imagine that the world is made out of love.  now imagine that it isn’t.  imagine  a  story where  everything  goes  wrong,   where everyone has their  back  against  the  wall,   where  everyone  is  in  pain  and  acting selfishly    because   if   they   don’t,     they’ll    die.    imagine   a   story,  not           of             g    o    o   d              against            evil,             but of            need            against             need             against            need,  where  everyone  is  at  cross-purposes  and  everyone is at blame.     ❞

                                                               independent.  selective.  private.                 au  +  canon friendly,  season 1-13  sam  +  dean   winchester.                           template credit.  triggers ahead.  wincest content heavy.

[kamauea]

                                          happiness is a choice, not a result. nothing will                                           make you happy until you  choose to be happy.

DUAL MUSE//SELECTIVE

  ☼  .   ☁  .   ❅  .   ☾ .         ( ♥  written by ck  ♥ )  

[theobscurist]

More from this shoot at https://onlyfans.com/theobscurist model: @drake_000 photo by @theobscurist

[inhale-indie-vibes]

Billie Eilish // Ocean Eyes 

I’ve been watching you For some time Can’t stop staring At those oceans eyes

[sagamemes]

reblog this if you are a canon divergent portrayal out of pure fucking saltiness towards the canon

[jaxonsawyer]

independent. fandomless. hot fuckin’ mess.™

       x.x.   — JAXON BENJAMIN SAWYER —   x.x.

                                                                              boxer. soldier. officer. southern af.

                                                                                                                           (credit: @opheliasang)

[vampiricallyxspeaking-blog]

pornxguy:

Why you gotta call me that Benny we’re having a discussion- but he keeps his mouth shut. The less he knows about how hung up Dean gets on certain things the better. Head tilts down a fraction of an inch and he bites down on his lower lip. Hopefully it came off as frustration about his inability to form a snappy response and less as a knee jerk reaction to the accent. Stomach makes a noise. A loud noise which throws all dark thoughts out the window. “Okay fine so the drink wasn’t my best plan. So what” the names, the ages, those will be remembered for later. 

He wants to ask Benny more about his family since he hasn’t heard him talk about them much but…… his stomach is trying to lurch out of his body through his throat. Holding up a finger he turns around so Benny can’t see him go completely pale and choke back the nausea. “Just gotta ride out the wave is all” oh god can this get worse?

               he’d have teased dean for the misstep in their verbal spar. that was, if dean wasn’t clearly suffering. the man wasn’t on his game, and benny would be gentler than their usual rapport called for. though he did give a soft chuckle, very slightly smug at being proved right by dean’s own traitorous body.  “ fixin’ on lettin’ me take care of you yet, sugar? ” he offered in a low drawl, not doing too much to hide the satisfied look in his eyes. but all that faded when dean shifted in pain. benny didn’t even need to be a vampire to see that. worry and concern knotted in his features instead, and he brought the trash can over to dean.  “ c’mon now. you’ve had witness t’ me gettin’ real bloody with the best purgatory had to offer. don’t be shy here, ” he coaxed, laying a hand on dean’s shoulder with a warm squeeze.  “ i’m gonna go and get you some water. since yer wise guy plan was to dehydrate yerself with liquor. ”

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pornxguy:

DEAN TOSSES BACK THE REST OF THE DRINKbefore fixing Benny with a steady look. At least the pain was gone. The body aches weren’t as bad. See? All fixed. It didn’t make the nausea any better but hey- one out of two is like fifty percent. “No way are you leaving me alone” it’s not a challenge he’s just stating it as a fact. He’s sick. Benny can’t just leave him like this. Not in his character. “Besides, didn’t you guys always used to drink ‘ta get rid of weird shit? Got a toothache? Put some cocaine on it. The clap? Soak your junk in whiskey that’ll probably… not be awful.” 

         benny doesn’t waver in the face of dean’s stubborn defiance. he’s used to it at this point. dean knows his path. and gale force winds couldn’t blow the man off his own course. there’s a soft, very slightly amused sigh as he sits in the chair at dean’s desk. now, in a normal situation, he would’ve gone about taking care of the other. but it seemed they were having fundamental disagreements on the best course of treatment.  “ how many old men do ya think i knew back then? my father died at 55. my granddad at 57. now, i’m hoping medicine has improved since then. ‘cause back then, gettin’ the flu was grounds for drawin’ up your will. still keen on 1930s medicine there, darlin’? ”

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pornxguy:

“WHAT? IT COUNTS AS MEDICINE”he had a glass right in front of him, almost gone, he could say it was a hot toddie for his throat but that would just be an outright lie. Throat clears as he holds the glass against his stomach and lays back against the pillows. “I’m sick Benny you’re not supposed to be questioning my methods. Been taking care of myself just fine without you around” I mean…… debatable.

       “ no— it doesn’t, ” benny disagreed, giving him a disapproving look. and if dean was any more sick that he was, the vampire would’ve been taking that glass on bottle from him. but the hard edge to dean’s words tempered his reaction.  “ uh huh. that mean you wanna continue t’ be miserable on yer own then here, bud? ”

[vampiricallyxspeaking-blog]

pornxguy:

       “ I DON’T KNOW WHAT I GOT BUT IT’S AWFUL ” Dean’s been in bed ordering take out because he’s sick and can’t make himself food. “If I die of this, I just don’t want you to blame yourself” it’s the flu, he’s got a fever but nothing dramatic ( despite his tone ) and it hurts to move but hey that’s what sick is. 

         he has to school his expression, keep his emotions from tainting his reaction to dean’s current... situation.  “ you better not let me find out you’ve been usin’ whiskey as a remedy here, dean, ” benny chided in advance. with the take out, and all of dean’s fussing— looked more like dean had been sabotaging his sickness rather than trying to heal it.

[vampiricallyxspeaking-blog]

im always bewildered when i get new followers despite being inactive. but grateful! i am coming back. i swear. xx

[vampiricallyxspeaking-blog]

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what if I'm caught up on it's me you're calling? what if I'm lost now, plus if demons come in? when she kissed me I felt a new freedom or something... (well) move on .

[red-lyrium-addict]

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[jaxonsawyer]

The berth surrounding my body crushing every bit of bone The salt, it seeps in through the pores of my open skin I wait on you inside the bottom of the deep blue sea

[mortiphia-blackness]