a resident of the oxford apartments, who lived below dahmerโs, doug jackson remembered frequently seeing dahmer at the huge green steel dumpster in the backyard with a horde of cats gathering at his feet when he dumped his human refuse inside.
"those cats would go crazy trying to jump up to get into that can to get at his garbage. i don't mean a couple of cats, either. i'm talking twenty-some cats!"
- doug jackson
he figured dahmer threw away a lot of fish products.
{๐ monster: the true story of the jeffrey dahmer murders - by ann e. schwartz.}
Jeffrey Dahmerโwhose greatest urge was to have a person who wasย โtotally compliant, willing to do whatever I wantedโโ one day, after reading the obituary of an eighteen-year-old, he went to the funeral home toย view the young manโs body (which he found so attractive that he immediately hurried to the bathroom and masturbated). After the funeral, Dahmer sneaked into the cemetery late one night with a shovel and wheelbarrow, intending to take the corpse back home, but gave up because the ground was frozen.
when dr park dietz discussed the opening of his victims abdomen, dietz asked dahmer if he imagined that his victims were suffering, to which dahmer told him that he did imagine that they were suffering, and that he was never excited about that idea, instead dahmer was excited about the insides being visible to him:
quote from dahmer during an interview with dr. park dietz:
โi was thrilled to seeing the insides, i never thought of them being alive while it was being done.โ
when dietz went on to question dahmer further about why he [dahmer] didnโt open the victims abdomens while they alive and drugged, dahmer explained that wasnโt what he wanted to do.
further quotes from dahmer during an interview with dr. park dietz:
โi wanted to sexually enjoy them while they were whole and undamaged.โ
*dietz asks if they were more appealing to him that way*
โuh-huh, but after they were cut there was some thrill in seeing the insides as well, but i never got any thrill in the actual act of strangling.โ
Dahmer was brought to court from the State Prison near Portage, some 100 miles west of Milwaukee. He was dressed in a faded t-shirt and orange jail pants, with several days growth of beard and stringy, tangled hair.
For Thanksgiving, in 1978, Carlos Cruz and his wife invited some of the younger soldiers to share the traditional celebration dinner in their house. Among them was Dahmer and a soldier called Preston Davis.
While they were having dinner, the snow began to heavily fall outside, and Cruz suggested that it would be wiser for them to all stay inside for the night, waiting for the morning to come and the heavy snow to calm down. For some reason or other, Dahmer and Davis began a heated argument, and Davis told him to get "the hell back to Baumholder!"
And Jeff decided it was exactly what he was going to do. He quietly walked out of the door into the snow at 10:30p.m. Baumholder was about eight miles distant, around a huge mountain and it was freezing cold.
When Cruz noticed what occurred between the two soldiers, he went out to search for Dahmer for 15 minutes, and soon returned home because of the cold, searching for more warm clothes in order to search for the troubled man a bit more. Cruz searched for Dahmer for half an hour before giving up, assuming he got a taxi to drive him back to Baumholder.
Surprisingly, 4 hours later, Jeff was back at the door like a kicked puppy, and Cruz warmly received him saying "Here's the orphan!", and the rest of the soldiers welcomed him back home. He appeared confused, vague, like his mind was elsewhere and not there. He had lost his glasses, his jacket was not cold to the touch, and surprisingly for a man that spent 4 hours in the sub-zero temperature, he was not affected by the conditions he had to face.
Cruz took him to the kitchen and Dahmer began to frantically wash his hands. After Jeff sat down and stared at the kitchen table, Cruz noticed faint signs of blood in his jacket. Cruz confronted him about it, and Jeff said he could not remember what happened when he was outside but assumed that it was 'bad'. Could he have tried to damage himself with his own spectacles?! Dahmer was considered weird enough to be suicidal, and it was then a suicide attempt to go out in the freezing cold.
Unfortunately, there are no answers to why Dahmer stormed out of the house, deciding to face the blinding snow then be with a frustrated soldier and drink until numb. Again, another enigmatic act of his mind.
SOURCES: The Shrine of Jeffrey Dahmer by Brian Masters.
โ"When I first met Jeff, if I tried to hug him or show him affection, he would just freeze up, his body became completely stiff. It was as if he didn't know how to react to love. I always wanted to protect him. He just seemed so vulnerable and in need of help."
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