silver and gold

violet danes; now i'm insecure & i care what people think

[violetxdanes-blog]

@violetsarentblue: My nose has been running all day.. It better be preparing for a race or something because I don't want to be sick.

[violetxdanes-blog]

petals; for a hot-tempered, warmhearted, guilt-ridden violet.

[violetxdanes-blog]

@violetsarentblue: this is probably my third time watching criminal minds all the way through & i'm already almost halfway done..

[cassidyprescott-deactivated2019]

“You know, I had hoped moving out of my parents house years ago would have symbolized that I’m an adult and can fend for myself. Ever since these creepy attacks started, my parents won’t stop calling me and trying to get me to have dinner with them almost every night. Then I miss one phone call, and they’re ready to call in the SWAT team. I doubt they would try to pull this shit with any of my brothers. I should have moved away when I had a chance.”

[violetxdanes-blog]

“At least you know they care now, y’know? It might be overbearing with them being all protective but I think it’d be kind of shitty if they didn’t care about your safety. I guess I don’t know the whole situation so maybe I’m wrong but.. I guess it would have been good to move away, considering everything..”

[felixgriffith]

The girl seemed to take his joke for what it was. She looked young and for a moment it crossed his mind that it really wasn’t all that safe to be out right then. “I know.” The words didn’t sound as cocky as they might’ve if they weren’t the slightest bit slurred. “What’re you doing out in the cold?”

[violetxdanes-blog]

“I was on my way home from studying at the library and I thought I’d just,” She shrugged, “Stop and enjoy the weather,” It was probably a little difficult to believe that she would actually want to enjoy the weather-- or that she even could enjoy it, considering it was near freezing, “There’s no one out here so it’s quiet, y’know? Kind of like I’m--,” She cut herself off and sighed, shaking her head, “Never mind. I was just enjoying the peace.”

[julian-kensington]

I need a drink. Wrote three pages today and deleted all of them. I can’t write nothin’ but shit.

[violetxdanes-blog]

“Three pages is a lot to erase. Maybe you’re being too critical of yourself? Or maybe you just don’t have the right inspiration. You could try reading another book? Sometimes writers get inspiration from other writers, right? Maybe I’m just making shit up, I don’t know. What usually inspires you?”

[felixgriffith]

Everything was blurred around the edges and he reminded himself not to drink so much next time. It wasn’t good for his image to be seen this way. “Wouldn’t even know if I told you.” He pointed out as he moved closer to the voice. “I wasn’t planning on it.. but that can change.” He was joking but his tone didn’t quite nail it.

[violetxdanes-blog]

"Ha,” She forced a laugh, “Ha ha,” It was better to assume he was joking, although she wasn’t one hundred percent sure with the way it came off. She moved her bag from the bench to her lap, not wanting to lose it again, “Funny,” She said after the long pause, “That’s.. That’s funny.”

[felixgriffith]

Felix was walking home from the bar and decided to go through the park. Sometimes he caught sight of clients but mostly he just needed time to think as he walked. Not that that was entirely possible since he’d had more than he meant to which is why he was walking in the first place. When he heard someone call out he raised a brow. “Yeah.. me.”

[violetxdanes-blog]

She squinted her eyes in the dark, trying to make out the figure that the voice had come from, “Okay well,” She shifted a bit on the bench, tucking her arms into her jacket, “Who are you?” She let out a shaky huff of air, the cold getting to her now that she wasn’t lost in thought, “You’re not going to, y’know... Kill me or anything, are you?” There was a tiny bit of hopefulness in her voice, although it was mostly masked by her quiet tone.

[violetxdanes-blog]

Violet had been out later than she should have been. Her parents thought she was at the public library. It had gotten dark about an hour and a half ago and it was so cold she could see her own breath in the air. She knew she should have been heading home by now, but it was the last place she wanted to be. Sitting on a park bench with her hands between her thighs for warmth, her body tensed up as she thought she heard footsteps approaching, “Hello?” She called out, “Is anyone there?”

[ethanryder]

“Look, just because I’m nice and you made me feel bad, I promise I’ll only fire half of them, alright?”

[violetxdanes-blog]

“Really? You’re being serious? You promise? You have to promise.”

[olivers-w-deactivated20201213]

“I mean that I’m used to it, so it’s not like it’s a bad thing per say.” He shrugged.  "Well I’ve got– Uh– Some friends, I guess. And my sister. But she’s in college. It’s enough, y'know?“ He wanted to add ‘most of the time’, but the last thing he wanted was to make Violet feel sorry for him. "I– Sure. Here.” He said, raising an eyebrow at her while handing her his phone.

