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Lyan | 24 | she/her | I’m just vibing bro

[thickness-protection-program]

At work: "when I get home I WILL create something!"

*Gets home*

[aropride]

trying to tell your mother that her actions actually do affect you somewhat on occasion

[metamorphesque]

when I am among the trees, mary oliver (read by amanda palmer)

made by yours truly

[metamorphesque]

When I am among the trees, especially the willows and the honey locust, equally the beech, the oaks and the pines, they give off such hints of gladness. I would almost say that they save me, and daily.

I am so distant from the hope of myself, in which I have goodness, and discernment, and never hurry through the world but walk slowly, and bow often.

Around me the trees stir in their leaves and call out, “Stay awhile.” The light flows from their branches.

And they call again, “It's simple,” they say, “and you too have come into the world to do this, to go easy, to be filled with light, and to shine.”

[venustrineasc]

My reminders tag is kinda hitting rn

[coughloop]

I keep listening to music but it's not enough

[venustrineasc]

The closer it gets to my birthday the less I want to do smth for it

[cadriona]

So, a funny thing happened on trigun twitter

(amazon link where its 50% off as of May 8th: https://www.amazon.com/This-How-You-Lose-Time/dp/1534430997/)

[cadriona]

Update, “this is how you lose the time war” is now #21 on Amazon’s bestseller’s list

(semi-related note but I too have now ordered the book)

[kosmogrl]

[venustrineasc]

Alexa play eternal sunshine by Jhené aiko

[pastperfectcontinuous]

bell hooks mentioned going through a time in her life where she was severely depressed and suicidal and how the only way she got through it was through changing her environment: She surrounded her home with buddhas of all colors, Audre Lorde’s A Litany for Survival facing her as she wakes up, and filling the space she saw everyday with reinforcing objects and meaningful books. She asks herself each day, “What are you going to do today to resist domination?” I also really liked it when she said that in order to move from pain to power, it is crucial to engage in “an active rewriting of our lives.”

[ritavonbees]

I have come to think of the suicidal impulse as the brain waving a flag to say three things:

something needs to change here

this is urgent

I don’t know how to do it

death is the ultimate metaphor for drastic change. it’s a general specific. whatever your problems are, it is very likely that dead people don’t have to deal with them. a real solution to your problems may demand a very narrow range of action that’s likely to be out of reach at this moment, but death is sold on every street corner, so it feels like a more realistic fantasy than happiness.

you don’t really want to die per se but it’s also not completely random chemicals swamping your brain for no reason. you want the pain to stop, you want to be somewhere else, you want to be someone else. it’s urgent. you don’t know how to do it. the end is not the end but a means that feels within your reach right now.

this is the wisdom of bell hooks: daily rituals of meaning and resistance and solidarity are part of slowly building a future where you can make the change you really need. and only alive people can do that. every step you take towards change and power is another step away from death.

[clatterbane]

A very similar approach is also the main focus of Kate Bernstein’s Hello, Cruel World. Besides the free “lite” version she put out (linked there), the whole book is available to borrow on archive.org.

[wuntrum]

"happy april fools day!" wouldnt even notice with the type of shit i got goin on

[quotemadness]

“You will always be too much of something for someone: too big, too loud, too soft, too edgy. If you round out your edges, you lose your edge.”

— Danielle LaPorte

[venustrineasc]

Every so often I re-enter my I don’t wanna be real/I wish none of this was real phase

[venustrineasc]

Also leave it to tumblr posts to reel me back into my live laugh love bullshit

[thematicparallel]

ZLIBRARY IS BACK

[canadianwheatpirates]

Here's an article talking about their new setup, tl;dr when you make an account you get two personally-assigned secret domains to help prevent it getting taken down by domain seizure. Don't share them with anyone!

[venustrineasc]

Hey it’s me again 😀

[lycanthology]

elderly young people what are ur loudest joints mine are probably wrists and shoulders