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The Loss of True Meaning

We live in a moment in history where many words have been cursed with the lost of their taste and true meaning. Among many others, the word "Artist" is an offspring of that curse. Pop culture is drowning in the hype around simply just having the title of an artist. Creating a watered down version of the word " Artist" Though capitalism has it advantages and helps create wealth for the artist entrepreneur. It also has created a culture where creators are only measured by their monetary value and not their passion. The effect of romanticizing the title of an artist  and culture of capitalism leaves us with a word that no longer accurately describes people with real passions, inspirations ,creativity and patience.

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Communicating Depression and Self-doubt

As a creator I have gone through many different stages. Drawing was my first experience with creating something of my own. But I wasn't drawing because I felt it was really good. It was a very dim part of life where I felt invisible to most people. With my drawings I learned at a young age I could use drawing to earn attention. Putting my pain into my paintings and drawings I was able to communicate myself to others. I also suffered from depression. And as that deepened, I fell further into a creative space. The satisfaction from painting provided me a way to escape my self doubt. When depressed its hard to communicate your feelings and why you feel a certain way. When I'm creating I am able to project my feelings through a creative medium, while at the same time being vulnerable. I no longer create for only others enjoy, I now create for myself in order to sustain my own mental health and counter my self-doubt. Every now and then someone enjoys the things I create. I haven't always been open with my work. I didn't always want the things I created to be seen by others. It comes from not wanting to be vulnerable because you've have put so much of yourself into your art. Time and confidence helped me to move into a more sharing space. Now I'm working on creating with other people. For the longest time I did everything on my own. I felt if I shared my work other artist are passions would clash and self-destruct anything that we would work on. Over time I've learned that the level I want to create I would not be able to do by myself. I would be forced to collaborate with other artist. This magazine is a reflection of collaboration. 

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Crab Boil

boiling Crabs in a pot of water that lack any space   

So they use  death of their own provide an escape 

same crab on crab violence black youths use today

but the free crabs of the sea rarely act this way 

cause miles of oceans floor is space for opportunity 

With resources never seen by the crab pot community 

the oppressed crab didn’t ask to live in a pot 

He only gets  violent  as the water around him gets hot

Boiling hot water in the black community 

Sometimes takes the shape of a cop 

those who sit and wait for the next eulogy 

take the shape of crab in a pot 

The reality of crabs in a barrel 

is a low income housing parable 

Police force taking  black lives   

will never be comparable

To black on black crime 

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V9ine

A creator magazine that will be used to market my youtube channel that is used to empower artist through interviews , conversations, and networking.

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new magazine I’m currently working on 

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I had to try so hard not to make the caption “BEYONCE??” on Instagram

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The PZA and their Freelance artist and creators

A very unorthodox format of interview with some of the most creative and visionary people who are creating a world that reflects their artistry. Contact info...

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He’s Broken  Been days since  he’s spoken  Out loud he’s To proud  To ask for help So he’ll do it all by himself  anxiety like a wildfire Emotions numb to flames he continues to melt  he cant breathe  in the Sea  of depression  With no one to find strength in  Choking on pride  The wave are all he’s left with  The moon just watches  And reflects on his pain  Will the waves never be tamed

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Youtube channel intro

alright so this is the long overdue intro that I should have done when I first made the channel. When I first originally made the channel I had no clear idea...

have been very active on Tumblr like I should  be , but from now on I'm going to commit to posting on here 

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