EVANGELINE. ๐ข๐ he/him, hy/hymn. sapphillean. 20. intj, 8w7 sx/sp837 ILI FLEV, neutral evil, mel-choleric. do not address me by nicknames / secondary names unless close.
๐ข๐ ย irl yan. homicidal tendencies.ย sadist. paraphiliac. cannibal. conabuse. pro-fiction. anti-c for the big three, complex-c for others. the dove is very, very dead.
๐ข๐ ย monogamous. yan4yan. single && not looking. eternally devoted to my beloved muse, @venom-ofgod.โก
diagnosed aspd + schizoid && narcissistic traits. i have a god complex; i see most as lesser. pardon me, but it has never been, & will never be, personal. social recluse; i'll disregard most attempts to converse with me privately. as i do not owe anything to you, do not expect anything from me.
๐โ๐ feel free to send me asks or to dm me. anons are welcome. if i havenโt replied to an ask, i either; deemed it boring, havenโt had the time to yet, or tumblr ate it.
๐โ๐ open to exclusively platonic interactions.
๐โ๐ be parasocial in my inbox, but do not complain if i respond poorly. i donโt entertain purposeless anons.
๐โ๐ mass rbs/likes are fine, i wonโt block for them.
๐โ๐ i condone everything i post about. i do not care about your morals, so donโt bother imposing them on me.
๐โ๐ my posts are directed; to my muse, for my muse.
๐โ๐ minors are allowed to interact, as long as they donโt do so inappropriately. that will result in a block.
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๐โ๐ no dni, i block freely (just know i will make fun of you if youโre a yan fetishizer, an โirl darlingโ, anti-fiction. if you canโt distinguish fiction from reality, block me and get a therapist. if you associate radical feminism with transphobia, puritanism, or gender bio-essentialism, block me and go read a book).
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i enjoy writing & reading in my free time (dostoyevsky, osamu dazai, leo tolstoy, franz kafka, sylvia plathโฆ), listening to music (vkei, classical, oldiesโฆ), researching & studying new things, watching documentaries of any kind (mostly true crime) - video essays - old hollywood movies, playing chess, participating inโthough mostly observingโdebates (mainly of religious, political, or ethical nature).
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my interests include philosophy, reincarnation, spirituality, religious imagery & symbolism, criminal & critical psychology, forensics/law enforcement, neuroscience, sociology, media literacy & ethics, history, the epidemiology of paraphilias & how that manifests in cultural + literary representations. i am a fan of nighttime, rain, the winter season & otherwise cold weather, animals, educated people.
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my dislikes include cishet men, crowded & noisy spaces, people with black & white mindsets (unable to understand or utilize nuance, context, etc while discussing subjects...), performative progressivists, people unable to string more than two sentences together, weak-minded & idiotic individuals.
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please, if youโre gonna try to get to know me, keep in mind that i only have daily contact with a handful of people in my inner circle. respect my boundaries & do not demand my timeโif youโre not one of my adored ones, i do not owe it to you. it is also worth mentioning that i rarely engage in small talk. i prefer lengthy, mind-stimulating convos once in a while rather than simple chitchatting all day everyday.
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๐ ๐ ๐ love letters = obsessive fantasies / thoughts.
theoretically only, could you be in a relationship with someone who only wanted your comfort but not your harm?
most likely not. it might work out for a while, but not in the long run. i am not a person mentally stable enough for that. i am not always kind, and not always rational. that, coupled with my lack of empathy and inability to view people asโฆ well, people, is not a good combo. plus, i believe that devotion requires one to be prepared for harm โ to both be cradled and to both be teared apart. my husband is willing to do so for me, as i am for him. if youโre only here for my comfort and good parts, youโre not here for me. iโm not someone who seeks comfort, either, so iโd gain nothing from such relationship.
what is neutral evil? do you want to hurt your darling?
neutral evil is just one of the silly D&D moral alignments that i personally think fits me best. and yes, i do want to hurt my husband. and kiss him better. and hold him. and shush him. and hurt him again. iโm obsessed with him #myhusband
if weโre talking about the first few years โ mentally ill, hateful, teeceecee enjoyer. edgy and frankly not fun to be around but it was important for my future (current) spiritual growth
you have to understand, i get mad at you because i love you. i threaten you because i love you. i hit you because i love you. misbehaving requires correction, doesnโt it? discipline, to ensure no one can get in the way. thatโs all it is, my love.
"i want a yandere" No you don't cunt. this is targeted towards those People who obviously won't handle someone who is Actually obsessive and wants someone just a bit obsessive/jealous. i hate people who say this. They're also the ones to Flock to anyone who shows obvious signs of being mentally and go "Omg be my friend" and then they're like mentally ill people are so exhausting to deal with :/ I hope you die
maybe im confused about titles but for me taken/devoted means the same as not single and if you feel you are married to someone then you are married to them what counts is the feeling not the papers
labels are something that confuses me as well. i agree. iโm aware that others will have a different perspective, though.
it was worth mentioning that not all should be viewed in black or whiteโi believe that labels are one of these things.
however, i wonโt shame another for it.
i agree with what you said. โdevotedโ means not single, just as โtakenโ and โmarriedโ does. to me, i view someone who is simply just interested in another to be โnot singleโ.
(because if you have your eyes set on someone, you will chase them until you, ultimately, do or donโt get what you desire.)
labels are a peculiar thing. the least people can do is respect what is (so blatantly) in front of them. if it is not obvious, people still need to respect that there are feelings involved.
i would also like to add that it is none of your business. no one asked what being โsingleโ or โtakenโ means to you โ it has nothing to do with us.
maybe itโs because iโm autistic, but i take labels strictly. you are not taken because youโre in love. you are not taken because you kiss. you are not taken because you have intercourse. you are only taken when you (both) agree to it. hell, you can be taken without love being involved; think political marriages & whatnot.
that said, since you people are nosy & parasocial when it comes to other peopleโs relationship (weird as fuck, by the way), you can think of us as taken. my point is that despite the label not being used, it doesnโt change anything. he is mine & i am his, always. i am in love with him.
iโm not gonna lie, whenever someone comments on one of my husbandโs posts my instinctual response is โdieโ. i donโt care if the interaction was completely platonic & friendly, you donโt even deserve to breathe the same air as him.
hi. you've inspired me to make a hater list (since I also have no dni but I like making fun of people). you are doing good for the world. or bad. depends on how you see it
thank you. i am deeply honored, & proud, to be an inspiration to the art that is hating. come, my pupils, & let hatred be your newly born fuel. something something.
I read though your entire hater list and I think itโs excellent/gen fuck yeah have a good day
you mean to tell me there are people out there with an un-fried attention span who take the time to read that and understand it and agree with it? immaculate critical thinking skills, if i do say so myself. have a blessed day, stranger.
