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my old roommate once told me she was jealous of hyperfixation.

yesterday i couldn't take a shower. or eat. my legs fell asleep.

often i'm aware i'm hyperfixating, this sense you need to go! and i just sit there, fixating.

adhd means it's all or nothing. if you take a break for a snack, get a glass of water - when you come back, your joy may be ruined. all of a sudden, this hobby, this project - just returning to it feels like scorching your hands. didn't you love this thing 23 seconds ago? what happened?

this strange trade-off. if you can handle being uncomfortable for a little while longer, you might be able to actually finish everything in a single rush. there will be no battling yourself to try-again. you don't have to worry about the effort it takes just to start something.

and you get stuck here, sometimes, on the bad stuff. scraping the grout out for literally no reason. individually cutting your split ends off. where even is your brain in those moments? where even are you, watching yourself pick at your skin in the mirror, obsessively, almost like you're praying.

sometimes i find myself laughing - i don't even like what i'm doing anymore. this thing became expensive, draining. i'm tired and my whole body is sore.

and still, something internal demands - just one hour more.

falseinnocencereturns

zukosgay

“I am a greedy cumslut for the vaccine”

i-am-corbin-dallas

Its always fun to see what words other languages dont have🙃💀

pokemon-personalities

ya know what, this year sucked so much in so many ways. it was painful, unfair, cruel and difficult, to say the least. the new year won’t magically erase all of the problems and issues we’ve faced in 2020 but i genuinely hope you and your loved ones are able to catch a break. i hope 2021, in whatever ways possible, is kinder to you. i hope healing comes fast and i hope all the heaviness put upon you starts to lessen

Happy birthday. I hope you're doing okay.

periperi-the-exotic

LAUNCHING HYPER CAT INTO OUTER SPACE

themaarika

could i offer you some round bears in these trying times?

tiktoksthataregood-ish

subversivecynic

It has a reference tile titled "you're damned right I brought receipts" and my love is profound

poppetawoppet

THE FOOTNOTES

flyandfamousblackgirls

Domo Wilson - Bisexual Anthem (2019)

rootbeergoddess

This shit is my jam

moonisneveralone

People in the notes be biphobic, but guess what bitch? SHE’S BI

pettycentral

coochie-bandit

thatfunkyopossum

Nobody ever talk to me about the catholics going off with stained glass again because not one window of jesus has ANYTHING on the Nasir al-Mulk Mosque

Click through this link i’m losing my mind its gorgeous

royalhandmaidens

i absolutely love seeing people’s reactions to the pink mosque 😂

the style is called “orsi” and is unique to iran

and stained glass traces its roots to south west and west asia, developed in ancient times and well before the europeans and the roman empire saw it and said “hey i like that, i’ll be leaving with it”

royalhandmaidens

and while we’re talking about mosques in iran, may i present persian mirror work in a different mosque in the same city?

every time someone tries to talk to me about western churches and architecture and their superiority to that of “third world countries” i have to laugh a little at the ignorance, especially when our mosques look like this

cupcakelogic

Boolognese

acesartemis

kgdragoon

People had a name for asexuality in 1995?! And really, if an advice columnist 25 years ago knew about asexuality and was respectful of it, there’s no excuse for people today to be so aphobic. As an aside, if anyone’s looking for the reference for the above article to make sure it’s legit, it’s from the 1995, February 28th edition of The Robesonian newspaper:

link: https://news.google.com/newspapers?id=7q8_AAAAIBAJ&sjid=31YMAAAAIBAJ&pg=6814,6344642&hl=en

saint-dionysus

People had a term for Asexual long before the 90′s. the term asexual was in wide use by the 1960s and it had terms to refer to it prior to that.

In the 1860s the same man who coined the terms “Homosexual” and “heterosexual” also coined the term “monosexual” (all in the same book) to refer to people who only masturbated and didn't have a desire to have sex with another person.

In the 1890s the term anesthesia sexual was used to describe people who didn’t experience sexual attraction, this is the term that would eventually morph into the term Asexual.

The Kinsey scale, in the 1940s included a category called “X” which refereed to people without sexual desire.

In 1972 the Asexual Manifesto was written.

In 1974 David Bowie discussed Asexuality in The Rowling Stone Magazine

In 1977 Myra Johnson wrote one of the first academic papers about asexuality as part of the book The Sexually Oppressed. She described "asexuality" as a complete lack of sexual desire, while those who do experience sexual desire but have no wish to satisfy it with others were labeled as "autoerotic".

In 1983 the first study that gave empirical data about asexuals was published by Paula Nurius, concerning the relationship between sexual orientation and mental health. The study used a variant of Kinsey's model, and scored participants according to sexual behavior and desire for it.

In 1994 Anthony Bogaert, conducted a study published in The Journal of Sex Research that concluded that 1 in 100 persons identified as asexual.

We have had terms for ourselves for a very long time, just as long as gay and straight people have and just like them we existed before those terms were made.

the-rainbow-collective

Bigotry is never ever rooted in fact

The whole point is that it's not true, because its about power - it's gaslighting - they use violence or intimidation or just a bombardment of bullshit to destabilise reality and overwrite it with their own version of events - which has to be demonstrably untrue

It's not about being right, it's about coercing people in to believing something that is clearly untrue

They're not ignorant, you can't educate away bigotry - because it's just abuse