[violetxdanes-blog]

"Well... Being used to something doesn’t mean it’s a good thing either,” There were a lot of things she’d gotten used to that weren’t good, but she didn’t want to think about any of that right now. She smiled at him before taking his phone. After about a minute-- maybe less-- of typing, she’d finished putting her number in his phone and handed it back to him, “There. Now the ball is in your court to get a hold of me again-- if you ever want to, that is.” 

[olivers-w-deactivated20201213]

“It’s okay. I kinda stay in my lane. Most people don’t notice me either way” He quickly said, feeling like something he’d said might’ve upset her. But then, it was his turn to sigh when Stevie’s name was mentioned. “Yeah. Was. I don’t know. Kind of complicated.” Oliver said, frowning slightly. “No, you’re not an ass-” He stopped himself, not wanting to curse. “Don’t beat yourself over that, y'know?” He shrugged and smiled at her. “Yeah, it’s been nice talking to you too, Violet.”

[violetxdanes-blog]

“Just because it’s something that most people do doesn’t mean it’s right or that it’s okay though, does it? I hate to get like, deep and all that but not being noticed by anyone must get kind of old? I don’t know.. Just a thought..” She furrowed her brow, feeling curious but not wanting to pry if it would upset him. Maybe she’d ask Steve later, “Bummer,” She left it at that, shrugging back at him, before tilting her head a little, “Hey, can I see your phone again for a sec?”

[ethanryder]

“That sounds like a problem of theirs. If they wanted to keep their jobs, they should’ve done a better work. I need results and I’m not getting them, kiddo. That’s how life works in the corporate world. Sucks, but you gotta learn to deal with it.”

[violetxdanes-blog]

“Well.. Don’t hold this against all the interns you get, especially the younger ones. I still say don’t let a few bad apples spoil a bunch. It would suck if you treated the next batch shittier just because these ones failed.”

[olivers-w-deactivated20201213]

“I’m usually not” He said, shaking his head. “But you know. Most of my friends–” He stopped himself, his mind quickly going to Steve. Shaking his head once again, he crossed his arms in front of his chest. “Anyway.” As she introduced herself, Oliver smiled. “I know. I’ve seen you around at school. You have– The twin, right?” He made a face before shaking her hand. “Is it weird that I know that? I’m– Oliver. Yeah.”

[violetxdanes-blog]

She shook her head, “No no, it’s not weird.. Most people know as a pair anyway so it’s actually pretty uh, pretty common,” She felt a pang in her chest thinking about her brother. He never talked to her anymore and she missed being close to him. Violet sighed quietly and then shook her head again, “I feel like kind of an asshole for not recognizing you,” She laughed, a slight guilty tone in her voice, “You’re friends with Stevie, aren’t you? Honestly, I’m such an asshole for not recognizing you, wow,” She really did feel guilty now. She’d seen him around a lot, although they’d never actually talked until now. Violet didn’t realize she was always so wrapped up in her own thoughts, but maybe she was, “Well, again, Oliver-- it’s been really nice talking to you.”

[ethanryder]

“Like– Three? Or four, I can never know. Two of them look like they could be twins. Look, kiddo, don’t worry about my interns okay? I’ll handle them.”

[violetxdanes-blog]

“It’s just getting close to Thanksgiving and Christmas and it would just suck to get fired so close to the holidays.. But it’s your decision, I guess.. I’m a twin but we’re fraternal so I never really had to worry about people getting us mixed up. ”

[olivers-w-deactivated20201213]

“We’ve got a deal then, mate” He joked, before winking at her. And then blushing, because he suddenly realized winking was a weird gesture. “Dude, I love Harry Potter. But I think that if I were to start doing cosplay, I’d be more of a Harry. I’ve got the wand and anything. Wait– I didn’t mean that in a dirty way, alright? Sorry.” He said, feeling his cheeks go red again. “I can promise I will never show up smelling like the inside of an old shoe, okay? I shower and stuff.”

[violetxdanes-blog]

She laughed when he tried to clarify his words. The fact that the words could have been dirty hadn’t even crossed her mind until he pointed it out, “You’re fine,” She smiled at him, “I don’t take you for the ‘sexual innuendo’ type so, I wouldn’t have taken it that way anyway,” Violet watched his cheeks turn redder and redder, a gentle smile on her face as her eyes scanned over his face, “I’m Violet, by the way,” She held out her hand towards him, “It’s been really nice to meet you.”

[ethanryder]

“Oh, they know. And they keep fucking it up, so– I’m not the kind of guy who repeats myself, you know?”

[violetxdanes-blog]

“Well that really sucks, then.. Are you sure there’s nothing to do other than fire them? How many of them are there? Maybe it’s only a few of them causing the problems and if you just get rid of those few, things will run more smoothly. My dad always says ‘don’t let a few rotten apples spoil the whole bunch’. Maybe that applies here.”