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lenn's mutuals only || 20, any pronouns || world's most normalest boygirl

[videoedits]

hi there! this is lenn but less filtered lmao. will be posting selfies and talking about my life and sometimes venting (filter "#.negative' in case you don't wanna see those) andddd being sillier i guess. also this isn't a +18 blog BUT I am an adult and will be rbing jokes/posts I normally wouldn't on main so also filter "#nsft text" if you wanna avoid those too.

PLEASE do not follow if we aren't mutuals bc I will panic and block you okay. Same if we know each other irl (love you but I'd rather you don't see this) thank you!!

[havingapoemwithyou]

Scientific method by James Tadd Adcox

[videoedits]

my gf's family is so homophobic and transphobic and I guess that's normal here in religious families but oh my god it hurts so bad to hear the things her brother says and how she wants so badly to be accepted by those who ask so much of her constantly but they'll hate her if they ever find out. and I hate MY family and their awful comments and to know my dad would call me crazy and disgusting if he ever found out. I feel like we're so alone and helpless and I don't know how we're supposed to live as ourselves when these people who are supposed to support and love you would not only turn their backs on you but try to convince everyone else to do the same if they knew the truth.

[videoedits]

es como una ansiedad rara, que está por pasar algo y que algo está mal ahora mismo y que necesito cambiarlo y detenerlo pero no sé cómo porque no entiendo cuál es el problema y me siento horrible. siento que me aprieta el pecho y que estoy viendo mi vida por una pantalla, siento que necesito hacerme algo para que todo pare pero sé que eso no es bueno y no sé qué hacer realmente estoy muy. muy mal pero por fuera estoy tranquila y no sé cómo voy a irme a clase así. no puedo seguir fingiendo que todo está bien. Hace días que estoy con esta sensación extraña de que algo malo va a pasar o ya está pasando y no sé cómo quitármela no sé a quién hablarle no sé qué hacer siento que voy a volverme loca

[videoedits]

there is something wrong and i don't know what it is and I'm late for the bus to class again

[dogdeerbones]

i am so . forgets what i was going to say and starts sobbing and banging my head against the wall

[videoedits]

God I feel awful. I can't even identify what emotion this is i just know it's bad and I don't know what to do

[dogdeerbones]

i am so . forgets what i was going to say and starts sobbing and banging my head against the wall

[videoedits]

Crying in my bathroom bc I might be a trans man after all and I've maybe kind of just been in denial for years because I'm terrified #saturdayactivities

[h-isforhome]

they don't tell you this but if ur really lonely for a long time, a hole starts forming in ur heart and the longer u feel lonely the bigger the hole gets and it doesn't matter if u feel less lonely when ur older bc the hole stays forever and ur life just grows around it. But the hole is always there.

[videoedits]

I started taking adhd medication again and I think it has the opposite of the intended effect on me. Like whenever I take it I go craaazy hyperactive and not shut up for even a second the whole day

[videoedits]

got home from work in the bus just to leave in 15 minutes to go to uni in another bus -_-

[videoedits]

head hurts like hell and I'm gonna be late to class ooooh my god

[the-grassy-hill]

sorry if i come off as rude my mother didn't like me for several years

[capacity2]

It’s actually crazy how bad feeling bad feels

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

seems like my dedication to my isolation isn’t going to save me. that’s crazyyyyy

[angelicdewdrop]