Hall of Mirrors

I would weep, but my tears have been stolen. I would shout, but my voice has been taken. Thus, I write.

[weirddyke]

“Am I in love?—yes, since I am waiting. The other one never waits. Sometimes I want to play the part of the one who doesn’t wait; I try to busy myself elsewhere, to arrive late; but I always lose at this game. Whatever I do, I find myself there, with nothing to do, punctual, even ahead of time. The lover’s fatal identity is precisely this: I am the one who waits.”

— Roland Barthes, A Lover’s Discourse: Fragments

[mournfulroses]

Rainer Maria Rilke, from a letter featured in Letters to Merline, 1919-1922

[vehder]

i miss u so much (pre ai internet)

[lexxnova]

Don’t forget to imagine the best case scenario too

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Joseph Brodsky, Hope Against Hope: A Memoir

[shisasan]

2 April, 1937 Letters to Véra by Vladimir Nabokov

[vannkira]

[vannkira]

Artist: Eva Fialka

[vannkira]

[werelivingarts-deactivated20230]

ways i try to beat insomnia

Helloooo, it’s been such a long time sorry, IB program really throws me off guard and I also develop insomnia recently (which I couldn’t fall asleep for 3 hours later). I’m currently on fall break, and I hope I’m fixing my sleep schedule well 🙏🏻

Here are just some ways that work for me, so feel free to try if you think it would be helpful. I’m not a therapist or doctor, please take this as a grain of salt! I’ll also recommend listening to some sleepcast by Headspace (not sponsor!!) if you want to relax at night! 

Do you guys have trouble falling asleep? If yes, how do you deal with it? 

[vannkira]

As a fellow insomniac, I cannot recommend this post enough. I only manage to get my sleeping schedule so-so in order during summer, so I'd say A LOT of daily & sport activities are crucial here. Also limiting blue light exposure even longer - optimally, at least 1,5 hours before going to bed.

[vannkira]

[vannkira]

Lubyanskaya square - Moscow architecture before the USSR and now.

[vannkira]

[vannkira]

“The man who lies to himself can be more easily offended than anyone else. You know it is sometimes very pleasant to take offense, isn't it? A man may know that nobody has insulted him, but that he has invented the insult for himself, has lied and exaggerated to make it picturesque, has caught at a word and made a mountain out of a molehill--he knows that himself, yet he will be the first to take offense, and will revel in his resentment till he feels great pleasure in it.” ― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

[liathebutterfly]

[toastbutteregg]

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