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Catherine Standish has my heart · Slow Horses (hyperfocus), ACGAS, Downton · middle-aged couples forever · procrastinating writer · finally a 30-something

[verynonspecific]

The Petals | Chapter 8 ~ Games ~

Chapters: 8/10 (complete, weekly updates)

Fandom: Slow Horses (TV), Slough House - Mick Herron

Rating: Mature

Relationships: Jackson Lamb/Catherine Standish

Tags: Alternate Universe - Flower Shop, Slow Burn, Character Study, Original Character(s), Grief/Mourning, Anxiety, Canon Temporary Character Death, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, no beta we die like min, Panic Attacks, Suicidal Thoughts, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Slow Romance, Drama & Romance, Eventual Romance, AU that feels a bit too close to home

Words: 3,715

Summary: After dropping the bomb on Jackson, Catherine demands clarification. Will he be coaxed to reveal himself, in full?

→ Read on AO3.

[hyper-fics-sationn]

If anyone’s interested, I met Gary Oldman again tonight and asked him a question that’s been burning inside me for a while…

“If it were up to you, would you rather Jackson end up with Standish or Diana?”

He paused, stared into the distance of contemplation for a few moments, then leaned forward and whispered…

“Standish.”

And then he giggled, and then I passed away xoxox

Gary Oldman is officially a Lambdish shipper, pass it on 😚

[ffrederiks]

"because love can burn like a cigarette and leave you alone with nothing".

[thealdersgateoffice]

Young Jackson Lamb and Catherine Standish 🐌🐎

[part i] | [part ii] | [part iii] | [part iv] | [part v] | [part vi] | [part vii] | [part viii] | [part ix] | [part x] | [part xi] | [part xii] | [part xiii] | [part xiv] | [part xv] | [part xvi] | [part xvii] | [part xviii] | [part xix]| [part xx] | [part xxi] | [part xxii]| [part xxiii] | [part xxiv] | [part xxv] | [part xxvi] | [part xxvii]| [part xxviii] | [part xxix] | [part xxx] | [part xxxi] | [part xxxii] | [part xxxiii] | [part xxxiv] | [part xxxv] | [part xxxvi] | [part xxxvii] | [part xxxviii]

[verynonspecific]

The Petals | Chapter 7 ~ Whites ~

Chapters: 7/10 (complete, weekly updates)

Fandom: Slow Horses (TV), Slough House - Mick Herron

Rating: Mature

Relationships: Jackson Lamb/Catherine Standish

Tags: Alternate Universe - Flower Shop, Slow Burn, Character Study, Original Character(s), Grief/Mourning, Anxiety, Canon Temporary Character Death, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, no beta we die like min, Panic Attacks, Suicidal Thoughts, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Slow Romance, Drama & Romance, Eventual Romance, AU that feels a bit too close to home

Words: 2,705

Summary: Catherine's realisation has drastic consequences and her latest decision plunges her deeper into oblivion. Jackson tries to handle a situation that is quickly slipping from his grasp.

→ Read on AO3.

[danevasworld]

The Seven Lives of Catherine Standish. Chapter 9

Banner courtesy of @verynonspecific We are almost at the end!!

Chapter 9

Summary:

Catherine had just turned fifty when she got the letter at her flat. She didn't know what she would have done if it had arrived at Slough House. The "Department of Determinative Service" had scheduled her appointment. Her mother would have died of shame if she'd known it would come to this. Fifty and the bond still untriggered. It hadn't been meant to be like that, at least not at first. The timer had changed one night in '91. Instead of a steady countdown to a shared future with her soulmate, an infinity symbol had been etched on her skin. Not unheard of, but rare. Now she could finally find out what had gone wrong. The process was simple enough. The system granted you six questions, each leading to an alternative reality in which to gather the truth. Hopefully, she wouldn't get sidetracked.

[ffrederiks]

"They were in the back of a taxi, Lamb taking up seventy percent of the available space, and Catherine wishing the day over."

© Mick Herron, Joe Country

[ffrederiks]

Was messing around with pixel art a bit, so here's Catherine walking with her tiny legs

[unlikely-and-inaccurate]

[ffrederiks]

[unlikely-and-inaccurate]

🐺 🐺🐺🐺🐺🐺🐺 mom

[thealdersgateoffice]

Young Jackson Lamb and Catherine Standish 🐌🐎

[part i] | [part ii] | [part iii] | [part iv] | [part v] | [part vi] | [part vii] | [part viii] | [part ix] | [part x] | [part xi] | [part xii] | [part xiii] | [part xiv] | [part xv] | [part xvi] | [part xvii] | [part xviii] | [part xix]| [part xx] | [part xxi] | [part xxii]| [part xxiii] | [part xxiv] | [part xxv] | [part xxvi] | [part xxvii]| [part xxviii] | [part xxix] | [part xxx] | [part xxxi] | [part xxxii] | [part xxxiii] | [part xxxiv] | [part xxxv] | [part xxxvi] | [part xxxvii]

[lunaryboggart]

'Because the place that I feel safest

‎It was never there, never there at all.'

I know this musical style doesn't suit Jackson, but these lyrics...

[lunaryboggart]

'Poets will only say, "Let go of those rose bouquets"

They don't serve you anyway.'

This is probably the saddest Catherine and Jackson edit I've ever made. It reflects the most painful part of their relationship for me: the endless going in circles and their shared trauma.

When I listened to this track yesterday for the first time in several years, it made me cry, and then I had to make an edit because I immediately thought of them and couldn't keep it inside.

As Everything Unfolds – Rose Bouquets

[verynonspecific]

The Petals | Chapter 6 ~ Drinks ~

Chapters: 6/10 (complete, weekly updates)

Fandom: Slow Horses (TV), Slough House - Mick Herron

Rating: Mature

Relationships: Jackson Lamb/Catherine Standish

Tags: Alternate Universe - Flower Shop, Slow Burn, Character Study, Original Character(s), Grief/Mourning, Anxiety, Canon Temporary Character Death, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, no beta we die like min, Panic Attacks, Suicidal Thoughts, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Slow Romance, Drama & Romance, Eventual Romance, AU that feels a bit too close to home

Words: 2,515

Summary: Jackson has a hard time admitting to his inner workings when he receives some vital information. Meanwhile, Catherine experiences emotional overwhelm as she tries to come to terms with her own realisation.

→ Read on AO3.

[danevasworld]

[danevasworld]

Banner courtesy of @verynonspecific We are almost at the end!!

Chapter 8

Summary:

Catherine had just turned fifty when she got the letter at her flat. She didn't know what she would have done if it had arrived at Slough House. The "Department of Determinative Service" had scheduled her appointment. Her mother would have died of shame if she'd known it would come to this. Fifty and the bond still untriggered. It hadn't been meant to be like that, at least not at first. The timer had changed one night in '91. Instead of a steady countdown to a shared future with her soulmate, an infinity symbol had been etched on her skin. Not unheard of, but rare. Now she could finally find out what had gone wrong. The process was simple enough. The system granted you six questions, each leading to an alternative reality in which to gather the truth. Hopefully, she wouldn't get sidetracked.

[classicwtfplotline]

need s6 like i need air to breathe!!!

lamb x standish (slow horses) shake it - metro station screencaps - @johhans and myself