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redownloaded this app today to look back at my many one direction reposts and likes. it feels so odd to be back here bawling and memorializing the band but they gave me so much genuine joy and lifelong memories.

honestly 1d is the symbol of my childhood & teenage years. its difficult to process my feelings around liam considering the recent news from his ex about his abuse. 13 year old me is mourning the person i truly loved from all the edits, tours and press junkets. 25 year old me is mourning the loss of my first favorite band and the ultimate symbol of my youth.

whats-bi-is-dean

for all the moments. all the dreams. all the songs. all the laughter and warmth he was able to live, have, write, sing and give.

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aquaxjelli

This feels so unreal :(

hsmp3

from time to time, i randomly log onto this account just to see what tumblr's like and what my mutuals are up to. i never ever in a million years thought i'd be sitting here scrolling through my feed staring numbly at countless posts mourning the loss of liam. adding another one into the void, but just know there are many complex feelings regarding his passing and i adore the heck out of everyone i met because of his legacy. i hope those who have been victims of liam's actions are able to share their stories and feel their emotions without people attacking/blaming them for his passing. i hope this encourages people in the music industry to wake up and really pay attention to the people they're representing, i hope to see a day that young people thrown into the spotlight are given the proper tools and coping mechanisms to navigate their fame.

i am sending so much love to everyone who knew and loved him; he was a son, a partner, a brother, a friend, a father, an artist who impacted many lives. wherever liam is, i hope he is no longer suffering or in pain. this shit doesn't feel real, rest easy liam

finelinelando

Miss them with my whole heart

finelinelando

Hitting so much harder today. Shocked and devastated doesn’t even begin to cover it.

Rest in peace Liam Payne, you’ll you were so loved and you’ll never be forgotten 🕊️💔😭

loveaquarius

This grieving is so weird man because I never knew him but I’m trying to go about work and my day as normal and I get hit with a sudden wave of hurt and pain for this man that meant so MUCH to me and gave me so many happy memories during my childhood and adolescence. This hurt makes me stop in my tracks every time and I just stand and sit there frozen for a couple of minutes before I have the continue the task I was doing. It feels silly to explain it to coworkers or other people that didn’t have the same experience as this community. All my happy memories of the band have been fragmented and they all have an open space where he should be but isn’t anymore. I’m truly heartbroken and angry and I don’t know what to do with those emotions other than just letting them flow through me.. I wished things would have gone differently for him and he had been given the chance to heal and make amends. I will always hold his memory and existence dear. He made me so happy for so long…my head and heart truly hurts and mourns his death.

genuineconspiracy

What I think a lot of people are grieving now is the future he lost. He had a chance to heal, to make amends, to right the ship. I think we all wanted to see that. He gave a lot of people great moments in their lives and he endured a lot. He was fighting hard for his own life. It is a deep sorrow that his struggle is over.

x-give-em-hell-kid-x

Literally the only reason I have tumblr was because I started out at a one direction fan account in 2012.

zaynjmsource

zayn: Love You Bro ❤️

mr-styles

We're absolutely heartbroken as we mourn the loss of Liam.

We send love and light to friends, family and fans in this tough time.

xx Mr-Styles team

phdmama

I know I don’t blog much about 1D anymore but they’ve stayed in my heart. Those boys, that band, the music, the art, the fic. Fandom brought me so much joy. It gave me writing. It gave me some of my closest friends in the world. I can’t even put it into words how much I’ve been blessed to receive.

I’m heartbroken.

thecuriousbeauty

Shaking right now. It's so crazy how life changes and how quick it can take a turn. Keeping aside everything that has happened, let's mourn this man today. There are good and bad sides to people. Today, let's remember him by his good days. One Direction shaped my childhood, the songs made me feel better when I was so down and it's always a safe place for me. It's sad to think that one of those members are no more. Deeply hurt by the news. I'll miss you, Liam.

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fehroohz

haven't posted in a decade but i miss y'all, thinking of you during this awful time <3333

whatwouldeddiedo

i just keep thinking about louis and all of his writing about grief in his music. how he lost the mother who was his best friend and then just over a year later one of his little sisters, and now he's losing someone else who meant so so much to him - who was at one point or several points of his life his best friend. he's lost so much and now he's losing liam too. it just feels so surreal. none of this feels like it's real.