villita

nb22 // sw:159 cw:140 lw:106 gw:110 ugw:95

[villitalulz]

About me

You can call me Villa, im non-binary (they/them) and im 22 years old.

This is my first time having a dedicated and active tumblr blog, I’ve had them when I was younger but this is my first time actually using tumblr as a blog rather than for lurking fandom spaces lol.

I’ve struggled with d1s. 3ating since I was in my early teens, starting with B1ng3 34ting, and I was at my recorded highest, 160(?) I think. I started WL when I turned 19 after a horrible break up while living in an 4bus1v3 household. I developed 4n4 and was extremely r3str1ct1v3, to the point where if I 4te anything that was out of my few safe foods (steamed veggies and Greek yogurt w/ berries) I’d have to be rushed to the hospital. I got to my lowest 106 and dealt w rest. And p//rging and b1ng1ng.

Years later im now at 140 and I want to get back to my lw and maybe even aim for at 100-95. Im 5’ so my deficit is pretty harsh but it’s do-able.

I like music, going on walks, nature conservation, playing video games, drawing, and horror movies.

Im latine and I love listening to Mexican rock!! But I also like Japanese rock, American rock, shoegaze,,, lots of stuff.

Thank you for joining me on this journey. Lots of love

[schwezeirkase]

I lowkey miss when i was at my peak in @4@

[coppercr0ss]

shoutout queer ppl w/ an ed happy pride month, my loves. your disorder is still valid even if youre not the "typical anor3xic"

[unataraxia]

the guilt of wasting food when you grew up in poverty is strong but unfortunately this ed is stronger

[villitalulz]

I don’t feel like typing out everything tonight but ughhhh… gotta stay committed

Today’s total: 1,151

Breakfast: ratio protein peach yogurt + remy graham crackers = 280

Dinner: 2 ground chicken tacos w/ sautéd onions/bell peppers, avocados, salsa and queso oaxaca, and a little imitation crab to snack on = 416

Snacks: quest lime chili chips, rocky road puff built bar, 2 lightly salted rice cakes, and 2 mini beignet = 455

Step count: 14,110

Im definitely feeling the hunger but that just means it’s working YAYYY im excited for my first weigh in next week !!! Maybe with more work and discipline I can get to 120 sooner than the end of July!! Im not gonna push it though

Goodnight everyone, lots of love. I’ll see you guys tomorrow !!

[strwbrryhttps]

I will only be truly happy when I lose weight.

[villitalulz]

Todays total: 1226

Brunch: 1 egg, imitation crab, pickles and 1/2 avocado = 264

Dinner: ground chicken stir fry with snap peas and mushrooms and a side of kale my partner made me = 219

Snacks: maui monk pretzels, 2 rice cakes w/ pb and jam, toast w/ avocado and a mini beignet w/ hazelnut filling = 784

Steps: 14,419 tracked on my phone

I ate a little bit over what I wanted and I had a beignet which should’ve ignored but I’m not too pressed about it honestly… im happy with how much i exercised and how I’ve been listening to my fullness cues and dinner was super yummy !!! Hope everyone has a lovely night and I will see you guys tomorrow. I’ve got work in the morning so hopefully I’ll be able to just ignore my hunger for the most part, if I can’t I’ll get low cal snacks on my breaks.

[villitalulz]

mourning what I looked like at my lightest Omfg I was so cute and I loved hearing everyone talk about how small I was and how sick I looked (sorry) I can’t wait to be that again… I can’t wait to wear those clothes and be small and be picked up by my partner. End of July i WILL be 120 and I WILL get to 100 lbs again. Im so excited

[alivesince2005]

Me when somebody starts talking about how bad artificial sweeteners and sugar free drinks are for you as if they aren't the only thing keeping me from going insane rn

[deeplyforsakentrace]

Its time to lock in. No excuses, no but's, no snacks, no "ill purge/work it off", no. Its time to get hot. its time to not cringe every time your mom takes out her camera. Its time to not have a panic attack that your doctors checkup is coming up and you're going to be publically weighed. Its time to look in the mirror and see your hips and ribs peaking through your skin, because now there is no fat to hide it. Its time to look down at that plate full of pasta and say "im not hungry". Because you're not. You're stomach growling? You're mouth is watering? you feel like you need it? No. The only thing you're hungry for is a body you feel happy in.

[priiidefullypoached]

Eat for the body you want, not the one you have <3

[little2sensitive]

Being a poor adult is useful because i have no groceries to eat

[gh0stk1ttyyxox]

i feel so fake on here because im actually lowkey fat irl and im so sorry and im sad and im evil

[pinkieofedblr]

Too f@t to wear nice clothes, too f@t for nice things, too f@t for everything I AM TOO F@T FOR EVERYTHING💔

[iluvfrenchvanillalattes]

I will lose weight

I will lose weight

I will lose weight

I will lose weight

I will lose weight

[ftttttash]

AHHHHHHHH

[villitalulz]

Todays total: 1048

Breakfast: 2 teas + bottle of water

(2) rice cakes with nut butter + raspberry preserves = 225

Lunch:

(1) Japanese sweet potato and 3 halos = 298

Dinner:

Imitation crab + avocado, peanut butter + vanilla Greek yogurt = 525

Steps: 10,062

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Ate way more than I intended (went grocery shopping w/ my partner) as I DO have to be very low key about my disordered eating and thoughts… but they are on board and have been supportive of my weight loss. Hopefully it’ll be easy to conceal myself eating less and less. I’ll stick around the 1000 kcal range for now and I’ll keep my step count AT LEAST @ 10k a day. For now, being under 1200 is enough for me and I’ll try to get under as I try to get used to this again

I don’t rlly have anyone following this journey or anyone to share this with but I hope whoever stumbles upon this is doing okay and is having a good day. Love you all